She's upset
Bad day
I messed up big time in charms again today, whats worse is that i have that class with the marauders. James potter and Remus lupin are the best at charms, unlike me. I'm not the worse, there friend Peter Pettigriew is but they don't like me because I told Sirius Black he was selfish arrogant jerk, which was totally fair a he is.
Heads for the dresser drawer to
Drive her pain away
Nothing good can come of this.
I run to an empty cupboard the same one as always and open the top draw of the chest, I'd done this since I was about nine. No one knew but no one cared either, not even my parents when they were around. I payed them back though for every hit and put down, I was grateful for there deaths but it didn't stop me.
Stop me what? cutting. Why do people cut? Because it realises a gas that makes you calm and happy even though it'll burn later. So you may think nine was pretty young but it has always helped from a young age. I did it with a razor when I could find one but if not there was a spell i could use. I looked around and found a small knife that I'd forgotten about.
Then she closed her eyes
Found relief in a knife
The blood flows as she cries
I shut my eyes as I cried, ragged sobs coming out, the knife danced across my skin in straight equal lines, perfect. I was so hypnotised by the feeling I nearly forgot about the blood. I hated blood it made me feel sick.
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Bite the lip, just forget the bleeding
Curled up she's on the floor
Relief left her she had hoped for something more
From it (hoped for something more)
From it
He leans down to comfort her
She is weeping and He
Wraps His arms around
And around and around and...
I didn't notice someone else enter the room till strong arms wrapped around me I looked up to see Sirius Black. He said one word that changed my life.
"Why?"
"It helps."
"With?"
"My parents hated me,people have my whole life, James Potter teases me and h-he says what they'd say b-b-before they-they'd-" I couldn't finish because I just broke down.
"They what Marty?" he asked hugging me tight.
"Hit m-me or c-curse m-me." I sobbed.
"I'll tell him to stop I promise but you have to stop to ok?"
"why'd you care?" I didn't understand
"Because your nice, and pretty." I laughed at him when he said that.
"Me pretty? I have lank dull brown hair, dull brown eyes and a stupid fat body." I said poking my belly.
"You have beautiful long dark locks, bright hazel eyes that rival James' and your the slimmest girl I've met." he said seriously (no pun).
" 'S not what anyones said to me. people call me fat all the time."
"Just promise." he sighed
"I promise" I whispered and ment it.
The deeper you cut
The deeper I hurt
The deeper you cut
It only gets worse
Gets worse
Now she's slowly opening...
Yeah she's slowly opening
New eyes...
She opened her eyes
And found relief in His life
And put down her knives
Woah, oh
She opened her life
And found relief through His eyes
And put down
She put down her knife
