Ni Yao De Ai(The love that you want)
A two shot
Disclaimer: You know the deal. I dont own shit..erehmmm Inuyasha or this song
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He left her alone without a care in the world. Now three years later he's back but she wont give in.
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Although I have often dreamed of you
I still have no idea
its raining outside.
What day is it today?
I dont know.
Where did you go?
She was freezing. Not only inside but outside. Her heart was frozen. And it was cold. It had been raining for weeks now and it didn't look like it would cease. Her tiny apartment had no heating and it was leaking everywhere. But she was used to it. Her pathetic childhood had prepared her for this kind of life. She had earlier accepted in her life that she wouldn't be able to make it better. Jobs were scarce and the measly pays that she worked for everyday were barely enough to pay the rent let alone buy food and warm clothing.
She was lucky to have a job. Hell, she was lucky she was alive. Everywhere she looked kids like her were dying of sickness, poverty, and murders. Last week she saw with her own two eyes a drive by shooting. Right next to her apartment. Three men had died that day while she was cowering under her blankets. Kagome tried to block out the sounds but it brought back horrible nightmares. Terrible, dangerous nightmares.
She thought three years earlier that he made the nightmares go away but ever since he left, they came back. Over and over again until she couldn't hold it in any longer and fell into a deep dark sleep. Fucking bastard. The thought of him made tears well up in her eyes and her heart beat faster. She scolded herself over and over and over again. She would not think of him. She would not let her heart love him.
Their history together was impeccable. They fell in love at seventeen. He was a rich, rich, rich playboy while she was the school nobody. She hated him from the begining and he hated her but somewhere along that line their hate became friendship until they realized in that park that day they were hanging out, their friendship became something more. That was the day he kissed her. She had never been kissed before and the feeling of his lips made her feel exhilarated. She was so happy. Finally someone who loved her. That day, they became a couple.
The whole school rediculed him. They said that she wasn't good enough for him. That she wanted him for his money. That she was worthless. That made her angry. It made him even angrier. He didn't care what they thought but he would punch someone out if they dare make a remark about her. Soon the tauntings stopped. Everyone accepted that this was how things were and they weren't gonna change them. They moved in his "mansion" and his parents never made a remark about it. They were glad in fact that Inuyasha had found someone that was level headed and responsible. Someone who didn't love him for his money. They loved and absolutely adored her.
She would wake up screaming in his bed but he was always by her side. Comforting her and helping her through the night. Soon the nightmares ceased and she was happier then she had ever been. The days were flying by and she felt like she was floating on air. Though they still fought about insignifant things, they always made up. High school came and went. There was no more unhappiness in her life but sometimes things are too good to be true.
They were happy for sometime but then the aruguments got worse and the loving got less. She suspected there was someone else. No. She knew there was. But she kept silent hoping that she was wrong and he wouldnt leave her. Funny how fate always fucks with her.
Although I have never
doubted you.
I still feel uneasy.
Who is your one and only?
Forgive me for doubting myself.
FLASHBACK
"Damn it wench I said I was sorry", golden eyes peered at her angrily.
Sorry. Your always sorry. Every fucking day your sorry. Your such a liar.
"I dont want you apology Inuyasha, I want an answer! Why were you holding her?" She didn't really need an answer did she. She already knew but she wanted him to confirm it.
Im so tired Inuyasha. Do you know that? Don't you know that? Do you even notice me anymore. I love you.
"Its not in your fucking place to be asking bitch. I saw what you were doing with Kouga. Prancing your ass all over his body. Your nothing less of a whore!" As soon as those words came out of his mouth time stopped.
Kagome. Im sorry. I didn't mean it. Please forgive me.
Those words never came out of his mouth though. There was just silence and he knew he had crossed the line.
"Is that how you feel Inuyasha?" She let the question hang in the air. "That im a whore. That im fucking worthless. That Im a NOBODY?"
I understand the love I want
will spoil me like a child
who only knows how to be
bad in your arms.
"Inuyasha, I dont think this is working out anymore. Maybe we should see other people." He was stunned. For a second he thought she was kidding. But it wasn't like that. Her face was so serious and he felt his heart start to crack. He put on his stone facade. The facade where he let drop after he fell in love with her.
"Is that what you want?" He had asked so coldly.
Kagome please don't leave me. I need you. I really do. There was a pregnent pause as tears formed on her face. He wanted to wipe them away. "Yes."
His hands were clenched into tight fists. He could smell his own blood and it was nausiating. He realized this wasn't one of their measly fights. This was for real. There was no going back. "Okay. I'll leave you alone." His voice was so harsh even she winced. And in that minute it gave him satifaction to hurt her. To make her feel pain. So he taunted her.
"And if you we're wondering, yes theres someone else. Poor Kagome. Your pathetic. So clueless of everything around you. It's a wonder I keep you around." He wanted to make her hurt like he was right now. He wanted her to suffer. His voice was unemotional and his stone mask wouldn't fall. Half of him wanted to comfort her and the other half wanted to kill her. He went with the suffering half.
Inuyasha why are you doing this?
Because he knows. He knows your fake. He knows your stupid and worthless. Face it Kagome. You were just a toy. He deserves someone better than you. He knew you were a liar even before you realized it.
He knew.
He began toying her. Making her break.
"I want your stuff out of here by seven. If I return and your ass isn't out of here I'll get someone to arrest you." He walked slowly to his door. With a pause at the door knob he turned around and said, "You never were much fun anyways."
Inuyasha your so stupid. You love her but your hurting her. You filty puppy.
Shutup.
You'll never see her again. She'll find someone new while you'll be suffering in this dank room. Blaming her for your mistakes.
I said SHUTUP.
You never should have toyed around with Kikyou. You know you love Kagome. Bad habit of yours isnt it? Scaring away people who love you for someone as pathetic and whorely as Kikyou.
You know im right. But its too late. Live with the decisions you make. But you didn't have to drag poor Kagome along with you. She's drowning now.
shut.the.fuck.up.
I love you Kagome.
END OF FLASHBACK
Wo ming bai Wo yao de ai
Hua ba wo chong huai
Xiang yi ge xiao hai
Zhi dong zai ni huai li huai
Ni yao de ai Bu zhu she yi lai
Laong xian nan ge nan hai
Laong lui shai Zu yao zu zai
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AN: Okay so if I get alot of reviews then I will post the second part faster. KAYS? Oh yea and sorry about not working on ROOM BUDDIES but I promise you that I have two chapters done. I just haven't have time to type it up. TOO LAZY. But see this came to me while I was surfing the net. Too angsty? Come on give me some feedback peoples! So please review. This was one of the longest two shots in a while. WOW! Wanna know if Kags and Inu get back together? hmmmmmmm...
Okay so I know you guys are wondering what this song is. If your asian and watch korean, chinese, taiwan, viet dramas you probably know the drama "meteor garden" right? well this is sung in meteor garden. Its called Ni Yao De Ai(the love that you want) sung by Penny Dai. ITS REALLY GOOD. The song and the movie. I dont take credit for this song but i had to fix the grammer so it could make sense for the english version. I put the korean version at the end cause it just made sense to me. Well thanks for listening to my babbling. Remember to review and I will put the next chappy in.