Summary- Hi, this is my version of New Moon. This is actually a dream I had after watching it before I went to bed. In this version everything is the same till after the birthday chapter except Edward never leaves Bella. But danger still follows Bella around like a bad smell and after cliff diving with a friend that is out to cause trouble and with Alice's vision being blocked Edward is soon running off thinking she's dead. Will Bella be able to stop him this time around?

Chapter One- Conditions.

"Edward. I need to see Jasper."
"Bella, we've already talked about this! It's not safe for you right now. Jasper is still not over what happened and if he catches your scent for a split-second I could loose you, It's not worth the risk!"
"Yes it is! Jasper is your brother which means he's part of my family now too. I don't want him thinking I blame him! It was my fault and I need to apologize."
"Bella I love you for that but none of this was your fault, It was mine. I won't put you in any more danger!"
"Please Edward..."
"No."
"If you don't take me I bet Alice will..."
"That's not fair."
"Come on Edward the longer we leave it the worse he'll feel. It would be like I'm avoiding him incase he trys to hurt me again and I don't want him feeling that way."

I gave him my most pleading eyes, the ones he can't refuse, and waited.

"Fine! I'll take you later this afternoon, to give everyone time to hunt."
I let out a sigh of relief, "Thankyou".

He left soon after and the gaping hole I feel when he leaves started to ache. 'Just 3 more hours then everything will be back to normal'- As long as I keep repeating this to myself over and over I could cope, I mean whats 3 hours compared to the wrest of my life!
I decided to do some laundry. Clothes had been pileing up these past couple of weeks and I was starting to run out of clean underwear.
I was half way through sorting out another load when the phone rang.

"Hello?"
"Hi, Bella it's Jacob. Haven't seen you in a while I've missed you."
"Hi Jake, Yeah it has been a while hasn't it?" "Yeah the last time I saw you was on your birthday the other month!"
"Oh yeah I guess it was..." Images of that night started to come back to me so I quickly changed the subject. "So what's up?"
"Oh yeah I was wonderin... Do you wanna hang out today? We could go down to La Push?"
"I'd love to but I'm going out soon... with Edward."
"Oh, Your still hangin around with that guy?"
"Yeah, He is my boyfriend Jake."
"Yeah I know so... Hows that goin by the way?"
"It's goin great actually, I've never been happier!"
"That's... errr... great. So err... if you ever have time give me a call Bells... I miss you."
"I miss you too Jake, and I promise next time I'm free I'll call."
"Bye Bells."
"Bye Jake."

I couldn't help but feel a little guilty as I put the phone down on him. He was my friend and he wanted to hang out. It seemed like months since we last talked and I at least thought the next time we would we'd have a longer conversation than that. And what was all that about Edward when i said he was my boyfriend?
Wow! Even now calling Edward MY boyfriend still made me feel like the luckiest person alive. I quickly shooved my conversation with Jacob to the back of my mind I had more important things to think about, like trying to convince Edward to change me! We had been having the same argument alot this past month since my birthday. Edward was dead against me becoming what he is. I couldn't see the problem myself, if he changed me we could stay together forever never having to worry about loosing each other and I wouldn't be as accident prone so stupid things like paper cuts wouldn't ruin everything! Well today that was going to change. In 3 hours I was going to convince Edward to change me whether he liked it or not, I can't wait around for the next accident to come along!

I never thought 3 hours could feel like a life time, and the last half an hour was hell!
I was just about to call to say I can't wait any longer I'll just drive down myself when my phone started ringing.

"Bella, I'm outside"
"I'll grab my coat see you in 3."

Before I knew what I was doing I was running for the door grabbing eveything in sight. I didn't even stop to remeber that I'd forgotten to change even though I had had nothing to do but wait all day but it was too late to change now so Alice was going to be unimpressed by my choice of clothing-again.

"I'm sorry. I look a mess I completely forgot to change!"
"You look lovely as always but even still Alice 'saw' that you would forget so she gave me this for you to change into when we arrive."
"It isn't pink is it?"
"Hahaha, No. I checked with her first... allthough I don't think you'll be too impressed..."
I grimaced. "Do I want to know?"
"I think your best waiting till we get home to look."
A small smile crept up onto my face, "Home?"
"Sorry I ment my home"
"No, I liked it. It feels like home."
"I'm glad."A small smile appeared on his face and I could tell he ment it.

