Don't Think I Don't Think About It Chapter 1, a transformers/beast wars fanfic

Well hello! I know it has been quite some time since I have put anything up here. Let alone something new. This is a Transformers Fic and it is the first one I have written that I have decided to post. Let me all know what you think. I will put it as complete for now. But if you all like it and want me to add more. Feel free to tell me what you would like to see. But keep in mind I like my stories having happy endings. Also! I believe this is the first fic i have posted that is written in 3rd person. It was hard to keep it up, so let me know what you think about that, too.

Disclaimer: I OWN NOTHING BUT THE PLOT IDEA!

I do not own the songs either. But I want to thank, Darius Rucker and Miranda Lambert. Their songs gave me the inspiration to write this.

Units Of Time As I Use Them:

Cycle :1 Hour

Metacycle: 1 Year

"One day he was there, the next he was gone." "But I thought the two you were happy?" Jazz looked to his friend Ironhide. "I thought so too. I really did. But as time went on he continued to spend more time with work then he did with me. It got so bad that the only time I was seeing him was while I was in his office giving him a report or when we were in a meeting together." Jazz sighed.

Ironhide patted his back gently. "So how are you doing these days?" "I play at the club down the street." "You? Playing music?" The saboteur laughed lightly. "Why don't you come by tonight with some of the gang." Ironhide thought for a moment. "I get off at 7." "I start playing at 8. See you then?" He shook the weapons specialist's servo. "See you then."

They shared one last laugh and headed their own way. Jazz went home and got everything ready. He went through his song list. He needed to get 3 songs for tonight. He went through his piles and found the perfect 3 he would play tonight.

He went to the club and started to set up when he heard a familiar voice. "Hey, Jazz!" He turned around and looked up. "'Hide!" He smiled back. He noticed that Ratchet, Wheeljack and Skyfire were with him. He gave them all hugs. "Thanks for coming." He was happy. He didn't expect them to show up as well, he only half expected Ironhide to even come.

"I couldn't get a hold of Prowl." He felt his spark twinge in pain at Skyfire's words. He gave the best fake smile he could. "Why would he want to come and see me? He is busy with his new life and his new bonded."

Everyone was confused. Since when did Prowl have a new bonded? How did Jazz know if they didn't? When Jazz left Prowl he left the team. He put in his notice with Optimus and left. Prowl was too busy to notice and it was killing the saboteur to not be noticed by the one who claimed to love him.

"Anyway, I am about to go on. I will see you guys after the show." They took their seats and he went up on stage. He started to play his songs. When he got to his final song his band left the stage and he sat down. "This one is called. Don't think I don't think about it." Everyone sat in silence while the music had its solo.

"I left out in a cloud of tail lights and dust. Swore I wasn't coming back, said I'd had enough. Saw you in the rear-view standing. Fading from my life, but I wasn't turning around, no, not this time."

Ironhide's helm shot up. He knew that this song was about Prowl.

"But don't think I don't think about it. Don't think I don't have regrets. Don't think it don't get to me, between the work and the hurt and the whiskey. Don't think I don't wonder bout. Could've been, should've been all worked out. I know what I felt and I know what I said. But don't think I don't think about."

Ironhide now knew how much Jazz had loved Prowl. He had never stopped thinking about him. He knew why Jazz had put his notice in and left. He couldn't handle being so close to Prowl and not be with him.

"When we make choices we gotta live with them. Heard ya found a real good man and ya married him. I wonder sometimes if I cross your mind. Where would we be today, if I never drove that car away."

Ironhide knew how Jazz felt. After tonight he needed to find Prowl and if Prowl felt anything for this broken sparked bot. Then he had to get them together. Or at the very least, he needed Prowl to hear Jazz sing this song.

"But don't think I don't think about it. Don't think I don't have regrets. Don't think it don't get to me, between the work and the hurt and the whiskey. Don't think I don't wonder 'bout. Could've been, should've been all worked out. I know what I felt and I know what I said. But don't think I don't think about it."

