The Meaning Of Love

Zhen Ji married Cao Pi, hoping for love. She didn't get her wish, and now she has fallen.

Can Cao Pi bring his wife back, or is the flower of Wei never to bloom?

Chapter One: Spring

Zhen Ji sat alone outside, perched on a stone bench, which was under a blossoming tree. Her head was in her hands, and if she raised her head, tears could be seen running down her perfect cheeks.

She had hoped that Cao Pi had loved her, not just her looks, as Yuan Xi had done. However, too late had Zhen found out about her husbands many girls – not ever serious relationships, just flirting and maybe more…

Zhen tried not to think on what he was doing, yet the truth continued to pound on her broken heart. She longed for somebody who really loved her, who would respect her. Maybe she had gone the wrong way, or there was just no one for the flower of Wei.

At least Yuan Xi had said he loved her, and never cheated on her. Zhen couldn't believe that she had allowed him to be taken prisoner by Cao Pi. She would give anything to see him again, to have him hold her in his arms.

Although he had been bound to many promises to his cold father, he had always loved her. Zhen had always doubted it, but the days after, where she thought about him, she had realised that he had loved her for more than a body.

He would've died for her, and all she had done was betray him, and hand him to the greedy hands of the enemy. Zhen could still remember the hurt on his face when he'd realised what she'd done. Zhen looked at her hands.

They were dirty, traitors' hands, in her eyes.

Before Yuan Xi had died, he had told her that he forgave her, and loved her more than words could describe. In that moment she had kissed him, and told him that she loved him too.

As soon as those words left her lips, Cao Pi (who'd been behind them), stabbed him, and hauled Zhen Ji away.

"You are mine," he had said. There had been no love, no respect in his voice, he saw her merely as a possession.

Zhen opened her eyes, and looked around at the garden. It was peaceful and calm, a place of statuary, not of hate.

Zhen stood up, and pulled her dagger from its' sheath. Cao Pi was coming out of the castle, his eyes fixated on her, and the knife.

"Zhen Ji! What are you doing with that-" Cao Pi asked, running towards Zhen.

Zhen looked at him with sad eyes, and plunged the dagger into her chest. Cao Pi caught her bleeding body as she fell and cradled her in his arms.

I said it all wrong,

I didn't want to let in a weakness,

I thought I was being strong,

Rejecting the love,

I saw you as a flower,

Then I saw you as you,

An independent woman, an unbeatable power,

Someone pure, someone true,

I never saw you alone,

I didn't think you cared,

I wanted to feel at home,

Yet here you are,

You are bleeding in my arms,

Your broken heart barely beating,

You are dieing in my arms,

Your pure body barely breathing,

I said it all wrong,

I pushed you away,

I wanted to feel strong,

What I would give to make you stay,

I never wanted to tell you that I was yours,

Bewitched body and soul, my heart was yours,

I never said that I loved you, like I do,

More than words could say, more than I knew,

I love you Zhen Ji,

Yet I let you fall,

I love you my flower,

I want to start it all,

Again.

I want this time to be right,

I want to hold you safe in the night,

I want to say that I love you,

And I want you to know that what I say is true,

This is the meaning of love, I suppose,

More than words, yet they are all I can say,

This is what love means, I suppose,

Never knowing how much you mean, until it's too late,

I Love You Zhen Ji,

With All of My Heart,

I wish that I hadn't torn us apart,

This is love, I suppose, this is love.

Fear not, my lovely readers! There is more – wait and see…