With the way Edward drives- speeding down the road like a maniac- it didn't take us long to arrive at his house. I loved his house, it was just so light and open. It never seemed to stop amazing me that something this beautiful was hidden in this dense, moss coloured blanket of green. It really did feel like home.

"Bella I'm not sure this was a good idea. Jasper is thinking about what happened last time and he's feeling very guilty about it. He keeps going over what happened again and again..."
"Edward I'll be fine! Everything will be fine! The rest of the family are there right? So they'll be able to step in if anything goes wrong, Just relax."

I grabbed his hand and started towards the front door carrying my new clothes and wearing my most believable smile I could master. I knew Jasper would see right through this lame attempt to appear calm but at least it was doing the trick with Edward- At least I think it worked.

I hadn't seen anyone except for Alice since the party and it had been killing me. Edward knew this and he hated me feeling this way and had told me repeatedly that everyone understood why I wasn't around and that they were fine with it but I was worried that they thought I felt unsafe with them- or scared?
Feeling me tense Edward gave my hand a quick squeeze to reasure me things were ok as we made are way up the steps.

Esme greated us at the door. "Bella we've missed you so!" She beamed as she pulled me into a loving embrace. She pulled me along with her into there large hall while Edward followed behind. "Everyone is in garden, you two go a head I'm just going to finish cleaning since no-body else feels the need to tidy up after themselves." Edward chuckling at this said "Actuallly Bella needs to change first before Alice sees her. She didn't have a chance before." He added with my favourite crooked smile.
"That's fine, I'll see you later dear." And with that she was gone, off to take care of everyone else like always.
To save time Edward ran us up the stairs and I was soon dressed in a pale blue summer dress which looked like something I would of worn back in Pheonix in the middle of summer when everyone I knew dressed like this, not at my boyfriends house in Forks! At least the shoes were bearable, white ballet pumps that tied at the ankle- this was good, Knowing my luck if they didn't tie they would probably fly off and hit me in the face. Before I knew what was happening Edward did one of his lightening fast moves that always make me jump and I was being carried down the stairs to the glass patio doors that led to the Cullen's amazing garden.

"I'm going to kill ALice when I get the chance I mean look how short this is!"
"Hmm... remind me to thank Alice for this. He said with a cheeky grin.
I think you look beautiful, It's the perfect shade on you"
I smiled, "You have to say that, your my Boyfriend!"
A wide grin spread across his face as I said this. "Yes I am, which means I could never lie to you because I love you too much to do that to you".
"Then why are you making me were this?"
"Because I'd rather not have Alice mad at me as well as Rosalie right now. Her insults are hard enough to live with as it is."
"If this is because of me we can go. I don't want you to get into anymore trouble and I don't want you to fall out with your family over me!"
He rolled his eyes, "Don't be silly Bella! It's fine, It's just Rosalie getting all worked up over nothing. Everyone will be thrilled to see you."
I knew he was keeping something from me to stop me from worrying, I could see it in his eyes... God everything was such a mess!

As we neared the door he carfully put me down and smiled. He grabbed my hand and opened the door, that's when I remembered I'd never seen the garden before and as I looked out I couldn't believe my eyes!

You could hardly call it a garden it was more like a National Park! It was so beautiful. Edward had said it was Esme's pride and joy and that she adored it, I could see why. What with the winding stone path that led right down to the river that ran along the bottom of the garden and the large multi-coloured flower beads scattered across the vast area of lawn they had. And there looking like a picture from a photoshoot was Edward's family, sitting on the grass looking like movie stars. Alice and Rosalie were sitting under a large maple tree looking through there amazing collection of magazines while Emmett and Jasper wrestled on the floor pushing and pulling at each other just like always and sitting quietly in the corner of garden by the pond was Carlisle reading one of his many books looking like he was deep in thought. As soon as we stepped outside everyone stopped and turned to stare at us, I suddenlly felt sick.

Alice came dancing over- gracefull as ever. "Bella you came!" "Alice didn't you already see me coming this morning?"
"Yes but, I thought Edward might have talked you out of it by now." Giving Edward a glance- her eyes narrowed.
"Believe me I tried..." He sighed.
"By the way, couldn't you of picked something less over the top to wear?"
Alice shook her head "No I couldn't. I think you look lovely thanks to me again!"
I laughed and shook my head, I knew I wasn't going to win this one.
She took my hand and lead me over to the rest of the family who were waiting patiently for me- I felt faint now!

