Please don't make me say it... Okay… Okay i don't own Star Trek Voyager in any way shape or form. There are you happy!

The Loss of Kathryn Janeway


Hopelessness, that's what I felt as I watched her laying in sickbay, dying. I didn't want to lose her she means everything to me; to the crew. I glance at Kes and the Doctor. They are doing everything they

can to save her. What can I do? I must help her! I feel so helpless. I look down at her. The blood still runs from the cut on her forehead. I want to cry. I have to hold it in. FOR HER! She's the love of my life.

I can't help but think I can't lose her now. I need her. We all do. My thoughts take me to a different place. I didn't hear the doctor at first, but then his words sunk in. She was gone and I wouldn't get the

chance to tell her I loved her. I wouldn't get the chance to hold her in my arms and run my fingers through her hair. Now, I regret the months I wasn't manly enough to just tell her that I loved her instead

of abiding by them stupid perimeters. Now I'll never get the chance. KATHRYN! My Kathryn! You can't die, you can't! I want to shout that I love you. I want to shout come back to me but I don't. Instead, I

leave sickbay to do as the Doctor has asked. I go to the bridge and sit in your chair. I pull up the casualty list. I start to cry as I note in the log, Kathryn Elizabeth Janeway, death occurs 0800 hours. When

I finish with the log entry I sit on the bridge, in your chair, and cry. The crew doesn't ask, they know that you're gone. The entire senior staff encircles your chair and we weep together.


AN: This is my first attempt at a Star Trek Voyager fic. Please review and include criticism and all that jazz. After all I need to know what it is I am doing wrong. Also, if you have topic suggestions I would love to hear them. Though, I am not expecting them, I hope you enjoyed... Even though it is short, very short! OH NO!