"Call Lowen," Tara said numbly, her hands behind her, tightly clasped in handcuffs, as her entire body trembled, walking past a shell-shocked Jax. Jax shook himself out of it and chased after Tara, grabbing her by the arm and turning her around, "Jax. We need to take her in," said the sheriff. "Come on Roosevelt," Jax said, almost frantically, "please, just give me a minute?" He looked at Tara, tears falling down her face, her eyes facing the ground. He grabbed her chin, forcing her head and eyes up to his, "I will get you out of this," he said, wiping her tears with his thumbs.
"Listen, I know you did what you thought needed to be done with the will ... Wendy. But you never let me finish telling you," he whispered as he pulled her in, wrapping her tightly in his embrace. "The deal is done ... We are out of all of it. The guns, the coke ... Everything. Out clean. No retaliation," Tara leaned her head back, her eyes wide,"Are you serious? How!" "Wrap it up Teller," Eli said, as he started to walk around the vehicle. "I'll explain everything. Listen to me. I'm gonna head up to Stockton in the morning. Sit down with Otto, seeing as they're now allowing visitors," Jax scoffing as he rubbed his chin, "Not that he can talk to me, but all he needs to do is hear me." "Ok," Tara took a deep breath. "Hurry. Please, Jax," Tara pleaded, the tears starting to fall. "Babe, I will be there to get you. You will be in a holding cell until at least sometime after noon. I will be there before then. I promise." He replied as he leaned in and kissed her hard. He could taste the salt from her tears and it tore at his heart. All of his shit that she has had to deal with for the last 3 years. 'This is all my fucking fault,' Jax thought.
"Let's go Mrs. teller," Eli said as he pulled on Tara's handcuffs. Tara winced. "Jesus Christ. Her fucking hand?" Jax said incredulously, as he eyed up the sheriff. Roosevelt, suddenly embarrassed by the force he used on the doctor, apologized, "Tara. I'm sorry. Really." Tara nodded at the sheriff. "What's going on," a voice called from across the street. Gemma came out of her car, walking toward the scene. "What does it look like Gemma?" Tara spat, as Roosevelt helped Tara into the back of the cruiser. "Why are you here," Jax said to his mom as he turned to her. "Yeah Gemma," Tara yelled out as the door began to close, "why don't you tell him why you're here!" Jax turned back to the cruiser and out his palm against the window. Tara leaned her cheek again the window briefly, then the vehicle pulled away, leaving Jax staring at the taillights. He didn't move his head, didn't move a muscle.
"Why ARE you here, Mom?" He turned his head slowly toward Gemma, "its 11o'clock, Mom. Ain't no way you would have heard about this, unless you're the reason this is happening to Tara." He faced her, glaring as he walked closer. Gemma had the wherewithall to at least shirk away from him. Suddenly a cry rang out from the house. "I'll go get Thomas," Gemma said as she started for the house. Jax grabbed her arm and whipped her back, Gemma almost falling with the force. "You stay away from the boys," he yelled, "mine and Tara's boys. NOT yours. Never yours! Go home Ma, " Jax said as he sighed, " I'll meet you at TM at 7:00. Don't be late. We ain't finished with this." He said as he walked into the house and quietly closed the door, leaving Gemma standing outside staring after him.
Jax walked in grabbed a bottle from the fridge and went to Thomas' room. Picking him up he said "You look so much like your momma, little guy." Thomas nuzzled for the bottle and finding the nipple, settled in for his midnight snack. How Tara managed to do all of this with Abel and pregnant with Thomas was beyond him. She was so much better than he deserved. But he would never give her up. Loved her too much. Took him almost 20 years to get her back. So instead, he was going to become the man that she deserved; the father his boys deserved. She loved him through all of his shit; the cheating with Ima, the guns, the cartel ... All the bullshit. She helped the club as much as any of the members, saving Cameron's life, the fucking bastard who kidnapped Abel, sewing up the guys on more than one occasion, doing CPR on Chibs when Zobelle tried to blow them up, and pulling more bullets than he can count out of guys, including Alvarez, President of the Mayans. Even helping his mom escape from St Thomas to go with him and the guys to Ireland to find Abel.
He shook his head ... Realizing now, that his love, his loyalty to the club was so sorely misplaced. It was Tara who deserved his love, his loyalty, the most. She married him in a brothel, for Christ's sake. The club has caused nothing but grief. He lost his Dad, Piney and Opie ... God, Op. Jax rubbed at his eyes, pushing away the tears. He had wanted out because of his love for his family ... Donna. But Jax, not at all understanding how much one could truly love another person, talked him out of leaving. And it would forever haunt him. Looking down at Thomas, Jax now understood Opie's desire to do better, want better for his family. Thomas had finished his bottle and fallen asleep. Jax lifted him over his shoulder and gently patted his back, not taking long before his sleeping son emitted a milky burp. Jax lowered Thomas down and held him in the cradle of his arms. Simply staring at his sleeping face. This is what it's all about. The best thing, hell the only thing he can do now is to BE the man that Tara and his boys needed. And nothing, no one was going to stand in his way.
Elyda arrived at 6:30 to watch the boys for the day. Jax explained to her that under no circumstances should his mother be allowed in the house to see the boys. In fact, he told her that if Gemma showed up, to call the cops: something he never thought he would have to resort to. He had also grabbed a bunch of plastic bins from the basement and instructed Elyda to pack up the boys rooms, as best she could. As soon as he got Tara, they were going getting the hell out of But from now on, Tara and his boys were going to be priority #1. And he was done with SAMCRO, Charming and most of all, Gemma.
***my first fanfic ... Hope you like it ... More to come *** don't know how to rate it so apologize for the swearing ... Wanted to rate it M ... Happy reading!