Carlisle was the first to speak, "Bella, It's nice to see you again." Giving me one of his meaningfull smiles.
"Thankyou Carlisle, I'ts nice to see you too. I've really missed it here."
"Well we've missed having you here too." Giving me a short hug as he said this. "Yeah, I haven't had a good laugh in weeks since no-one else hear falls like you do." Trust Emmett to be the one to bring up my clumsyness.
"Thanks Emmett, I'm sure Edward will tell you about anything hilarious that you've missed, I'm bound to fall again today anyway if your lucky."
"I hope so!" Everyone laughed at this- except Rosalie who had since seeing me approach had glared and walked off to the other end of the garden clearly not wanting anything to do with me.

"Hello Bella."
I turned to see Jasper standing a good distance behind me- being careful.
"Hi Jasper. It's good to see you." I said added with a shy smile.
"Yes, it's good to see you to." He returned the smile and my worries started to sub-side.
"Can we talk?" I didn't want to push him to far if he was struggling.
"Err, Yes I think we can..."
"Do you need me to come with you?" Edward suggested. There must of been doubts in his thoughts.
"I think that might be best."

We made are way back into the house to the living room. I felt a new wave of calm hit me which I was glad for- No need to make things any more awkward.

"Bella I know you have something to say but can I say something first if you may?"
"Of course!"
"I just wanted to apologize for what happened. I know you'll be blaming yourself like always- I can feel your guilt, but really it was my fault I should have made sure I was under control before you arrived I thought I wasn't thirsty but I don't know maybe I should of hunted longer than I did... Will you forgive me?"
"Jasper of course I forgive you! It is me where talking about here I should of been more careful!"
He laughed, "Still I just wanted you to know that I'm sorry and that I am and will always be under complete control of myself when I'm around you."
"I trust you."
"I don't think you realy needed me Jas, Your well under control over your thirst."
"I just wanted to make sure. Didn't want to chance it."
"Ok well shall we return to the garden?"
I smiled, "Yes, Jasper isn't the only person I need to talk to today." I was going to make Rosalie forgive me for whatever I'd done if she liked it or not plus I still had to have my chat about me becoming like the Cullens.
"Oh, haven't you already spoken to everyone already?"
"Everyone, except Rosalie."
"I wouldn't right now Bella. I can feel she's a little angry and irrated right now." Jasper said with a worried expression.
"That's why I need to talk to her. I want everything to be ok between us all, I hate what me being here is doing to you all!"
Edward rolled his eyes, "Bella I keep telling you! None of this is your fault! It's my problem I'll sort it!"
"Edward I'm the dozy human who has trouble following her everywhere she goes, so I'm the one who's going to fix things!"
"She's not going to back down you know Edward, she's determind."Jasper added while trying not to laugh at my pouting face. "Fine! But if I pick up anything that sounds ramotly dangerous or vicious in her thoughts towards you your going to end the conversation if you've made your point or not ok?"
"Yes. I just want everything to be perfect before anything changes"
Edward, knowing what I was talking about, glared at me, "Please Bella, not again!"
Jasper back and forth between the both of us ,probably picking up the annoyance at each other in our emotions, but said nothing as he strolled casualy back into the garden.

When we returned everyone was looking at me and Rosalie. Guess they heard our conversation. I looked at Edward gave him a quick smile then walked to where she was sitting on the grass glaring at me.

"Rosalie can I talk to you for a minute?"
"You already are"
I heard a low hiss escape Edward's mouth I gave him a pleading look and he stopped.
"Look. I know you don't like me and I don't fully understand why but I'm going to be around alot more now and I hate that I'm causing all this arguing and tension in your family so could we please try to stop hating me long enough to get to know me?"
"Bella I don't hate you but yes you are the cause of the arguments in this house."
"If you don't hate me then why do you act like this around me?"
"Because I'm jealous of you!"
"What? That's crazy!"
"No it's not. You've got the life I always wanted. Your human, you've got a boyfriend who loves you and your whole life ahead of you and yet you risk your life everyday and ask repeatedly to be changed into a monster! I'm forever grateful to Carlisle for saving my life but this isn't a life I would choose for myself and I hate the fact that you want to choose it, your choosing wrong!"

