A.N
I'm revamping His Green Eyes. So you don't have to re-read it again. But I think that this version will be better than before.
Tedious. Repetitive. Mind-numbingly dull.
Just a few words that explain my life. Here, sitting in this clinical lunch-room, was the time I most longed for a release. Even if it was for only a few minutes. Sleep is bliss to those incapable of doing so. A few hours away from the repetitive days that led to repetitive nights. They start and end the same as they always have. The way they always will. Every day seemed more monotonous than the last. I closed my eyes, no longer wishing to see the horribly familiar room.
Bella!
My head turned infinitesimally to the direction of the 'voice' I knew to be my sister Alice's.
how is he?
The tone of her thoughts were worried. She was right to be so. Jasper was not as well-practiced as the rest of us and it had been almost 3 weeks since he had last hunted. It was foolish to play with fate in this way. Any one of the humans surrounding us could suffer from his thirst.
I tuned myself into Jasper's thoughts and recoiled as the burn hit the back of my throat. His thirst was almost unbearable. I withdrew from his head to return to Alice, my mouth turned down into an almost imperceptible grimace.
Her worried thoughts immediately became panicked as she scanned the future for what could happen. Flashes of the other students faces flew through her head, always followed by a small view of her husband.
Like myself Alice was gifted. Her ability to view the future was as helpful as my mind-reading, if not more so. I had never heard of one with a talent like hers.
She calmed down as soon as she was sure that there was no immediate danger. Her thoughts became preoccupied with plans to hunt that night. As much as we tried to prolong the gaps between hunts, Jasper could only take so much. His usually butterscotch eyes were coal black and wild with restrained thirst.
thank-you for doing this. she thanked me, gratitude showing in her face and thoughts.
What was there to say to that? My pleasure? I bit my tongue to hold back my cutting remark. Alice had enough on her mind without my making it worse.
All of the general thoughts of the crowded cafeteria were mostly directed towards the excitement of a new student arriving at the school. In a normal school, things like that may go unnoticed but, with the total population of Forks High School being a small seven-hundred or so students, every-one knew about everything. Well, almost everything.
To pass away yet another tedious lunch hour I moved to Angela Webber's thoughts. I found her to be a generally nice girl. She was one of those rare people who were utterly content with their lives and had no need to gossip to make it better. She was also about the only one who was not obsessing about the 'new arrival'. Her thoughts were centered around a up-coming trip with she had planned with her baby twin brothers. I knew from the amount of times I had visited her thoughts that she cared for them a great deal, despite the large age gap. It was refreshing for me to come across some-one whose mind was not revolving around themselves alone.
A distraction caused me to look up and leave Angels' thoughts. All of the heads in the lunch-room turned towards the large swinging doors that led to the rest of the school.
A hush fell over the room as a tall boy with pale skin, unusually colored copper hair and startling green eyes entered. This was the new boy whom everyone's thoughts had been pointed towards.
As he looked around, a blush crept up his cheeks as he noticed everyone staring at him.
I bit back a gasp of pain as Jasper's bloodlust heightened. The blood pooling in the boys cheeks was almost too much for him to handle. Emmet placed a hand on him to hold him in his place. This was no place for Jasper to loose his control.
Another slightly smaller boy appeared at the new boy's shoulder. I suppressed a small shudder. Mike Newton. He was a terrible choice in friend. When my family and I first arrived in Forks, he had been amongst the first if the many lust-filled boys that had crowded around me and my sisters.
The two boys sat down at an table full of Newton's friends and the buzz of chatter started up again. Emmet released his hand on Jasper and he relaxed some.
"sorry" He muttered ashamed.
"it's alright, you weren't going to do anything, I could see that" Alice soothed him.
I fought to keep the scowl off my face that would give her lie away.
"Tonight we'll hunt" She muttered, too low for any human ears to hear her.
Jasper nodded once and turned away. Alice, sensing the end of the conversation, got up with her tray and gracefully glided out of the room. Jasper and her, though less flamboyant about their relationship than Emmet and Rosalie, understood each other completely. there was little need for words where those two were involved.
