Summary: My first R&R fanfic. Songfic for Sheryl Crow's song "Home." From Rachel's point of view. One-Shot.
Disclaimer: I don't own them. Never, ever will.
I got out of bed, trying hard not to wake him. Tiptoeing to the kitchen to get me some coffee. Early start. Every morning just to avoid a fight. That's when they come. I just say that it's my grumpiness in the mornings, but we both know what the problem really is. Just to afraid to confess to them.
I woke up this morningNow I understand
What it means to give your life to just one man
Afraid of feeling nothing
No bees or butterflies
My head is full of voices
And my house is full of lies
Later that day I go pick up my daughter Emma from school. We drive in silence for a few moments until she breaks it.
"Mom?" she asks me.
"Yeah." I say; keeping my eyes on the road.
"What's up between you and dad?" she says looking at me.
"What are you talking about?" I say knowing where this conversation is going.
"Mom, you know what I am talking about. You and dad fighting."
"Honey, that's what married people do sometimes."
"But you guys do fight all of the time. I mean I'm always over a friends house because I'm so tired of hearing the yelling," she practically yelled at me.
"Emma you're just thirteen. You have no clue." I said mad at her out burst.
"Thirteen is old enough for me to understand that you guys have problems."
Those words hit me like a ton of bricks. Ross and I do have problems.
This is home, home
And this is home, home
This is home
Emma rushed into the house before I could even get to the doorstep. She rushed into her room visibly angry. I sighed. That's when I saw him sitting on the sofa.
"Rachel, we need to talk," he said.
I found you standing there
When I was seventeen
Now I'm thirty-two
And I can't remember what I've seen in you
I made a promise
Said it everyday
Now I'm reading romance novels
And dreaming of yesterday
"Ross, please?"
"No, Rach. We are going to talk. And this is not going to be another fight." He said calmly.
He didn't have to say it. I already knew.
This is home, home
And this is home, home
This is home
I like to see the Riviera
And slow dance underneath the stars
I'd like to watch the sun come up
In a strangers arms
This is home, home
"Ross you don't even have to say it. You want a divorce." I said on the verge of tears.
"Yes Rachel. I want a divorce. I mean all we do is fight. It's hurting Emma, too. She doesn't even speak to us."
"I know. I just feel the same about you, like I did in the past. Emma even said, to my face, that we have problems. We need to be apart." I said.
"So divorce." He said.
"Divorce"
I'm going crazy
A little everyday
And everything I wanted
Is now driving me away
I woke this morning
To the sound of breaking hearts
Mine is full of questions
And it's tearing yours apart...
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