I never thought, that one or two
small mistake could ruin my whole life, but it did. And I still hate me for
these. I cannot resolve how much pain I caused just with this, but I know that
I deserve what happened after.
It was a week
after my 15th birthday, after weeks of Daisuke asking me out, I
'finally' accepted one date. That was my first mistake, I remember that Takeru
wanted to ask me out two hours later, but then it was too late, but I told him
to wait and that this date wasn't something serious. He looked a bit
disappointed at that time but understood. But I didn't know that I was soo
wrong, the whole date was wonderful, and I noticed too late that it got serious,
at the end I really thought that I loved Daisuke, so we set new dates for the
next weeks. And then I made my second and worst mistake, I wanted to keep our
relation secret, so that it won't hurt Takeru although Daisuke remarked that it
wasn't fair for Takeru to keep him with false hopes. But I really thought that
it would be the best. We kept this farce for about two weeks until Takeru found
us by coincidence kissing. That was the moment I lost my first friend, Daisuke
and I could only see him running, running away.
This was the
beginning of my sorrow.
The next day we
saw him at school, the last before vacation, and we noticed how bad he looked,
I tried to talk to him, but whenever I tried to approach him, he ran away
crying. The worst part of it was that the whole school could see this incident.
This was the beginning of my social descent at school. The rest of the day I
heard several rumors of me betraying and insulting Takeru and I received from
everyone death glares. It was a living nightmare at school, I wished that I
simply vanish.
The following
two weeks Daisuke and I tried to continue our relation as if nothing happened,
but that was impossible, the whole incident took over our lives. First we lost
contact to Takeru and Yamato, they didn't even talk to or look at us; when we
met they vanished as fast as possible. But it got worse, we both got many
arguments with our other friends why we tried to hide our relation and how
cruel we were. Miyako was the fist, followed by Iori and Jyou, after these arguments
they also broke friendship with us, our closest friends didn't even want to
talk to us, and they were right as I realized later. Friendship is mostly built
on trust, and we didn't trust our friends, tried to betray them. The following
weeks we also lost the rest of our friends, we were no longer welcome, even
Koushiro and Sora avoided us and Mimi sent me a sincere mail about her opinion.
Only Ken tried to be kind, but we noticed that he looked a bit disgusted at us.
This was the moment Daisuke snapped, he couldn't stand this any longer, I
hardly remember the argument with him, but at the end we had no longer a
relation, we broke. At this moment I knew that I was alone although my brother
stood by me, but he couldn't replace the loss of my friends, especially the one
I was sorry most.
After one or two
weeks of self-pity I tried to contact Takeru for apologizing, but I was too
late, after weeks of depression his mother decided to send him to his cousin
Rosemary in the US. Takeru's mom hoped that she could help him through this
whole depression. At that moment I knew I lost him forever, even if she got him
through this depression, I would never be in his heart again. I really lost
him.
The following
year, I learned how to handle loneliness, I was nearly avoided by everyone at
school, especially the cheerleaders and the basketball-team which lost its best
player, the captain. Slowly my relation to the other DDs rebuilt, but they no
longer trusted me as before this whole incident. But I was again part of the
team, although very distant. But I couldn't complain it was more than I
deserved. BTW. Only Yamato was very distant towards me, but I was the reason
why he 'lost' his brother again. And visiting the US was for him nearly
impossible, either there was school or his band which made visits impossible.
About Daisuke, he slowly got back to the group after apologizing, they couldn't
blame him for this whole mess, I was the reason, I insisted to keep our
relation secret.
After about a
year, the DDs received a mail by Mimi who said that she moved back here and
would bring guests. The others planned to welcome her at the airport, but I
thought that it would be better if I stayed at home. After the welcoming Taichi
gave me an update, and while telling me I noticed that my world finally
shattered. While the last year Takeru and Mimi fell for each other, and were
official boy-/girlfriend. This was the worst news I ever got, knowing that
Takeru really drifted me out of his heart. Mimi also brought Rosemary with her,
just for a visit. Taichi noticed that she kept an eye at Daisuke and he began
to flirt with the tomboy. That was the last nail to my coffin. At that moment I
lost both I ever loved, both I cared most my whole life. And this just for two
mistakes.
The following
years the friendship with all came back, even Takeru talks with me although
there's still a glare in his eyes, we never got back to be best friends. He
married Mimi three years after his return and now expects his third child. He
studied journalism with Mimi and published several books which got bestsellers.
Mimi works at a local TV-station and has her own show. Myself I studied
Education and became a kindergarten-teacher, the one of only two good things in
my life. I also had a lover again, while the studying, but after impregnate me
he left for good. Now I have a little daughter without a husband. She's the
only reason why I stand this whole mess. Daisuke really opened his
noodle-restaurant in the US and slowly becomes rich. He married Rosemary and
they expect their first child.
Sometimes I
really wished that I could change the past and avoid these two mistakes, the
two mistakes which ruined my whole life… Then I got mail…
Second Chance
By: TomokiG