AN: The scene shown in the prologue is actually the one that came to me as inspiration for this story but don't worry it's not the end of the story it's just a major turning point. It will take a few chapters for the whole story to unravel but I promise that if you bare with me through this you'll have read a pretty good story . I personally love my idea . Well , duh it's mine. But seriously now just put the story on alert and enjoy the ride.

One more thing. There is a reason why this story is rated NC-17 . Lemons ahead mates!

( o.k. sorry for that just a little jack sparrow crush I never quite got over *giggles*. And yes I can giggle cuz I'm still in freaking high school so suck it up).

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Story Summary:

A centuries old Quileute legend speaks of the Raven: an arrogant, malicious deity that likes to manipulate and control everything around him.

During one of his walks through the forest, he discovers a young Quileute woman bathing in the clear waters of a lake, and he instantly falls in love with her. Knowing what the elders would think of his behavior, he decides to kidnap the woman.

Using his powers, he transforms her into a black swan and takes her near the land of the S'Klallam. After regaining her human form, she begins to cry. She mourns the faith of her young daughter, as the woman was a widow and now her child has also lost her mother. Seeing her grief, the Raven promises to give the woman's daughter half of his powers, as long as the woman agrees to become his lover. The woman accepts, knowing from ancient tales that the trickster god would get his way no matter what.

Thus, her daughter became a half goddess, a sprite of the forest and its protector. Her powers were passed to the next female of her blood when she comes of age.

In present times, young Isabella Swan struggles to control powers she doesn't understand, while dealing with an abusive, delusional mother and a distraught father. She is haunted by a dark presence she always feels is watching her.

She decides to flee back to her hometown of Forks, Washington to live with her grandmother and start a new life. She has to forgive and forget, as her friends have slowly moved on with their lives, leaving her to become nothing more than the ghost of a memory, braking promises made long ago and with it her very heart.

Her arrival in Forks eventually brings everything she longs for: a loving family, loyal friends, and a true love. But, it also brings the materialization of her greatest nightmare. Her powers and the legend that accompanies them bring forth mythical forces from the past that have decided it is time for another cycle to end, and that Bella will be the bearer of the new Raven and the start of a new cycle.

.:PROLOGUE:.

I quietly walked out the door, leaving their shouting voices behind me.

"...the hell did you tell her that for?" Alice's shouted whisper finally broke through, as their argument got more intense.

"What would you have liked for me to do, Alice? Just let her rot like a damn vegetable? Let her lay in that bed until she dies of dehydration, because she cries all the time and refuses to drink or eat anything?" Jasper countered.

"No, of course not, but you could've at least been a bit more considerate about it. You can't just go 'he's dead' when they haven't even found the body yet," she pleaded.

"Oh, for Christ's sake! Get real, Alice! He's been missing for a whole fucking month. They found his precious car wrapped around a tree in the middle of the forest. His blood was all over the place. For all we know, some bear has turned him into lunch." Jasper's volume increased once more.

The thought made me stop dead in my tracks.

Not trusting the little strength I still possessed, I turned to look through the door—unsure if to close or remain close—just as I was teetering between what my mind and heart wanted.

"Ugh! I swear you're so stupid sometimes! I wonder what the hell I saw in you in the first place. Can't you understand Iknow he'll come back?" Alice continued, frustration clear in her voice.

"No, Alice, I can't understand! And frankly, I don't know what you saw in me, either. How can I understand when I look at her, and she's staring at the fucking wall with that dead look on her face? I just want to slap her until she snaps out of it. It's not like she's the only one who lost him. He was my best friend for fifteen fucking years, and she just met him last year. Hell, Alice, I can't even mourn him, because I have to look after her; I'm afraid she'll jump off a cliff or something!"

"I can't believe you! How the hell can you blame her for this whole fucked-up mess? He's the one that left!"

"He wouldn't have left if he hadn't had to prove himself in order to be with her! Because of her, I don't have my best friend telling me this is just one of his lame-ass pranks! Because of her, I'm fighting with you right now, and because of her, he's never coming back!"

"You craptastic prick! I can't believe you're blaming her for this when she's hurting so much already!" said Alice as she let her rage blind her.

