((Mediocre little fluffy one-shot. No plot, just boring fluff. I went for cuteness, but I guess it's more or less nothing. Very short, very 'I should be doing something in between Recalled to Life chapters so people know I'm not dead'. Enjoy?))
There was nothing more comforting to Cloud than Zack's warm embrace upon his return from a mission. He was happy to press his cheek against the warm skin on his lover's chest, taking in the scent he'd so longed for over the past week. Missions were coming for Zack far more often since his recent promotion to first class, making these opportunities rare and especially precious.
Worry was the primary
response each time Cloud would hear of one of his love's new
missions. Even as Zack did his best to make each task sound far
easier and less dangerous than it really was, Cloud found a new
danger and a new reason to worry himself to the verge of tears each
time he explained the mission and into a sobbing wreck the longer
Zack was gone.
After a full week away, Cloud felt ready to
implode. As he lay now in Zack's bed, clinging to the Soldier as if
his life were dependent on how tightly he could hold on, he found
comfort in every action.
"I tell you every time I go that
I'll be just fine." Zack spoke in a low voice, running his
fingers through his love's hair. Despite his assurances, he couldn't
deny the fact that Cloud's attention made him feel like nothing else
could. He never would have imagined that, after all the girls he'd
had practically swooning at his feet, a shy little MP such as Strife
would be the first he could truly call 'love' without regret.
"I
know." Cloud whispered, loosening his grip and adjusting himself
so he lay comfortably on Zack's chest. This was the most comforting
thing Cloud knew to do when he finally found himself in Zack's arms
again. He rested his cheek softly on the soft skin over more firm
muscle on his lover's chest. He closed his eyes, glad to feel the
gentle movement of his own head as Zack's chest expanded with each
steady breath.
'He's alive. It's okay now. He's alive.'
is the thought process that went through Cloud's mind every time he
lay this way- every time the elder Soldier came home.
At the same
time, Zack would run his large, calloused hand gently over the
younger boy's back. He always felt so cold to the touch that
sometimes Zack wondered how the boy managed to survive. It was as
though he was literally cold-blooded. Although he couldn't explain
it, he knew Cloud's affinity for this ritual and went through with it
for as long as was necessary.
Cloud tightened his eyes shut,
letting a breath out through his mouth as he nestled himself in, his
ear pushed eagerly against the warm flesh.
It wasn't until he
could hear the clear, steady rhythm of Zack's heart thumping beneath
his ear that he could truly let himself relax, convincing himself
that he really was okay.
An entire week away. Cloud couldn't
remember a time before this that he'd been gone so long without
warning. At least in the past he could brace himself. He felt his
eyes filling with tears. Where the hell was this coming from? Zack
was okay. He knew he was okay. He couldn't break down now.
"Are
you alright?" Zack asked now, feeling Cloud tense against him
again. By this point, Cloud was usually relaxed and even beginning to
fall asleep normally. But Cloud was more tightly wound than he could
remember him being in the past, the muscles in the younger man's back
like steel to the touch.
"Sorry." Cloud breathed, trying
to refocus his attention, to calm himself down.
Lub-Dub
Lub-Dub Lub-Dub...
He studied the sound in his ear. This
sound he knew well enough, though he never tired of it. Something
about it kept him constantly enthralled. He was sure that it was the
fact that it was, in his mind, completely his own. A trait that was
uniquely Zack's physically, but something that only he would have the
pleasure of knowing.
Zack smiled to himself as he felt Cloud's
body relax against his own again. It pained him more than he would
ever let anyone know to leave the boy the way he did. It was getting
worse, too. In his mind, he made up a million plans to take him
away...to leave Shinra and start a new life for him. If only doing so
wouldn't spell out his own death. And yet, the mere thought of
whisking the boy away, of being the hero Cloud held him to be,
excited him in a way none of Shinra's missions
could.
Lub-DubLub-DubLub-Dub...
Cloud's eyes opened
slightly, staring at nothing as his eyes had little time to adjust to
the darkness of the room. Zack's heartbeat quickened notably, causing
Cloud to suck in breath, holding it for a moment, hoping it would
somehow return the comfortingly slow rhythm to him.
"Are...you
okay?" Cloud found himself asking before he even realized
he'd opened his mouth. Zack blinked a few times to clear his mind
when Cloud asked. Was the boy really observant enough to notice what
must have been perhaps the tiniest tensing of his muscles when the
dreams of freedom crossed his mind?
"Yeah. What makes you
ask?" He could actually feel Cloud's cheek heat up as he asked.
What the hell? he asked himself, at a complete loss.
"It's
just..." Cloud let out a small sigh. He counted each of the
hurried beats of Zack's heart as they reached his ear, trying to
decipher what the sudden change in pace could mean. At the same time,
he tried to think of a proper excuse as to why he would ask,
apparently out of the blue, if there was something bothering his
love.
"Just what?" Zack asked, perhaps too quickly. Why
was he so curious as to what tipped Cloud off? Was it that important
that he was able to lie to the boy? The thought actually scared
him.
"I...I can hear..." Cloud began, tensing again, "I
can hear your heart." he whispered, pulling himself up now. What
was once comforting now made him feel guilty and invasive. "It...it
started beating kinda fast..." he explained further, thankful
for the dimness of the room to hide the blush on his cheeks, "I
was just wondering...if you were alright."
Zack's lips
twisted into a smile. He wondered if this was Cloud's typical
routine. Was it his own heart that kept the boy plastered to him each
time he came home. While the idea was foreign, he could make sense of
it almost instantly, given the boy's worry over his own safety and
life. Something about the whole ordeal struck him as irresistibly
cute.
"I'm surprised it's the first time you've noticed it."
Zack said now, sitting up and gently urging Cloud closer to him. His
charm was on in full-force and Cloud could see the twinkle in his
eyes even in the darkness of the windowless room.
"It's
not...I mean I can hear...sometimes..." Cloud's voice didn't
seem to work. Why the hell did this embarrass him so much? He could
kick himself in the ass for mentioning at all.
"Not that."
Zack said softly, cupping Cloud's chin in his hand, "My heart
beating fast, I mean." he flashed a smile that Cloud swore lit
the room, "I can feel it pounding like mad every time you're
close." And before Cloud had the chance to respond, Zack pressed
his lips firmly against his, taking Cloud's hand with his free one
and touching it firmly to his chest.
Cloud couldn't help but blush
to feel beneath his fingertips the truth in Zack's last statement.