"Don't think I don't think about it. But don't think I don't think about it. Don't think I don't have regrets. Don't think you don't get to me, between the work and the hurt and the whiskey. Don't think I don't wonder 'bout, Could've been, should've been all worked out. I know what I felt and I know what I said. But don't think I don't think about it."

Jazz stood and bowed. Everyone clapped and he left the stage. He came down and met up with his friends. "Well done." "You're amazing." Jazz bowed. "Thank you." They waved as they left but Ironhide stayed behind. "That was about Prowl wasn't it?" Jazz's head shot up. "I thought as much." "How did you know?" Ironhide patted his friend on the back. "I know you are in pain my dear friend. Why don't you talk to him?"

"'Hide, it has been almost a metacycle since I have worked with the team. If he really wanted me back, he would have called. I am not sure he even notices." "What do you mean?"

"What I mean, 'Hide is, I don't even think he noticed I am gone." "You are wrong. He quit the team after he found out you had quit. None of us could convince him to stay with the team. He put in his notice and apology letter. None of us have heard from him since"

He thought it was odd. Why would the SIC quit when he had it made. He was Optimus' right servo. Unless… No… He wouldn't, would he? "Are you sure none of you have heard from him since he quit?" Ironhide nodded. "We need to get Ratchet, Wheeljack and Skyfire to help." Ironhide's stance changed from relaxed to concerned.

"What do you know that I don't, Jazz?" Jazz looked up at Ironhide with cold hard optics. "If I am right... Then he is out on the streets." "I don't understand…" "He never handled relationships ending well. He was in pieces when I found him. He is on the streets trying to forget." Jazz and Ironhide ran out of the bar.

"Get Ratchet and the rest and look outward from his house." Jazz took off in a sprint. Primus, not again. It was hard enough to end the relationship. But to for Prowl to be taken from him completely was something Jazz couldn't handle. Jazz stopped when he heard some moaning in an alley. Jazz looked and knew right away that it was Prowl.

He took off down the alley and skidded to a stop. He knelt down and looked at Prowl. He was in bad shape. He pulled Prowl in to his arms and wanted to cry. So often had Prowl held him when things went wrong, or something bad happened.

"Prowl… I'm sorry for everything. Please... Come back to me." Jazz held Prowl tight as sobs rocked his frame. "Ja..azz?" Jazz looked down and gave a small smile when he saw that Prowl was online at the very least. "Prowl, I-" "No, I need to say something. I am sorry I put my work above you. I am sorry I left you alone all the time. I really did love you. I still love you and only you." "Wait. You didn't bond with anyone after I left?"

He coughed. "No, why would I do that? You are the only one I have ever wanted." Jazz kissed him deeply right there in the alley. He pulled back from the kiss. "Let's get you to Ratchet." He held him tighter in his arms and stood up. He ran out of the alley and down the street and saw Skyfire just up ahead. "Skyfire!" He turned and looked at the saboteur. "You found him! How is he?" "He is barely online. Where are Ratchet and the others?" "This way, follow me."

He followed Skyfire down the road and they came to Ratchet and Wheeljack. Moments later Ironhide came around the corner. "Ratchet, please help him!" Ratchet took off down the road and they all followed. The ex TIC looked down at Prowl who wasn't moving. :Stay with us, Prowl. I need you to stay with me.: He commed him hoping he could hear him.

They got back to Ratchet's medbay and the saboteur put him down on the medical berth and Ratchet kicked them all out. 2 cycles later Ratchet came out and told them how he was. They all smiled he was going to be okay.

Ratchet released him. Jazz took him back to his home and laid him on his berth. Jazz sat down on the couch and his intakes took a deep breath. At least he was alive. "Jazz." He stood up and went up to his berth room. "Hey…" He sat next to Prowl.

