Prolouge

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"How do you know about the guy in the bar?"

"He called"

"Why didn't I get the message Ross?"

"It doesn't matter anymore Rachel." He replied sitting back on the couch wiping away the few drops of tears that were forming in the corners of his eyes.

They sat there in silence for a couple of minutes.

"I can't do this anymore Rach." he continued

"What?" She asked perplexed

Silence

"What, Ross?" she asked again her voice becoming a tad agitated

Silence

"I think… I think, you should move out"

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"Ross, I'm asking you one last time why didn't you give me the message?" she gave him another chance as she stood at the door, she had a bag in one hand and the other one she held Emma, somehow still sleeping peacefully when her parents were having probably the most pivotal moment which would affect her entire life. Rachel stood there looking at the man she once loved so much, it hurt. She still had hope that he would fan the simmering fire that had been burning inside her the day she had seen the blue lines on the stick that changed her life.

"You really wanna know why I didn't give you the message?"

"Yes!"

"You know why, because you don't know what its like to everyday wake up to the fact that someday, the mother of the daughter you love dearly will find someone who she will spend the rest of her life with and when that day comes what will I be left with, another child who I won't be able to walk to school in the morning, another child who I won't be able to care of when she gets sick. Another child who I might not be able to see graduating, another child who I will only see on weekends, another child… he choked up... another child who will only know me by the presents I buy." His voice barely a whisper as he spoke the last words.

Silent tears were flowing down his cheeks as he finished and shut the door behind her.

She was crying too, she stood there for what seemed like eternity, debating whether to go back in or finally move on, move on from the one man she had truly ever loved, move on from the one man who had the greatest power to hurt her whilst harboring the love, if shared, could heal her wounds in an instant.

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This is gonna be another fairly long fic somewhat dark and a little sad, updates will be a little more spaced out, this just a little teaser of the first chapter, which is preety much written. As you probably have figured out It starts from 913 "TOW Monica Sings". Can't garantee a happy ending but u should know I'm a sucker for fuff.

You probably want me to burn in hell for uploading this don't you ;-)