"Hey, have you seen Beck yet?" Tori looked up from getting her books out of her locker, and noticed Jade was there, her head low. An act that was so unlike her, it concerned her.

"Uhm, no, I haven't seen him, are you okay, Jade?" As she said it, Jade seemed to snap back to reality, and just looked at her.

"I'm fine." She snapped, turned and then walked away. She walked a few more feet, before she literally ran into Beck. She hadn't been watching where she was going, and then slammed into someone. She had looked up and seen it was him. "Beck.." She whispered and he looked at her. She looked ready to break.

"Are you okay?" He wrapped his arms around her concerned, and she just shook her head in his chest, holding him tightly.

Cat then came up to them, bubbly and excited about something, which in turn caused Jade to immediately go back to normal.

And that worried Beck.

They had only been broken up for about four months, when she'd decided to date another boy. He was pissed off, but he understood. He wasn't making any attempts to amend their relationship and she didn't really seem to be either. Sure, they both missed the hell out of each other, but when it was meant to happen, it was meant to happen.

At least that's the advice Andre had given him when he'd gone all psycho over the news that she was going out with another guy.

And since he was so damn attractive to all the other girls in their school, he'd asked out someone (he thinks her name was Sandra) and had gone out with her for a while.

But after about three weeks, Beck started to notice changes in Jade's attitude. She became more with drawn, more scared of anything that moved (and she really wasn't like that) and more… emotional.

Even more so than Cat or Robbie.

He tried to talk to her, but she wouldn't talk. She just yelled at him and accused him of being jealous when he had mutually decided to end their relationship.

He still cared about her, and he was more determined than ever to prove that to her.

If only she'd listen for once in her fucking life.

It was around midnight when the door to his RV flew open. He could hear the rain hitting the ground harder, since the door was open, the cold hair biting his skin. He tried to get up, but the door had slammed before he'd even moved. And then he saw Jade there, her head soaked, her clothes dripping wet, and her eyes bloodshot and red.

"Beck…" She whispered and he'd immediately rushed to her, a towel in his hand. He wrapped it around her body, and pulled her to him, rubbing her to keep her warm.

"What the hell were you thinking, being in the rain like that?" He demanded and she just shrugged looking up at him, silent. "You could've gotten hurt!"

"Too late for that," She mumbled and he looked at her questioningly. She immediately snapped out of it, and then shivered. Probably acting more cold than she really was to distract him.

He didn't really answer to that; instead just looked at her, "Jade. You need to talk, what the fuck is going on with you?"

"Can you b-bring me clothes?" She asked, shivering harder. He nodded and immediately got her a hoodie and sweatpants which she quickly changed into, not caring that he was only a few feet away from her.

Not that he'd never seen anything in the three years they had dated anyway. She then wordlessly lay on his bed, and looked up at the ceiling while he did the same, lowering the volume on his TV.

"I'm not gonna talk," She said finally, "You can't make me." She still had her eyes on the ceiling, and was talking in a tone he couldn't quiet recognize.

"Fine." He said, "But why are you here if you don't want to talk?"

"Because…" She turned on her side and faced him, as he did the same. She reached forward and put her hand on his cheek, moving herself closer to him. "Even though we're not going out anymore, you're still one of my best friends."

"And?"

"And I needed my best friend," She whispered.

"Well, what about Cat?"

She shrugged, "She's with Robbie. I don't know what they're up to, but yeah. She apologized like ten thousand times, so… uhm, yeah."

He nodded staring at her, his eyes never leaving hers and vice versa. It was surprisingly comfortably silent in between them.. and they liked it. It was almost like they were together again, and just… loving the moment. Just being each other was always enough for them to feel immediately safe and comfortable.

It had always been like that, since they met. And now, all of it was over. Completely and totally over .

Right?

So, that's why a few minutes later, when Jade pressed her lips against his, he was totally surprised.

"Jade," He said, pulling away, "what was that for?"

Her eyes widened, "I don't know. I'm so sorry, I just got lost in the moment and—" She was cut off when his lips were on hers. Something he just did out of habit when she tended to go off on her rants or apologize when she didn't have a reason to. He broke it, and then looked at her.

"Sorry, habit." She nodded and he lay on his back, running his fingers through his hair, he looked up.

"We aren't together anymore." He spoke after a few moments; she however, stayed silent. "You have a boyfriend and I have… a girlfriend…" He then looked at her; surprised she hadn't just… got up and left. Not that he'd let her, with the storm raging like crazy outside.

"Yeah…" She didn't say anything else, just shook her head. "We can't… do what… we…just…did." She managed to say, struggling not to cry. "It wouldn't be right to… anyone."

"Yeah, exactly." He said, turning over to look at her, as she looked back at him.

"But I need someone," She said, her tone breaking. "I need someone who truly loves me."

"What are you getting at Jade?"

"N-nothing." She said, "Nothing, I said nothing." She looked away and he looked back at her.

"What are you hiding?"

"I'm not hiding anything, Beck! You're not my boyfriend anymore! You even said so yourself two seconds ago! I don't need to tell you anything if I don't want to!"

"Fine!" He yelled back at her. "Do whatever you want!"

And then, he turned over on his other side, his back to her as she tried to say something to make the situation better, but found she was at a loss for words. So instead of saying another word, she just lay on her back, and squeezed her eyes shut. Tears threatened to fall, but she managed to make them go away.