Prowl leaned his head on him. "I don't feel so good." Jazz rubs soothing circles on his back. "That is what happens when you live on the streets and do stupid things" The other nodded. "Prowl. I am sorry that I quit us and everything without talking to you about it. But you didn't exactly come to see me often. I left because I thought you didn't care."

"I have always cared. I have always loved you. I have never been sure of anything but my love for you. My love for you was something I knew would never break. I knew you loved me. I am sorry that I abandoned you all the time. Can you forgive me?" He nodded.

"I did a long time ago. We can talk more when you start feeling better." Jazz went to stand up but before he could. Prowl had pulled him into a kiss. Jazz melted in to the kiss. "I love you, Jazz." Jazz smiled and hugged Prowl. "I love you too."

The following night cycle Jazz left again to play at the club. Prowl woke up and noticed he was alone. He found a note left for him. ~Ironhide will be by to see how you are feeling.~ He heard a knock on the door and assumed that was Ironhide. He sighed as he got out of the berth and went to the door. Sure enough it was Ironhide.

He opened the door. "How can I help you?" "Is that anyway to talk to an old friend?" He scoffed. "Who was the one who told him, I quit?" "I did. But why is that a bad think? We found you alive." He walked away from the door knowing Ironhide would follow him. "What makes you think I want to be alive? You think I like suffering? Once I'm better he will be gone again!"

Ironhide sighed. "Come with me." "I don't want to go anywhere with you." Ironhide grabbed the tactician and dragged him out the door. "Slag it, Ironhide! Let go of me." "Only, if you agree to come with me." "Fine! Just let me go. You are hurting me." He let go of his friend's wrist. The weapons specialist took him to the club he had been to the previous night.

While Ratchet had been working on Prowl, Jazz and Ironhide had talked about what to do about him.

Eventually the saboteur wanted to have the one he loved know what he had gone through over the last metacycle. He wanted him to hear the songs he had been playing at the club but wasn't going to try and bring him until he was well enough to leave the house.

Ironhide sighed. He knew that this wasn't the plan that they had but if he didn't do this. Prowl would likely take off back to the very street they had found him on yesterday. He held the door open for his friend and motioned for him to go inside.

"What are we doing here?" Ironhide looked at his friend and politely responded. "Proving to you how wrong you are about Jazz." "I… I don't understand." "Since he quit the team he has been playing here most nights. Ratchet, Wheeljack, Skyfire and I came to see him play last night." Prowl only nodded.

They sat down and the music started. The two of them looked up to see Jazz on the stage. "This is called Over You." He started singing.

"Weather man said it's gonna snow. By now I should be used to the cold. Mid-February shouldn't be so scary. It was only December. I still remember the presents, the tree, you and me."

Prowl went to stand and Ironhide motioned for him to stay sitting.

"But you went away. How dare you? I miss you. They say I'll be OK. But I'm not going to, ever get over you."

Prowl started to tear up.

"Living alone here in this place, I think of you, and I'm not afraid. Your favorite records make me feel better. Cause you sing along, with every song. I know you didn't mean to give them to me. But you went away. How dare you? I miss you. They say I'll be OK. But I'm not going to ever get over you"

Prowl wiped his tears away with his servos.

"It really sinks in, you know, when I see it in stone."

His spark sank. Jazz had thought that Prowl wasn't going to make it.

"Cause you went away, how dare you? I miss you. They say I'll be OK. But I'm not going to ever get over you."

The saboteur's band mates left the stage and Jazz sat down to sing his next song. "One of my favourites, 'Don't think I don't think about it'. I hope you all enjoy."

The music had its solo and then the saboteur started to sing. "I left out in a cloud of tail lights and dust. Swore I wasn't coming back, said I'd had enough. Saw you in the rear-view standing. Fading from my life, but I wasn't turning around, no, not this time."

Prowl's helm shot up. Ironhide was right. He wasn't the only one who had been through pain over the last metacycle. He had gotten paranoid and threw himself in to his work so he wouldn't have time to think about it. But sadly, that was what ultimately ended their relationship.

