A/N: So, this is my second fic, one that I wrote a couple of months ago for my blog. A line or two is inspired by "Cosmic Love" by Florence + Machine. RR please ^-^


Dear Naruto,

Do you remember what happened this fateful day, two years ago? Do you remember how you destroyed my world and left me in this agonizing reality that you left behind? Do you remember how you gave up your own life to save mine?

Sometimes I feel so much pain, baka, so much fucking pain. The guilt of not valuing you when you were here eats me up , the guilt that you threw away your own life to save my worthless life, and that I can never fill the space you left in everyone's hearts. I can never bring a smile on their faces the way you did. I cannot give them big goofy grins and remind them to believe. I cannot, because I'm nothing.

I'm empty. A mere existence of nothingness.

My mouth is a graveyard of words that died on my lips — things I've wanted to tell you, but never did.

We were the same. Between the unspoken words and forgotten fights, I found a friend in you. You were my first real bond. Were.

I still don't know who I hate more - Me, for living, or you, for dying.

There was just something about you that made you seem as if you were infinite and I feel so betrayed, yet even more guilty.

Sometimes I wish I can move on. But I'm afraid to let go, baka. I'm afraid that I might move on so well, I wouldn't even remember your face anymore.

Konoha isn't the same without it's number one knucklehead ninja.

Sakura tries to talk to me, she tells me that you would want me to forgive myself and be useful, doing good in your place. But I can see the pain in her eyes everytime she says your name and weep silent tears when she thinks I'm not looking. Kakashi sensei is a mere shadow of his former self. He does his job and never spares a moment to talk to anyone or even read his stupid book. He seems to be trying to busy himself so that he doesn't get consumed by his thoughts like me. Hinata is training harder than ever. I would hear her whisper, as I walked past the training grounds aimlessly, "Are you watching me Naruto? Are you proud? Do you still believe in me?"

I wish I was as strong as she is.

Are you watching me, Naruto? Are you happy now? Does it feel good to see me suffer this way? Is that your twisted notion of revenge for all the pain and suffering I caused you?

Without you, there is no dawn and no day. I'm forever stuck in this ceaseless twilight with only my thoughts for company.

You left me in the dark, and you'll never save me from myself again.

I miss you, dobe.

Your worst decision, Teme