A/N more agnsty goodness.
Pretend.
Some nights he screamed. He would toss and turn in his sleep. Then he would wake up and scream. And scream and scream. And rip at his hands, trying to get off blood that only he could see. Blood from children. The children he had killed.
And Kakashi would hold him because he loved him. Loved him for screaming, loved him for crying. Loved him for being weak. Because shinobi were not supposed to be haunted by the ghosts of dead little girls with big brown eyes.
And it wakes Genma up and he hears Iruka scream. And Iruka cry and moan and scream again while Kakashi makes him feel better. And he doesn't say anything. Because he's their friend.
And Raidou wakes beside them. And he hears it too. And he knows that Genma is awake, that he's worried about their friend. But, it's Iruka's secret. So he lies there pretending to be asleep and wonders when Iruka will forget the people he's killed. Forget like the rest of them.
And the next day they'll all pass on the street. And Iruka smiles at Genma and Raidou and they smile back and ask him how his classes are doing and really mean if his ghosts are fading.
And Kakashi and Iruka pretend to hate each other so that Iruka doesn't loose his job for being gay and the village doesn't stop respecting Kakashi and they all just keep pretending. Because that's what shinobi do.
A/N. aww poor iruka. I just love torturing him. Review to stop me from killing all the people wearing green shirts on earth.