I was completely shocked. I stood there with my mouth hanging open looking like an idiot but I couldn't close it it was like I didn't know how. That was the most she had ever said to me since I met her and I didn't know what to say back.

"Oh, Ok. Rosalie... I hear what your saying but can you try and see it from my point of view? The person I love and want to spend forever with can never die, he can live forever where as I can die from any matter of things at any time. I could die suddenly from an illness or I could die from old age but at some point I would have to leave him. He would have to live on without me for the rest of eternity mourning my death. You saw how he was after I was nearly attacked in Port Angeles and after what happened with James so how do you think Edward would take my death? I can't carry on living my life this way knowing what could happen. I know the simple option would be to go to Jackson Ville and leave you all but I can't bear myself to do it because it would be the wrong option. I love you all too much to leave and if giving up my humanity is the only option then i'm prepared to do it not just to keep me safe but to keep you and your family safe too."

Now it was her turn to look shocked. I could see her processing everything I said and as I looked around at her family around me they all had the same look on their faces. Edwards was the face I was most worried about. I knew what I had said would effect him but not this much! Pain was written all over him and I could see the suffering in his eyes. I turned back towards Rosalie to see her smiling at me.

"Your braver than I thought, not many people stand up to me like that and I suppose your right- in a way. It is deffinatly to late for you to leave now, I don't think Jasper could cope with that amount of depression. Your too much a part of my family now." My expression must of amused her because she started laughing. "Yes I said you are a part of my family, well it's true isn't it! Everyone was willing to risk everything to save you on countless occasions and are prepared too endure their growing thirst just to keep you safe-It's not all for Edward's sake you know, but your right about one thing... I deffinatly couldn't live with Edward forever moping around after you if you died." I laughed. I think for the first time I was seeing the real Rosalie and not the hard shell she wore whenever I'm around.

"So how about we compramise a little. I live my life first before I change."
"And how are you going to do that?"
"I could do everything I would do if I was human before I change. So I'll graduate from high school, I'll enrole in a university then that way I won't be 'wasting my life' although I wouldn't personally say I would be wasting it."
"That's sounds ok. I'm not trying to force you into anything you don't want to do I just don't want you to wake up and regret everything the way I did."
"I know and I'm grateful for that."
We stood there smiling at each other as the seconds passed by. I was happy but extremely confused by the turn around between us. I was determind to get her to listen to me and try and understand and she had. I couldn't help feeling slightly pleased with myself.

Edward had came over by then, his arms around my waist.
He whispered in my ear allthough I knew everyone could still hear him perfectly,"I'm proud of you, you know but I'm still not allowing you to go through with your plans."
I turned around to face him the hurt was showing on my face and I didn't care. "What?"
"I refuse to change you Bella you know this!"
Rosalie and Alice came over now. "Edward don't be stupid you can't live like this forever, what she said to me makes sense what are you going to do when she dies?"
He flinched, "That's the way it's supposed to be."
Alice chipped in now, "No it's not Edward! I've seen her as one of us. I've seen how happy you'll both be, that's the way it's supposed to be!"
"No! I refuse to end her life for my benefit. Bella will live a happy normal life She..."

Emmett joined in now,"She's going to live a happy normal life? How Edward? How can she live a normal life when her boyfriend is going to be forever seventeen as she gets older and older. Nothing is normal about her lying on her death bed while her boyfriend who looks like he could be her grandson is holding her hand. Don't you think people are going to notice?"
"I don't care!"
"But I do!" I was fed up with everyone talking about me as if I wasn't even there. "Don't I get a say in this? It's my life were talking about here so it's my decision!"
I was angry now which ment the tears were starting to build up ready to spill over the edges. I thought them back and continued with my rant. "Edward your not the only vampire I know and you don't get to decide these things on your own!" I took a deep breath to calm myself down and with a little help from Jasper I continued. "I think we should vote."

"What?"
"I think everyone should vote if I should become a vampire or not, It's them who have to live with me if I do change and it's them who have to live with you if I don't and I die." Edward flinched again as I said this but it was the truth and he knew it. "Bella this is crazy! Can't you just live a happy life with me?"
"Not like this. Edward it's going to get dangerous and you can't protect me forever and I can't ask you to."
"Bella please you don't know what your asking..."
"Yes I do and I'm not going to give in without a fight this time!"
I turned to Carlisle, "Carlisle, will you call a meeting in the the dining room for me?"
"Of course, I'm sorry Edward I know this isn't what you want but it's about time we sorted this mess out."
He ran off to find Esme and fill her in with what she missed as everyone else ran to take there seats at the large dining table.

