A/N - This story is a rewrite of "Dying for Love" except that it is told in Luke's Point of View instead of Zack's. You might want to read the other version first. It's up to you. I do suggest at least reading the preview for this story which can be found at the end of the other version. =)

Chapter 1 – Loyalty to Cody

"Zack Martin, report to the front desk immediately!" Mr. Moseby irritably yells from the loudspeaker. Not again... first he bursts into my room saying "Luke, this room is a pigsty. Clean it now. I'll be back in an hour expecting to be able to at least see the floor". Now he's getting on Zack's case. No surprise there though. Mr. Moseby is always into Zack's business. I can't blame him though. Zack is quite the troublemaker. Kind of like how I used to be before I started dating Cody.

It's funny how I couldn't stand Cody the first day I arrived on this ship, yet I am dating him now. After Zack introduced me to him, I realized that looks are not the only thing he has going for him. We became pretty good friends after a while, even though Zack was always my main man, being my roommate and all. Sure Cody was a lot better than I originally expected him to be, but Zack is still the hottest thing around.

As for us dating, that happened practically out of nowhere. I went to Cody's room to get some help with my homework and next thing I knew our eyes met. I didn't kiss him or anything. In fact, I acted as if he was the only one staring and asked him what he was doing. He turned bright red and tried to change the subject. Having walked in his shoes before, I didn't allow it. I came right out and asked him if he was gay and into me. He hesitated and I decided it was an appropriate time to state that I was into him. Sure I was into Zack more, but I'd been barking up that tree for quite a while now with no prevail.

I never actually dated anybody before or even had a kiss before so this was as new to me as it was to Cody. We decided to date, but not tell anyone about it. About a week later we had our first kiss and our relationship was going just fine, that is until Zack walked in on us kissing a few kisses later. The last person that I wanted to find out about us was Zack. I was in love with him too and if he knew I was dating his brother I would have an even worse chance of dating him.

So ever since that day, Zack and I haven't really been as close as we used to be. It's not that he hates me for being gay or for dating his brother behind his back. Zack isn't really the kind of person who would get upset over that kind of stuff. I just have been avoiding him lately. Being around him isn't really good for my relationship with Cody and that is currently my first priority.

I know myself and I am weak when it comes to being attracted to other people. I never really cared about someone before so I haven't found reason to tame my feelings, but now I have to.

"Wow. It's only been less than a year and I have all of this going on. Three years in my old high school weren't even this exciting." I say as I get out of my bed and walk over to my radio. Most people would find my situation stressful, but not me. I enjoy drama.

I turn on the radio and put on "Retainer Baby by Little Little". Zack introduced me to Little Little music since his former roommate, Marcus, was the singer. Ever since that day I've been addicted to his music.

I turn up the volume as loud as it goes and begin to clean. Mr. Moseby could be back any time now so I need to at least be cleaning by the time he returns. He said he will be back in an hour, but with him you never know. I guess this is what happens when I get fortunate enough to have no classes on Friday.

I begin gathering my clothes and putting them in a laundry bag when suddenly my music turns off. I look up to see Zack is the culprit.

"Hey I was listening to that." I yell, sending a vibe of irritation toward Zack.

"Wow, you're actually cleaning?" A typical Zack response. Ignoring what I say and making fun of my obedience to Mr. Moseby.

"Well Mr. Moseby said he'll be inspecting our room in an hour."

"At this rate you should be done by then. I'll go get us some snacks."

"Are you really getting snacks or just getting out of cleaning to go hang out on the Sky Deck?"

"Both"

"Okay then. Try to return as soon as possible." I say, not caring that he leaves. I don't really want to be around him nowadays so I don't mind if he helps or not.

"Do you want to go hang out with me on the Sky Deck after you wrap this whole cleaning thing up?" He asks hopefully.

He… wants to hang out? Should I… no. I can't. I have to stay loyal to Cody.

"Sorry, but I want to pick up Cody from class."

"Oh..."

"Well, if you're going to bring us some snacks then could you please make it snappy? I have to leave soon."

"Sure thing" he says seeming let down.

What have I done? Zack is trying to keep our friendship going and I'm just pushing him aside. Maybe I shouldn't just focus on Cody. Zack needs me too. And what about the promise I made to myself on the first day I was on this boat? I promised myself I would make Zack my boyfriend before this year ended. I doubt that will happen, but I could at least be friends with him and keep my love for him a secret. Yeah… I'll do that. Let's see how that works out!

Thank you for reading! This story will take a turn toward Rated M starting next chapter for "sexual insanity". Just a warning. =P

Please review and let me know what you think so far. I know most of this was summing up Luke's thoughts and feelings, but the story will be moving faster starting next chapter!