Summary: "Love isn't something that someone should be punished for--even if it's a love between a vampire and a human."
Disclaimer: I don't own Moonchild.
(a/n) Starting it off angsty! Woo! Since I've been away for so long, you'll get several chapters at once!!
"Kei." He sat staring at the older man, his mind warring over what he should say. "Kei. Kei, please, talk to me."
"What shall I say?" The bored look that Kei always forced himself to wear never left his face.
"Tell me why you refuse to eat, to drink--why do you insist on starving yourself?"
Kei turned his eyes to meet with the younger man's. He sighed, before leaning his head against the wall to stare in no particular direction. "I don't deserve this life." The somber blonde answered, digging through his coat pocket for a cigarette.
"W-What are you talking about?"
"Got a light?" Kei dodged the question, bringing the cigarette to his lips. Sho took his lighter from the back pocket of his jeans, and handed it to him. Kei muttered a "Thanks," around the cigarette, and pushed his hair back so it wouldn't catch.
"Kei, I don't understand."
"I don't expect you to." He chuckled at the irony of it all, lifting the cigarette back up to his lips.
"Then explain! I'll listen! I don't care how long it takes! I'll sit here until I turn grey, just please, open up." Sho moved from the window seat where they had both been sitting to kneel in front of his partner, his hand reaching for Kei's.
He flinched away from Sho's touch, and moved his unused hand to his side. "No."
"Kei, I trust you with my life. Why can't you trust me with your everlasting one?" Kei turned, leaning down to see eye to eye with the younger man.
"Because it involves you."
"What involves me?"
"The reason why I punish myself. The reason I starve myself. The reason I make myself miserable. It's all because of you." Sho looked like he had just been slapped. "Knowing that, would you still like to know the 'why?'"
He smiled sadly up at his mentor. "I want to...more than anything."
"...Alright." He leaned forward, leaning his elbows on his knees and running his hair through his hands. As he looked up, he started to speak. "The reason why I make myself suffer, Sho, is because I feel. I feel things that I shouldn't...that none of my kind are supposed to feel; especially when it involves a human."
He leaned forward, gripping Kei's hands in his."Kei?"
"I love you. I don't deserve you. I have no right to you, and still I dream of you, think of you, long for you...so I punish myself, to try to condition it out of me."
Sho leaned forward and yanked the cigarette from Kei's mouth, his arms wrapping around the older man's shoulders. "Is that all? Idiot. Love isn't something that someone should be punished for--even if it's a love between a vampire and a human."
"You can't really call it 'a love' when it's not reciprocated."
Sho laughed, stamping out Kei's cigarette in a nearby ashtray. "Oh, but it is, Kei. It is." He smiled, brushing his lips gently against his partner's. "I love you too."