Edward wouldn't look at me as me slowly went to join everyone else.
"Edward say something because If you don't want me for forever then tell me now so I don't waste my time." He stopped outside the dining room door and studied my face for a moment using the ful effect of is beautiful topaz eyes on me before kissing me hard and meaningfull- the type that allways makes my heart stop and my head dizzy- then looked me straight in the eye as he said, "Isabella Swan, of course I want you for forever! I know we would be perfectly happy together. But I don't want you to give up everything for me it's not right!"
"Edward I love you but you are so stupid sometimes!" I heard everyone laugh at this as I pushed the door open and went inside to join the rest of his family at the table. Edward, stuborn as ever, wouldn't join me he just stood by the door.

"Thanks for letting me do this everyone. After all the trouble and drama I've caused you've all stood by me and protected me and I'm so grateful to have a family like you. But I can't go on living this way and I don't think you can either. And since Edward is being unreasonable I need to involve you all and I'm sorry for that. But if you don't want me, then I'm not going to force myself on you. You all know what I want,
I saw Edward's mouth turn down into a grimace at this "And I'm sure you all know what Edward thinks about this by now to. So the only fair way to decide is to vote. If you vote no then I'll go to Jackson Ville and try to get on with my life as best I can, I won't complain. But I do really want to be a part of this family-
forever."

I turned to ask Edward first. "Do you want me to be a part of your family or not?"
"Not this way no, but I can't loose you!"
"You can't have it both ways!"
"Bella I... I can't do this to you."
I turned away trying the best I could to hide the pain I felt.

"Alice?"
"Yes!" I smiled.
"Jasper?"
"Yes" he said, his voice grave. "It would be nice to not want to kill you all the time." he added with a slight smile on his face.
I returned the smile and turned to Rosalie, already expecting what her answer would be.
"Rosalie?"
"Bella, you know what my answer is, like I said this isn't a life I would of chosen for myself and I wish someone had been there to vote no for me. But I need you to know that I don't have anything against you becoming my sister." She was smiling at me now and I couldn't help but smile back. I nodded then turned to Emmett.
He grinned, "Hell yes! It's about time I get some healthy competition from someone strong enough to actually beat me!"
I laughed then asked Esme.
"Of course Bella, I already think of you as part of this family."
"Thankyou Esme" I murmured as I turned toward Carlisle. I was suddenely very nervous, his vote was the one that mattered the most. He was the head of the family and the one that everyone listened to.
"Carlisle?"
He was looking at Edward as he aswered me, "Edward I couldn't bear to watch you go through so much pain if Bella should die. Not only you but the whole family would be deeply saddened by Bella's deaf also. It's the only way that makes sense, you've chosen to not live without her so what else can I do but say yes?"
"Carlisle, think of Charlie and Renee! What this will do to them?"
He had a point there, Carlisle didn't know how to reply but I answered in my most calm and truthfull voice as I answered, "I'd be leaving for university soon anyway I could simply move to somewhere far enough for it to be hard to visit alot then after a while I could slowly loose touch with them then I could get into a car accident or catch a disease it doesn't have to be a long and painful thing for them."
"And you'd really be ok with never seeing them again- your friends and family?"
"If I had you then yes."
"There's nothing I can do to change your mind is there?"
"No, there isn't."
"Then fine If you wish it I'll agree to it."
"Really?"
"I have a few conditions first though. I don't want you to miss out on anything." Out the corner of my eye I saw Alice light up with delight, her eyes gleaming.
I knew this could only mean one thing, that Edward was planning something big and she was going to have alot of fun planning it- I started feeling extremely nervous.
"What are the conditions?"
"Just remeber this for forever ok."
"Edward, your worring me know... just tell me!"
I glanced around the room but by know the room was empty, everyone had casually slipped out the door- so Alice could fill them in I suspected.
I turned back to face Edward to find him down on one knee. I froze in shock.

A/N- Okay, Please Review. This is my first piece of FanFiction so try and be nice :) x