I'll Just Die
Can't you see me suffocating?
I went to you apartment the other night.
And, like always,
I whined and pleaded for you to let me in.
And, of course, you did.
And I was overjoyed.
That is, until I saw him again.
But I smiled and waved and cried,
"Hi Ritsuka-kun!"
Just like you expected me to.
When all I really wanted to do
Was weep.
Ever since you met him,
No, even before that, with his brother,
You've been leaving me behind.
You've been forgetting about me.
I miss you Sou-chan.
It's stifling
Being near you when he's around.
Because you only pay attention to him,
And I can only look on
And paste a smile on my face.
And even when he leaves,
And it's just you and me
Like it was before,
You're only thinking of him,
Not of me,
Even though I'm the one in front of you.
And I just don't know what to do anymore,
Because there's nothing that will make you focus on me.
Please tell me you love me
Even if you don't mean it.
Even if it would be just a joke to you,
Because it wouldn't be just a joke to me.
Because without those words
I'll be smothered and suffocated.
I'll just die.