Disclaimer: I do not own Princess Princess (which is kind of obvious because I am posting on a fan fiction site)
What's wrong with me? I shouldn't feel like this, I mean, he's my best friend! Why is it that whenever he's close I have this need to touch him, some part of him that I want just for me; his hair, his cheek, his hand? He's like a drug that I can't get enough of. Since that day I kissed him… all I want is to feel his lips against mine again. To have him return my kiss, for us to be lost together in the sweetness of each other. At night, I can't sleep knowing he's so close but that I can't have him. I lay in my bed listening to his steady breaths and hope that maybe my feelings will be returned, maybe someday I'll be brave enough to tell him how I feel; tell him how he intoxicates me, making it hard to think clearly around him, making me want him even more. That the little I have of him isn't enough and never will be. Tell him I need more. Yes, I'm selfish, but I don't care. I just pray that if someday I ever do become brave enough to tell him that I love him, that if he doesn't feel the same way, we can still stay friends and he wont pull away from me, because if I even lost his friendship I think I would die. My heart would loose the strength I found to keep it beating and my soul would loose the will to keep going. Tooru was my lifeline; he saved me from the shattered remains of my former life and helped me become stronger. But I still don't have the strength to risk loosing that friendship yet. So as I lay here above him in our dorm, I imagine someday telling him, and he doesn't push me away or become angry, he just smiles and we share a kiss. That's why for the moment I will just keep my feelings a secret. That's why dreams are nice, because you can make things go just as you pray they someday will. I'll tell him… just not yet.
This can either be a prologue or if people like it I can continue and make it an actual story.
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