I remember the very first day I met you August twentieth 2000, shy and scared I was at moving to a brand new neighbourhood but with your
welcoming smile all my worries seemed to disappear, the start of an instant friendship.
But our friendship changed the day you tried to kiss me, August twentieth. We at my apartment baking cookies until one thing led to another and it emerged into a food fight. The two of us laughing like idiots, covered in dough. But I guess the atmosphere changed because we weren't laughing any more simply, gazing at one another until I saw you leaning towards my face and felt the taste of your lips on mine. I pulled away and ran because at
ten years old I wasn't interested in a boyfriend nor was I ready for you to show your true feelings towards me.
And even though you promised you would never try and kiss me again, that precise moment our friendship evolved from me considering you as my oldest best friend but rather a member of the opposite sex.
Throughout those teenage years I knew you still liked me but it was never the right time to tell you my feelings towards you had changed so I laughed at the idea of us dating and told you I would never love you even though I knew that I did.
Yet I was aware that things were different leading up to that day. Gone were the affectionate comments regarding me and your desire to satisfy my ever need.
But on that august twentieth day I never expected to see my two best friends walking hand in hand towards me. Even though I felt like my heart was breaking I smiled and said that I knew you two liked one another. Except I was oblivious to the fact there could ever be anything more, behind all that constant fighting.
You were polar opposites you the loving and affectionate guy and Sam the angry aggressive one.
But you changed her Freddie because gone were her constant moods but replaced with pure happiness.
I just wish that I still had that effect over you.
During those years each of us went our separate ways in life, the two of you still going strong. Nonetheless I still hoped that you would break up with her however that never happened.
And when the two of you came to visit me that August twentieth night proudly showing of the engagement ring, I felt my heart shatter once again but yet I remained strong and congratulated you both. As we reminisced that night of a time were you still had feelings towards me we laughed along like it was the craziest idea in the world, still I would give anything to be back in the that world.
And now as I stand on the altar watching you two being announced husband and wife, I cry. Not tears of happiness at my two best friends setting a
life together but tears of bitter regret and sadness because I realise that I truly have lost you forever exactly twenty three years since I met you, seventeen years since you showed those feelings for me, thirteen years since you became a couple and two years since you became engaged on that same unforgettable date, August twentieth.
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Sucks to be Carly doesn't it?
P.s. that was in fact Carly I know I never actually mentioned her name but I thought it was kind of obvious lol. Please review and tell me
what you thought good or bad :D