A/N - So i decided to write a sequal! Everyone told me they loved 'Discovering the truth and it hurts' so here is chapter 1 of what happened next! It's still AU so you probably have to read the first one first (if you understand me).

I don't own Torchwood.

Enjoy!

09th February

Four days! Four fucking days! Am I so bad that I cannot last four days with the man I love? It wasn't even four whole days.

He just came online and do you know what he said? 'I'm sorry but it's over, it just hasn't felt right and there's somebody else that I love'.

FUCKING HELL!

Then he signed off. He left me with that. Help me someone please – I can't loose him again. I think I might die, if I wasn't immortal. What is the point of living anymore? If I had any sense at all I would freeze myself for millions of years so that when I woke up, perhaps everything would be alright. I wish I could die.

Oh look, I'm crying. It's stupid to cry, I knew deep down that it was never going to work between us. I just thought… Four days?

I hadn't even kissed him again. The one thing that I want most in the whole world. The one thing that makes life worth living and it has gone. Again.

Oh he's signed in again… I'll be back in a minute.

Jack talked for a short while with Ianto, online – of course. His tears flowed freely again. He knew that at least this time he would have Tosh to talk it out with but she wasn't here at the moment. Writing, he felt that was the only consolation. But he was so distraught and in the realms of despair that he felt that he couldn't write anymore. He just wanted to die.

I can't write about this. I have printed a transcript of our conversation and stuck it in here. It's just too painful.

Jack says: I love you Ianto – why?

Ianto says: It just doesn't feel right, everything recently is just so complicated everyone is changing and… oh god him. I just tried it for u but it wasn't working.

Jack says: Four days – is that even a proper chance to give it?

Ianto says: I could just tell alright.

Jack says: I'll need a new diary, you're going to make me fill this one up pretty quick.

Ianto says: I know I should never have restarted it. I wanted to give it a go but I told you the break up would be worse the second time round.

Jack says: So far it's not worse though is it? It's just the same - at least this time I can talk about it.

Ianto says: Good, and I just needed to do this.

Jack says: Who's the other person you are in love with. You owe me that, at least.

Ianto says: But I don't really want to tell you.

Jack says: Fine then, don't tell me - see if I care.

Ianto says: Its just I don't know if I can admit to it yet.

Jack says: …

Ianto says: Fine then, its Kathy just don't tell Owen – please, please, please.

Jack says: Kathy?

Ianto says: Don't alright, just don't.

Jack says: Is she one of Owens friends?

Ianto says: No

Jack says: Rhiannon's friends?

Ianto says: Yes.

Jack says: Oh, alright.

Ianto says: Oh God!

Jack says: What now?

Ianto says: I'm sorry.

Jack says: So you keep saying.

Ianto says: I'm sorry you know, I knew we never should have started it up again I'm sorry, I hope now you can move on.

Jack says: …

Ianto says: Please, I really am sorry.

Jack says: So you keep saying.

Ianto says: You understand don't you?

Jack says: No. Because you damn well never explain anything - you make me feel like I'm worth so much and then it turns out all of what you've been saying is lies and you make me feel like nothing. The worst thing is - I still love you and I would drop everything to come if you called with no consideration for myself. I have no idea how to deal with that.

Ianto says: Sorry, sorry, sorry. It's just that you are worth so much to me and always will. But I don't feel like that and I'm complicated. Tell me, would you really want to know the truth? I'm confused, I'm stuck and I'm sorry but I can't help it.

Jack says: What hurts me is that you feel you cannot confide in me – I do try to see things clearly, from everyone's point of view but I don't know anymore.

Ianto says: I'm scared of what you will think. That you will say what everyone has said and do you want to know what I think or feel? No one else gives a shit. Why should you? I'm lost and I don't know what love is. I just don't know anymore.

Jack says: All you can hope for is that I'm honest, which I would be because honestly, I love you and I still care about you even if you don't feel the same way.

Ianto says: I'm sorry, I really am. I hate this.

Jack says: …

Ianto says: What am I meant to do?

So that was the first part of our conversation. Thing is, it's still going on as I write this and I really can't be bothered to keep copying it into a word document and printing it out as it comes and sticking it in. I might as well describe it.

Rhiannon is Ianto's sister. He's very close to her and it's been awful for him that he couldn't tell her about Torchwood and about our relationship.

Ianto is really cut up about everything. Very quickly the subject strayed from 'us' and fell back onto the real, underlying problem.

It turns out that Lisa, just before the battle of Canary Warf, left him. He loved her, still loves her, and that's why he rescued her from the cybermen. She broke his heart.

Ianto is angry at everyone who doesn't appreciate what they have. He thinks I don't know but I am immortal. I have seen so much of time and I know people that have so little, people who have experienced so much loss. The Doctor had his whole race wiped out before his eyes, his family, all his friends – gone.

I don't know what he is feeling. The therapy he's getting must be a good thing. Every time we talk I learn a little more. He is completely traumatized by his past. He told me that every time he shuts his eyes he can see it, hear it. First Lisa left him, then died. Then he came with us and almost got eaten by cannibals. He's messed up.

It's not his fault though, can you blame him? All he's been through. I guess I'm not the person to help after all. I really am ridiculous, he never loved me.

I just have to come to terms with the fact that I still love him.

Jack cried a lot that evening. Tosh came and they talked but Jack couldn't help thinking – here we go again.

A/N - Hope you like this story as much as the last one. Please review.