A/N: So, newest fic. I don´t even remember how I came up with it. I guess I just love my ship too much to let it sink! Screw Shonda, screw MerDer! Let´s get Addek back!

Disclaimer: I don´t own anything. If I did, my ship would still be there and there wouldn´t have been any disgusting break up sex that made me stop watching. Break up sex between Addie and Derek without breaking up would´ve taped my Addek heart together again though.

Oscar note: Patrick Dempsey! Seriously, I've seen him in real life but I had to keep myself from screaming at the screen! And hats up to Jill, she's just gorgeous. Ruby Dee, amazing person. I couldn't help but drop everything I was doing and just looked at her and listened to what she said. Amazing actress.

#Anyone Else But You#

When You´re Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd, need you there when I cried.
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie,
Is made up on your side.

Addison couldn´t believe it. He was gone. It was over. All over.

She had been married for eleven years, their twelfth anniversary only weeks away. Now it was like she was having a nightmare. One she knew she would never wake up from. Addison Shepherd wasn´t Addison Shepherd anymore. It was just Montgomery now. Derek and she had gotten a divorce. After sixteen years of being a couple and twenty years of being best friends.

Her marriage with her McDreamy ended. No, not her McDreamy anymore. Meredith Grey´s McDreamy. Addison felt nauseas, numb and empty. She glanced down on her hand. The hand her rings once had been shimmering on. Now there just was a pale line where her wedding ring had been.

She could feel tears building up, but tried to blink them away. Addison Montgomery didn´t cry. She didn't show weakness. That was how she was and who she wanted to be. But she had distanced herself from this and she hated it. Addison had been crying herself to sleep every night, but the worst thing about this entire situation was that she had to see her ex husband and his dirty, and not even pretty, dirty mistress every day. She had to work with both of them and Addison always plastered on a smile. She missed him and she would have done everything to get the love of her life back.

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

This was what confidence and independency had gotten her into. Derek thought she didn't need him and quite honestly, she couldn't blame him.

Addison had thought she would be alright on her own.

But truth was, she missed him and she couldn't picture how it would be without Derek. It made her heart ache and her stomach twist when she even thought about it. About having to live without him. Him who she had given her heart to.

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too!
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day...
And make
it OK...I miss you

Months had passed since they weren't AddisonandDerek anymore. Now they were Addison and Derek, the divorced couple that avoided even looking at each other. It had been hard, going to work every day and seeing each other. But Derek didn't care, or that's what Addison thought.

The reality was different though. It hurt him to see Addison like this. However he was with Meredith. Who he loved.

But the situation was complicated. Of course he still had feelings for Addison, that's how it is after all the years they had been together.

Derek sighed. How could everything had become like this? How had he gotten from husband who loves his wife more than anything to the guy who had ignored his wife, treated her horribly and then divorced her.

Deep down Derek hated himself for what he had become.

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do,
Reminds me of you.
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor,
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do!

He hated himself for what he had done to the love of his life, she was broke and it was all his fault. Whoa, wait, love of his life?! No, that couldn't be, he loved Meredith. Meredith loved him. It was perfect.

But he found himself thinking about his ex wife a lot these days.

Everything reminded him of her. Like when he opened a Cornflakes pack.

Addison could never open it and had always asked him to do it for her.

It was the little things. The little things that made him realize just how much he missed her.

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too!
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day...
And make it
 OK...I miss you

Addison sighed heavily, leaning back against the wall behind her. She closed her eyes, trying to push the picture of Derek and Meredith, that had burned itself into her corneas, back. She didn't want to see it. She wanted to get over him, move on. Move on to a better place. But someone above seemed to hate her and just wouldn't let her.

Addison probably just needed a break of everything, to cleat her head and maybe scratch her own eyes out.

And the worst thing was yet to come, she had to work with him today. Not Meredith, but Derek, who was the lesser of two evils, but she still hated it.

Addison hated having to do this, having to act as if she was fine with everything. Because she was not.

We were made for each other
Out here forever,
I know we were,
Yeah Yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul,
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me...
Yeah

Derek's eyes caught a flash of red hair. His head spun around and his eyes immediately searched for her. But Addison was gone, she had disappeared once again. It was just after they had been talking about their patient.

Their gazes had locked several times but she had broken the spell that was between them by looking on the ground. And Derek couldn't blame her.

It made his heart ache for her. For who she used to be. But she wasn't his anymore, she hadn't been in a long time. They had tried to act civilized and he had told her to take her wedding rings off. He wouldn't have blamed her if she had thrown them after him, but she didn't. She was Addison after all. Classy, strong, independent, beautiful, intelligent and so much more.

Yes, Derek Shepherd missed his wife, well, ex wife. He missed coming home to her every night, he missed everything about her.

But what was he supposed to do?

For all he knew she probably hated him. He couldn't just go to her and tell her that he missed her. He couldn't break up with Meredith for Addison again.

Or could he?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you!
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too!
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day...
And make it
OK...I miss you

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so, continue or not?
I know its kinda ... not good. But I got distracted by Patrick and George on the screen!
Review and tell me if I should continue!