She wanted to say something, anything. But she knew if she did it would just make things worse.

And it killed her. So instead she just turned over and her side, and went to sleep. Well, as best as she could anyway.

Beck was pissed off.

Jade had stayed over the night before, and then left early the next morning. No note, no text, nothing.

He walked into school, and looked around for her, but found she was nowhere to be seen. He did, however find Cat and went up to her, asking her where Jade was.

"I don't know…" She shrugged, "I haven't seen or heard from her either."

He sighed, running his fingers through his hair when he finally saw her. She was leaning against one of the lockers, her arms wrapped around her boyfriend's neck, and they were kissing. Or making out.

His heart hurt, but he still went up to her.

"Why did you just—" He cut himself off when Jade gave him the look that said "don't say anything or I'm dead."

"Hey. She's not your girl anymore," Her boyfriend, Max or Matt or something (he hadn't really paid attention to what his name was) spoke up. "Leave us alone."

"Right." He faked a smile (being the excellent actor he was) "I'm so sorry, I'll be leaving now. Jade, later, we'll talk?" And with that, he walked away.

Jade watched him leave, and then tensed up when Mark looked at her, his features angry and pissed off. "What?"

"Why are you talking to him?" He demanded, his tone low as they were still in school. "You're not supposed to talk to him anymore, I thought we'd discussed that already."

"I know, but you have to understand, he's still—" He didn't let her finish, instead he roughly grabbed her wrist and (almost literally) dragged her into the janitor's closet. He didn't let go of her wrist though, just kept it in his strong hold, glaring at her.

"I don't want you near him!" He shouted, causing her to jump back, nearly scared. "I don't want you talking to him and I don't want you around him, do you fucking understand?" She nodded, wordlessly and he let go of her, finally.

And then just like that, he smiled at her, and kissed her forehead sweetly. But she just shrunk away from him, turning so that he couldn't touch her anymore. He then smiled at her, and left the closet, as she leaned against the wall, and held her wrist to her chest, crying silently.

Ever since she and Beck broke up, her life went to hell. And unless she spoke up, it was only going to get much, much worse.

If only she truly trust anyone to let them in, then maybe she wouldn't feel so alone.

Maybe, just… maybe she'd be alright.

Beck was leaning against the lockers, reading at text from his girlfriend when the janitor's door slowly opened and he watched Jade walk out. Her eyes were bloodshot and she was holding her wrist, wincing when the pain became too intense.

"Jade?" She looked up and then walked over to him, pissed off for no reason at all it seemed… well, to her. Not to Beck.

"I don't want you around me anymore," She spoke, her tone icy, but inside she was breaking. "I don't want to talk to you, and I don't want to see you. Unless it's for class or whatever… just stay away from me." And with that, she walked off, leaving a very confused, sad, and upset Beck behind her.

It was really too bad she couldn't keep her word, and ended up being at his RV a day later, in the same state she was in just a few days before.

And then when she kissed him, he realized that even though she was playing a game, and he wasn't going to win, it would just be best to go with whatever she wanted… as bipolar about everything she was being, he knew she was hiding something from him.

He kissed her back, ignoring the voice in the back of his mind saying he shouldn't do what he was doing.

After a few more minutes, he pulled away and looked at her, "Stop it." He told her. "You can't just tell me you don't want me near you and then kiss me the next chance you get, it doesn't work like that."

"In my world, it does. Besides, Beck, you kissed me back remember?"

"Jade… what's going on? And don't lie to me anymore."

"I'm not lying to you. I just… don't want to talk about it, okay? So can we just go back to making out?"

He really, really wanted to do the right thing and not make-out and have it lead to something more, but it was really, really difficult for him.

He still loved her… in fact, he was still in love with her. No other girl mattered to him, not his girlfriend, not anyone. Just her.

And even though they were about to start a whole new game, he couldn't help but feel… mixed feelings about it.

She didn't want him around, yet did at the same time. What sense did that make?

"Please…" She whispered, causing his attention to come back towards her. "I need you, Beck." She put her hand on his cheek, and then kissed him softly. "Please…"

One thing about Jade West, was she didn't beg. But when it came to Beck, all those rules didn't matter. It was just him and her. Just like it had always been.

"Okay…" He finally whispered, giving up. "Okay…you win."

And with that, he closed the distance in between them and kissed her harder and deeper, pushing her until she landed on his bed, with him on top of her. She ran her fingers through his hair and pressed her body against his in an effort to get as close to him as she possibly could.

It was a sick game they were playing, but in reality they wouldn't have had it any other way.

She pulled his shirt over his head and then continued to kiss him again as he tried to do the same with hers. She broke the kiss, only for a moment, and then went right back into it.

They were both messed up, really. Emotionally and mentally, and throughout their whole lives, they turned to each other.

No wonder they were doing what they were.

She moaned as he bit on her bottom lip, and then traced his hands up and down her sides. She knew Cat would be so pissed off to hear what she was doing, cheating on her boyfriend like she was. But then, Cat wouldn't understand. She didn't know what she was going through (not that she'd openly spoke about it anyone) so really, she was in no place to judge her for it.

And after a few moments, when Beck had laid beside her and held her against him, she realized… there was no place she'd rather be than right where she was.

Yeah, I know they're both kind of out of character, but they're supposed to be.. for the sake of this story. I hpe you liked it, though. Next chapter up as soon as I update the others. Or sooner than that, whichever comes first, I guess.