How could he have let it gone this far? He had to fix this and he had to fix it tonight. He knew that if Jazz rejected him it would kill his spark but it was killing his spark more right now knowing what he had put his beloved through.

"When we make choices we gotta live with them. Heard ya found a real good man and ya married him. I wonder sometimes if I cross your mind. Where would we be today, if I never drove that car away."

Prowl looked over at Ironhide and smiled softly at him. Ironhide nodded. He under stood the message his friend was trying to give him. He smiled back and then looked back at the stage.

Prowl was going to walk to the back of the stage and wait for him to come down and he was going to kiss him. Not caring who saw him. He needed to tell Jazz that he was sorry. He hoped that his beloved would get the message and return his feelings. He was hoping for the best.

Jazz stood and bowed. Prowl got up and snuck to the back of the stage and waited for Jazz to come down. "Prowl? What are you doing here?" He smiled "Ironhide brought me. He thought it would explain things to me. I am sorry for being paranoid and throwing myself in to my work rather than talking to you about it. But what matters right now is how we feel right now."

Jazz looked at the floor and nodded. He was scared of what the ex SIC was going to say. Suddenly he was pulled into a kiss by the tactician. He was surprised at first but after a klick he melted into the kiss. They broke the kiss and looked at each other. "I am sorry and if you don't want me-"

He was cut off by the ex TIC pulling him into another kiss. When that kiss was broken Jazz pulled him in to a hug. "Don't ever think I don't want you and don't ever do something that stupid again." Prowl was happy enough he could cry.

He hugged back. "So are we back together?" "Forever and always." Prowl nuzzled him. "So should we go back to Optimus and see if he wants us on the team again?" "Only, if and when you are ready." "Okay." They looked up when they heard some cheering. Ironhide was clapping and making some noises. "And I thought Jazz was a party person." Jazz snickered at Prowls comment.

"I'm just glad you two are together again." They all laughed. "I think a lot of the team will be happy that we are together again." "Ready to go home?" Prowl nodded. Ironhide waved goodbye and left. Prowl and Jazz left for home.

Prowl and Jazz got home and Prowl laid down on the couch. Jazz frowned. "You don't want to recharge with me…" It was more of a statement then a question. Jazz turned to walk away. He shivered when he felt a pair of familiar servos wrap around him. "I would love to recharge with you but I don't want to force you into anything. I just got you back. I don't want to lose you."

Jazz turned and gently pinched the Praxian's door wing causing the bot to shiver with pleasure. "I want you to be with me always. I don't want to spend another night alone." Prowl continued to moan as the saboteur still played with his wings. He pulled Jazz in to a kiss.

"Never again will you be alone." Prowl managed to get the bot's interface panel to slide open and he had two fingers in before Jazz could process what was going on. "….Prowl" Jazz cried out in pleasure. "I can't…" "Then let go, my love." With that Jazz overloaded.

The tactician pulled his lover into his arms and took him to the berth. He kissed him and the smaller bot slowly came back online. "I want to pleasure you…." Jazz purred. He pulled Prowl on to the berth with him and he freed the larger bot's spike and began to suck on it.

"J-j-j aaaaa-zzzz." Prowl moaned at the sensations running through him.

Using one hand to help with Prowl's spike Jazz reached out and managed to find one of Prowl's door wings. He played with the wing, causing the mech under him to squirm. "I can't keep g-g-g-g-going if you k-k-k-k-keep doing t-t-t-t-that."

In response Jazz sucked harder. :Let go then. You need it.: Jazz spoke through a comm since his mouth was busy at the moment. Prowl arched in to Jazz's mouth and overloaded. Jazz swallowed all of it. "You taste good." He whispered in to Prowl's audio before slipping in to recharge next to his lover.

They awoke the next morning in each other's arms. "Morning." Prowl kissed Jazz. "Same to you, beautiful."

Author's Note: Thank you for reading. I hope you will review and feel free to tell me if i should add more. : )