Disclaimer: Unfortunately I own nothing of Twilight as that is simply the result of a genius called Stephenie Meyer (: But I can dream I own it can't I ? Not to mention the rather handsome Jacob Black (;

BPOV

"Be happy" he told me.

Jacob's arms were wrapped firmly around me with his cheek resting on my head. His words rang in my head. He had told me to be happy but if I did this now would I really be happy? As I asked myself that question I realised it was stupid. I loved Jake. I most definitely knew he loved me. After all he said it to me nearly every day. He was my entire world – my own personal sun. I couldn't be without him and as I said those words in my mind I knew what I had to do.

Taking a deep breath I placed my hand over his heart and gently kissed the base of his neck. He pulled back slightly and the confusion was clearly written across his face yet at the same time I saw something in his eyes. Hope? Love? I had a feeling it was both.

"Bella what are you…?" he started but I cut him off by gently but firmly pressing my lips to his. What happened next came as a surprise to me but it was most definitely a pleasant one. Fireworks went off in my brain and my stomach felt as though it was surrounded by a thousand butterflies. Passion raged inside me as Jake carefully traced my lips with his tongue begging me for entrance which I gladly granted. Kissing Edward had never been like this and I was sure that it never would have been. They were fire and ice. Edward had been cold and stone like whereas Jake was warm and inviting. Full of love and tenderness but there was also a hidden burst of passion. With a jolt I realised I had thought Edward's name without bursting into tears. I guess I must really love Jake.

I bit back a moan as my senses came back to earth with a bit of a bump. Although it was hard I forced myself to drag my lips away from Jake. We were both breathing heavily and when he opened his eyes I knew that what I could see in them was what he could see in mine. Fear. Hope. Love. Confusion.

"C'mon let's go inside. I can explain then" I stated whilst forcing myself out of my truck.

Once inside I turned to Jake and asked "Do you mind if I take a quick shower? I just…I need to sort things out okay? Besides I'm still pretty cold" He smiled, slightly sadly I noticed, but nodded nonetheless.

"I'll wait for you in the living room."

I placed a quick kiss on his lips and as I wandered up the stairs slowly I tried to prepare myself for what to do next.

JPOV

As I watched the love of my life retreat up the stairs I sighed and slapped myself on the forehead. I really was an idiot! Bella had just kissed me and I barely said two words to her! Still I thought to myself it had been a pretty damn good kiss.

But what would happen now? She said she had to sort things out. What the hell did that mean? I sighed as I considered my options and began pacing around the room.

She may have just kissed me on the spur of the moment and realised that we were not meant to be. I wasn't entirely sure how I would deal with that but I knew I would if I had to. At least I would forever have the memory of those perfect lips on mine. How she tasted. Like cinnamon and…something else that I couldn't place my finger on. It had been perfectly Bella. I subconsciously licked my lips as I knew I desperately wanted her back in my arms.

The next option was much more appealing to me. She might actually love me. As much as that thought elated me I knew I couldn't dwell on it too much. If it proved to be the wrong assumption I had a problem on my hands because I would undoubtedly make a fool of myself. I would simply have to wait and listen to what she said.

As that thought crossed my mind I heard the water upstairs being turned off and I braced myself for whatever she would throw at me.

BPOV

The water pounded down onto my shoulders and helped me relax. The kiss with Jacob had been everything I ever dreamed. I smiled brightly as I remembered the feel of his lips on mine, the way he shivered under my touch. That thought alone made me shiver as I realised that there were only three words I needed to say to Jake in order to explain what had happened.

But did he still feel the same? I was fairly certain but even so what if I made a fool of myself and he ended up hating me? He had been very quiet when we got in the house and now I was suddenly scared.

No! My brain yelled. He does love you and it's about time you told him how you feel. I couldn't help but smile at the thought of Jake loving me. It was now or never and with that final thought I turned off the water to the shower.

I dressed quicker than I ever have and rushed down the stairs to meet him. However in my typical style I tripped and would have landed face first had it not been for Jake catching me. I looked up into his brown eyes and saw them sparkling with amusement as a grin crossed his face.

"My hero" I sighed with a slightly cheek grin on my face. I couldn't help it. His grin was infectious and at the minute it was also stopping my brain from working.

"So" he said whilst settling me back on my feet "we need to talk don't we?"

"Yeah" I sighed. "Look Jake I…I realised after the cliff-diving when I saw how worried you were. I just…I couldn't believe I had done that. I mean what if I had died? You were right I didn't think about what it would do to you and the pain I felt then imagining my life without you, imagining how you would cope without me. It tore me apart. And then well I dunno I guess I realised something that was all."

"And um.." he coughed and started again "Um what did you realise?"

I took a deep breath. Now or never, remember? "I realised that I was completely head over heels in love with you".

A/N so that was the first chapter (: what are you all thinking ? Good ? Bad ? Too much ? Too little ? All criticism is welcome as long as you're not just going to sit there and say it was awful and that you hate it :P That would be rather silly and pointless don't you think ? So any opinions on anything in particular that you feel should happen next chapter ? I have a vague idea but it'd be nice to hear your views (:

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