Isabella Cullen?
I looked up at the call of my name, realizing halfway through that it had not been called just thought. I recognized the 'voice'. Jessica Stanley. One of the most two-faced girls in the school. I listened harder to her thoughts and understood that the new boy must of asked about us.
"Jessica Stanley is giving the new boy all the dirt on us." I muttered under my breath, knowing that my family would hear.
"anything good?" Emmet asked, chuckling. I smirked at him and listened closer
"that one who just left, that was Alice Cullen" I picked out Jessica's nasally voice easily " the blonds are Jasper and Rosalie hale, they're twins. the large one is Emmet Cullen and the other girl is his younger sister, Isabella Cullen."
I frowned in confusion as I suddenly realized that I could hear nothing from the seat opposite Jessica. No thoughts at all. Not even a whisper. I looked up to see whether the boy had moved and my eyes locked for a second with a pair of emerald eyes across the room. A blush tainted the boys cheeks again before he quickly looked down. He was still there, so how could I hear nothing.
"Alice and Jasper are together and so are Emmet and Rosalie" Another voice informed the boy. Mike's. freaks his thoughts were yelling they all live together as well. disgusting "As in together together. Isabella is the only single one but don't fool yourself she doesn't date. Apparently none of the guys here are good enough for her" he sniffed. Jasper snickered as he caught Mike's comment.
"so, is the new kid afraid of us yet?" Emmet prompted me, turning away from Rosalie. I ignored him, my mind reeling from the silence of this boys thoughts.
"sooo, Edward ..." Jessica started but her words were cut off by the school bell.
Edward? Well at least I had a name for him now.
"shall we?" enquired Rosalie. I nodded and we rose gracefully from our seats and headed for our classes.
Alice and I were playing the role of juniors, while Jasper, Rosalie and Emmet were acting as seniors. They headed towards their classes and I walked into the partially empty biology lab.
I was the only person in this class lucky enough to have a table to myself. I spread out my books, not that I needed them I already knew everything in there, and settled into my seat ready for yet another tedious hour.
Edward seems nice – he's quiet though I bet he's nervous on his first day. I wonder why he came to Forks now. Chief Swan has been so lonely in that house.
Angela's caring thoughts reached me as her and Edward walked in. with a grimace, I realized that the seat next to mine was the only one that was available. Humans normally shied away from us and our closeness was not desired. He was in for an uncomfortable year.
He walked down the center aisle to the teachers desk for his seating arrangements. As he moved by my desk, the few footstep he took seemed to pass in slow motion. The whirring of the ventilation shafts seemed louder and more ominous.
His scent hit me like a high speed train, flooring my against my seat. In that instant nothing mattered. All the work, all the effort I had ever put into my restraint. All the years I had been denying my thirst. None of that mattered anymore.
I was a predator and he was my prey. I was a vampire and he had the sweetest blood I had smelled in years.
A maximum of seven seconds was all it would take to kill every human in this room. Then I could have this weak human's delicious blood. I would be nothing but a blur to them. As I killed them, their last memories would be of this biology room and nothing else. My body tensed, preparing to jump.
I had never killed innocents. Never, even in my rebellious years. And now I planned to mindlessly slaughter a whole class of them. My past almost mocked me as I planned the death of my classmates.
The monster inside me smiled.
A small draft of clean air drifted into my face as a sheet of paper was placed onto my desk. The scent off of it diluted the delectable fragrance a minuscule amount. Enough for my mind to focus slightly.
In my head I saw an image float across my brain. they were the scarlet eyes of my past.
The sight made me stop. I didn't want my eyes to become that ghastly crimson colour again. The sight of them truly made me aware of what I was. The golden hues they were now lessened the monster in me.
A second had not even passed, Edward was still taking that first step. I clenched my hand on the metal bar beneath the desk. The flimsy metal wasn't up to the task and collapsed in my hand. I clutched my hand tighter, curling the bar into a tight ball, and dropped it to the ground. I kicked it out of the way before anyone could notice it.
