Edited! I hadn't had much sleep when i wrote this, so now the errors I could find are fixed. Rated M for later chapters. I hope you guys enjoy. :) Disclaimer: I don't own Smosh.
Ian felt helpless. He felt like he was slowly falling into a black abyss. The feeling was engulfing him in terror, sadness, and abandonment. He needed someone to show him his worth, even if he didn't realize it himself.
Ian had been bullied in high school and now even in his work place. It was a lie when people said it would get better after high school. It wasn't easy to fit in when you were the way he was. He felt like he would never find somewhere he belonged. He just yearned to be accepted like everybody else.
Ian was walking down the road. He sighed as he thought over his life. Suddenly he remembered his best friend, his gorgeous best friend that he had been in love with. He had spent so much time with him until he was forced to move when his parents found out he was gay and that he was in love with his best friend.
He wished that he could have kept it a secret a little longer; maybe things would have ended up differently. He just wished he could see Anthony's handsome face once again. He ran his fingers through his bowl cut. He didn't realize how much he had missed him until now.
"Ian, I promise things will be okay," Anthony tried to reassure him. "No matter what happens we are best friends forever."
Ian tried to hold back the tears that were threatening to spill over at any time. He didn't want to leave. He loved this guy and this was his home.
"Ant… I just… I don't want to start over, I want to stay here with you," Ian said trying to conceal his quivering voice.
"Come here," he said as he had pulled Ian close, causing Ian to lay his head against his chest. "No matter what, we are best friends. We will find each other again, I promise"
Anthony ran his fingers through his hair and planted a small kiss atop of the messy bowl cut. They sat there for a few hours just holding each other and listening to each other's breathing and heart beats. They were both going to miss this.
Anthony sat at his desk at the hospital. He had found himself thinking about his old best friend. He was tapping his pencil against the desk top as he was consumed deep thought.
"Anthony, are you okay?" Mari, his co-worker, asked. Pulling Anthony out of his thoughts he looked terrified.
"Um… yeah… Sorry, about that. I guess I've just been thinking about someone lately." Anthony sighed as he looked up at the woman. He ran his hands through his hair. "Can I ask you for your opinion, since you're the only one who really knows that I'm…. well gay." he sighed again.
"Of course, we're not just co-workers, we are friends," she smiled as she took a seat next to him, ready to hear and give advice to him.
"Well, in high school I had this best friend. We were practically inseparable, until his parents made him move. I loved this guy with all of my heart, but I haven't talked to him because his parents made sure they had cut all ties with me. They hated the fact he was gay." Anthony explained as he fiddled with the pencil. "Well I've been thinking about him a lot, well more than normal."
Mari gave a small smile and suggested, "Well if you love this guy why don't you try to find him?"
"I've tried but I can't seem to find him anywhere. I hate the fact it happened. I should have done something. I miss this guy so much." Anthony groaned as he tilted his head back to look up at the ceiling. God what was wrong with him. He should have been over this guy from high school.
"Well maybe he will show up. Just don't give up, keep looking for him. I promise this will pay off." Mari sighed giving a small smile. She hated seeing Anthony like this. She decided she was going to start looking for this mystery guy.
Ian headed up to his apartment that he shared with his friend. Even when he had her around he still felt alone. As he entered the small apartment he was welcomed with the slight sent of vanilla sugar.
Ian headed to the bathroom ready for a bath to help to wash away the tensions of the day. He needed to relax. He needed some way to stop feeling so down and maybe a long hot bubble bath would do the trick.
After the water was ran he grabbed his towel and set up some candles to make it feel more relaxing. Ian stripped down and sank into the warm, bubbly water. Ah, this is exactly what I need right now. Ian thought as he sank deeper into the warm water.
"Ian, I'm home." Rang a small female voice from the living room, Ian had just gotten out of the bath.
"Hey, Mari," Ian greeted her as he walked into the living room. "How was work today?"
"It was good; I've decided I'm going to start helping my co-worker find their long lost love." She smiled happily at the man.
"Awe, that's fantastic, after you're done with that maybe you could help me out," Ian joked as he sat down on the couch.
"Would you really want me to?" Mari asked as she sat in the small chair pulling her legs up into the seat.
"I mean it would be great if you did, but you don't have to, dear. I can try to look for him on my own." Ian smiled as he channel surfed.
"Okay, well if you do end up needing my skills, you know where I am," She giggled.
Ian just laughed as he continued to look for something to watch. He was desperate to get his mind off Anthony.
"Well today was busy, so I think I'm going to go to bed," she smiled as she headed off to her room. Ian sighed as he heard her door open and close. Maybe it was time for him to start trying really hard to find this guy.
More chapters to come, please tell me what you guys think?
