I Wish Sorry was Enough
Alright, first off: sorry, I know I said I'd never write another FF, but I got this idea, and I thought I'd go with it. So yeah, this is just a bunch of one-shots. They are 'apollogies' or just promises from one character to another. This kinda started when I was thinking about how KC never apologized to Clare and then I thought of other characters who would feel like the owed another character a apology or just spilling their guts.
Each chapter, of course, starts off with some form of the line: You hate me, or you may not hate me...and then ends with some form of the line: I Wish sorry was Enough-hence the title. I actually wrote a story with the same title and concept for one of my original stories, and I thought I'd apply it to Degrassi FF...:) Let me know what you think, and I hope you enjoy each one shot! The chapters are gonna KINDA be short...maybe I'll go back and edit them so their longer?
PS: I don't own Degrassi. Or any of the amazing characters and storylines.
Chapter 1:
For "The Girl Who Is My Saint" From "The Boy Who Never Backs Down"
You say you can never hate me. And you know what? I believe you. Because Clare, I don't think you the type of person who is capable of hating someone. I mean, hard core, burning like the fires of hell hatred. Sure, you can get really ticked off, but your just too much of a saint to really hate someones guts. But I like that about you.
Your a saint Clare, don't try to deny it. Embrace it. You may think most guys don't get turned on by angels, but I think it's already been established that I'm not like most guys. Morty is proof of that.
I'm a mess Clare. I'm messed up in more than one way. You saw me room-you saw how I acted in the hall. I dug myself into this hole and I guess I dug myself too deep. But that's what I'm good at, huh? Burying myself so far down that I can't get the fuck out.
I was scared. I was so fn' scared when Fitz came at me with that knife. Sometimes I ask myself why I have to be stubborn, why I couldn't bury the hatchet. I guess I thought back to my younger self, and I didn't want to let him down. I didn't want to let ME down. I was done with letting guys like Fitz and Mike push me around. I was done with trying to run as fast as I could.
And Julia? I'm not sure I could ever forgive myself for what happen to her. I know everyone tells me it's not my fault-but it was. No one can really convince me that it wasn't. And I'm sorry if you feel like you come second too her. You don't. But I'm sure that you still feel it sometimes, whenever her name is mentioned in conversations and I go silent. I know you probably wonder what would of happened if she had never died, if we would of never happened if she was still here.
Well, I'm sorry Clare, but I don't know the answer. I don't think anyone does, not even your God. But who cares about the what ifs-I'm with you. And I don't think about them when I'm with you. When I'm with you, I believe I can get a second chance. You are my last hope.
But remember when I told you that being with you makes me feel like I can get better? I meant it. You are redemption. I know that's a lot of pressure to put on someone, especially with my sins, but I hope you don't give up on me Clare. Because knowing that I at least have you, that even if I have all this shit going on in my world, if I just have you then I'll make it through the storm.
I know that it's hard living with someone like me. I know that I sometimes I make you want to pull out your hair, and I know that I get under your skin. Why you still stick around? Why you don't hate me? That's something I'll never figure out. But I'm glad you do stick around. Remember when you said that I was stuck with you, like I had said you were stuck with me? I'm holding you to that.
You better believe I always will.
And I'm going to make sure that you never have a reason to hate me, because I know sorry will never be enough.
A/N#001:
Yeah, I know: SHORT. Maybe a little too short. I'll probably go back and add some more to it later when I'm done working on my other stuff. I do have a life. XD lol ANYWAYS: you know the drill: please review! :D And also...NEW EPISODE OF DEGRASSI TONIGHT! I'd thought I'd post this finally since it's been sitting in my USB clip for like..EVER. I already have 4 chapters of this done, so...expect a update soon. As soon as I get a review. :)
Now, regarding the rumors/supposed spoilers of Season 11 and just people saying that it will never last: I WILL FOREVER AND ALWAYS SHIP ELI AND CARE. ECLARE: meant to be. Sorry. I'm a hard core fan. XD lol And it'd be nice to have at least ONE Degrassi couple that weathers through the entire show...I've heard it's happened before, like, once, so I'm holding out hope for it to happen again! With Eclare!
ECLARE FOREVER! XD
-Black Cat Bastet