The eyes...my eyes still taunted me from my mind.
His blood?
Exposure.
Pleasure?
Shame.
My families faces stared at me as I wrestled between my instincts and my conscience.
It was Carlisle's face that stopped me. My father's face simply looked at me, nonjudgmental. Just there. His face was the complete opposite to mine. Like day to night. Dark to light.
If only there were some fresh air, anything void of Edward Swan's scent, for me to breath.
But I didn't have to breathe.
Immediately I held my breath and the relief was instantaneous. I could still taste the scent on my tongue, but it was nothing compared to the real thing. I knew I had to get out of there before i could do something stupid.
Edward was almost at the desk by now, my mind had figured out so much in such a short time. I quickly raised my hand and waited for the teacher. He looked up just in time.
"Mr Banner, I feel really ill – could I please be excused to the nurses office?"I said using up my oxygen. If I had to speak again I was going to need to breathe and that wasn't in any-one's best interest
hmm I wonder ... no not a perfect Cullen
"yes Isabella you may be excused." he said looking back to his lesson plan
I got up, gathered my things and walked to the door too quickly, but I was too distressed to keep up the perfect human charade. As soon as I was out the classroom doors, I was running. No-on would see me, we were all but invisible while running. I ran out through the car-park and into the forest surrounding the school.
I stopped about a mile into the trees and immediately sucked in fresh air, anything to get rid of the scent of Edward swan
After about five minutes of doing so, I ran back to the car-park and dived for my Volvo. I hid. It felt cowardly but there was no other word for it.
I hid until nearly the end of final hour. What was I going to do? I had to sit with him for an hour every biology lesson. That was impossible. I couldn't handle two minutes. I needed a plan. I left my car and headed for the office building. Heading to the desk, I lent down and leaned towards the elderly secretary, Mrs Cope, who sat bent over her work.
"Mrs Cope?" I asked using my softest voice.
Her heart still stuttered as she looked up. This was the normal reaction with humans, seeing our inhuman beauty often startled them.
"yes Isabella, what can i do for you?" she asked me, kindly. Humans were always willing to help. We could be very persuasive.
"I was wondering whether I could reschedule my sixth hour biology lesson to another subject? I've already studied this one at my last school." I supplied as an excuse,
"well Isabella I'm afraid that that is simply not possible. There is no other free spaces available at that time."
The door opened and swung shut again as some-one walked in, but I paid them no mind.
"Please, Mrs cope. Or perhaps I could drop the lesson altogether and use the time to study?" I was practically begging now.
The door swung open again and as the scent hit me I realized why that first person had not interrupted my head with their thoughts. Edward swan stood at the back of the room, a look of genuine fear on his face. I quickly held my breath as I turned back to Mrs cope.
"Never mind then, I can see that it's impossible, good-bye" I said through clenched teeth, still holding my breath. I ran from the room, at human pace, and headed for my car.
My siblings were already there waiting. All of their thoughts turned panicky as they saw the look on my face. I threw the car into drive and flew out the car park, hitting 70 by the end of the main road
Alice's face went blank as she got caught up in one of her visions. I watched with her.
I saw myself in a car flying down the motorway at night. It was soon, but there was snow on the ground. Obviously, I was not in forks...
but I didn't want to leave.
As soon as I made this decision, Alice's vision swirled and changed.
Me, again, waiting in the shadows, stalking across the room towards the sleeping Swan boy. His scent pulling me in.
"stop" I moaned. I didn't want to see any more.
"sorry" she murmured.
I drove deeper into the forest towards our home. I started to pull into the drive leading into our house until Alice stopped me.
"drop us here." She commanded "go and tell Carlisle" They all got out the car, silently. I could tell that they were waiting to question Alice as soon as I was gone.
Alice stopped by my window. " you'll do the right thing. I know you will." I nodded not trusting in myself enough to agree " I'll miss you, no matter how short a time you're gone." She looked sad as she turned away and ran back towards the house.
I slammed down the accelerator and raced back into town. No longer knowing what right and wrong was anymore. Nor which I would choose.
