If I die young
I heard a song today and it made me think of my life, no, it made me think of my death. What will happen? What wont? What will matter? What wont? Who'll be there? Who won't?
If I die young will you make sure there is cake at my funeral?
If I die young will I have saved anyone?
If I die young will I have had fun?
If I die young will I get to know real love?
If I die young will a child ever call me mom?
If I die young will I be laid down in a bed of roses?
If I die young will my father be taken care of?
If I die young will you finally have seen me?
If I die young will I ever get to wear white?
If I die young will you be mad?
If I die young will you stay with me?
If I die young will you hold my hand?
If I die young will you still love me?
If I die young will house keep his word?
If I die young will you take care of our girl?
If I die young will you keep me in mind?
If I die young will you be okay?
If I die young will you get this?
If I die young will you listen to this song?
I wrote this out before we got together, well that's when I started it. As months and even years went by I added to my list of what ifs, when the Huntington's started to show, when we had Lauren, when house said he'd kill me… I love you and our daughter, forever. Who would have known forever could be severed by the sharp knife of a short life?
If I die young ill have had just enough time.
I picked up the letter and read it again. House had found us after Wilson had passed, he scared the hell out of us both at first because he was "dead" we should have known better. He had been staying with us for a few years now, since before Lauren was born. He gave this to me after Remy's funeral, where there was cake, saying "Cameron she gave it to me before things got too bad, I've read it. I know it was never meant for me." He handed it to me and walked away with Lauren telling her that I needed time to think.
"Uncle House, is mommy gonna be with god now?" my baby asked the man.
"I'm not sure honey, but I do know she's going to be okay. Both your moms are great ladies, so she's probably looking at us right now smiling, thinking about a day when you'll be a family again." He said carefully
"And you too, uncle house?"
He stopped "sure kid."
Please tell me what ya think!
