a/n: After watching On My Way, I got this idea and it would not leave me alone until I wrote it. Just a one-shot about what I think Dave's state of mind might have been during the Cough Syrup scene.

Once again, mad props to my amazing friend and beta, Meg- GirlInTheMirror121


Life's too short to even care at all

He tried to tell himself that it didn't matter that everyone knew.

I'm losing my mind

After all, so many people were out and proud.

Losing my mind

Like Santana. Like Kurt. And his boyfriend. What was his name? Never mind, it didn't matter.

Losing control

If they could do it, why couldn't he?

These fishes in the sea are staring at me

He knows why.

A wet world aches for a beat of a drum

God, why couldn't he just be normal?

If I could find a way to see this straight

It was his own fault. He never should have done that stupid secret admirer stuff.

I'd run away

Maybe he should run away.

To some fortune that I should have found by now

He could. He could leave town and go somewhere far, far away where no one would even know him.

I'm waiting for this cough syrup to come down, come down.

He had to make them stop. Stop the taunting, the threats, and the comments.

Life's too short to even care at all

God, was this how Kurt had felt?

I'm coming up now

Oh God, this probably was how Kurt felt.

Coming up now

Every single day, feeling like this. Feeling trapped, like there was no escape, spending every day being terrified.

Out of the blue

He couldn't handle that.

These zombies in the park

He made the mistake of checking his Facebook page.

They're looking for my heart

So many people, people he thought were his friends, telling him to go back into the closet. Telling him to kill himself.

A dark world aches for a splash of the sun

Maybe they were right.

If I could find a way to see this straight

Should he?

I'd run away

It would make it stop.

To some fortune that I should have found by now

He'd never have to worry about what Nick or anyone said again. No one could touch him.

And so I run now

He couldn't see the point of going on anymore.

To the things they said could restore me

He grabs his phone, giving himself one last chance.

Restore life the way it should be

He calls Kurt. nine times.

I'm waiting for this cough syrup to come down

There's never any answer.

Life's too short to even care at all.

He feels…numb.

I'm losing my mind

He doesn't blame anyone.

Losing my mind

It's not anyone's fault. Not his father's, not his mother's, not Kurt's.

Losing control

He just…can't anymore.

If I could find a way to see this straight

He lays out a suit.

I'd run away

He tests the strength of the belt.

To some fortune that I should have found by now

He tries to stop his tears.

So I run now

He gets a chair from the dining room and sets it up in his closet.

To the things they said could restore me

He dresses in the suit.

Restore life the way it should be

He walks into the closet.

I'm waiting for this cough syrup to come down.

He steps onto the chair and tightens the belt.

One more spoon of cough syrup now

He takes a deep breath,

One more spoon of cough syrup now

and takes a step forward.