"I … I wish she was dead, not him..." Jasper finally said in a resigned voice.

"Nuh-uh! You didn't just say that! I'm gonna fucking ki-"

"Enough! That's enough. Alice, go upstairs and check on Bella. Let's just hope she's asleep and didn't hear my brother's verbal diarrhea. And you, Emmett, grab Jasper and take him for a ride to cool off a little, 'cause if I have to look at him much longer, I might just kill him myself." Rosalie's voice carried through the house ringing final.

I could hear Alice's soft steps as she went upstairs. I was struggling to decide what to do next when several things happened at once. That one split second was all it took.

A strong gust of wind slammed the door shut.

The floorboards quaked beneath my bare feet.

Birds took off from the dark, swaying branches. Their disorientated figures broke the silence, if only for a moment.

Alice screamed, "Bella's gone!"

And something in me just snapped, violently slapping me across the face just like Jasper had wanted so much to do. Something inside of me told me it was easier to run than face all that pain there alone. Without him.

I took off at the sound of their voices calling for me.

I had to go somewhere, anywhere. I just didn't know where.

Raising my gaze toward the sky, I inhaled deeply. My lungs burned from lack of oxygen, and my vocal chords were raw from vibrating with the dull ache produced by the sobs confined in my mouth. My hand went to my neck in an attempt to soothe the suffering.

I tried to remember his face, his smile, his presence, but my mind refused to give my heart that simple comfort. His memory only brought more suffering, twisting the knife in the open wound, digging deeper in the pulsating core. Their fight was a silent one deep inside of me. My heart denied the truth my mind knew, while it hid the memories my heart so needed. My body was just a battlefield waiting for a winner. The outcome would determine its response, either break down or shut down.

As I entered the woods my speed increased, and I found I had wandered away from the path.

My body began to swirl around and around, searching for anything familiar that could bring me back on track. The memories I was trying to unearth were all of him, thus difficult to grasp, to bring to light.

The continuous swirling left my knees weak.

A powerful whistle-like sound coming from seemingly nowhere reverberated through my eardrums, and the sharp pain brought me to my knees as a long, strangled sob finally found its escape from my lips.

I knew Raven was watching me. Hell, he always was. I could feel his small, black, bead-like eyes piercing through my skull, a bemused smirk probably playing on his lips. It only increasing my hatred for him.

God, to think he was all the family I had left.

And I couldn't find it in me to keep from hurting anymore, from shouting to the heavens.

"Fuck you, Raven! Damn you to the lowest pit of hell!" I yelled to the sky, knowing he was listening. "Why? Why did you have to tell him he couldn't have me? That he wasn't strong enough to protect me?" I asked, not awaiting an answer. "Why couldn't you just let him love me, why? Was it so hard to see me happy that you had to get him killed? Fuck you, Raven! Fuck you!"

My curse echoed through the silence.Coward.

I could feel the forest breathing my name, gasping for the air that I couldn't provide for my own lungs.

My hatred brought forward something I hadn't felt in a long time; the tingle-like feeling of my powers as they began to spread. It started small in the tips of my fingers like always. Progressing slowly like a shiver that steeled my spine, gaining terrain and giving me the means to get where I needed be.

I knew it wouldn't last long; the shock had left me so drained, void of any major feeling besides dread.

The radiating force enveloped me, protecting me like a shield. Protecting me from everything including myself. My skin didn't register the frigid cold of the snow. My heart couldn't understand his absence; my brain wouldn't accept his death.

It was simply impossible.

He had promise me eternity. I never imagined it could be an eternity filled with pain, mourning the death of my love, my life, my soul.

I got up and allowed my instincts to take over, leading me to where I longed to be.

My pace grew frantic.

I didn't search for the path anymore; I just let myself gravitate towards the lake without thinking about it.

I ran and ran, stumbling every few feet, falling, making my way through the thick, dead bushes that hadn't been covered in snow yet.

I felt nothing and thought of nothing, letting the numbness take over.

Despite this, I found my way. My feet touched the wood of the pontoon while my eyes searched the surface of the lake. I slowed down again, my steps fearful. I had never been there without him after that day. I walked towards the end of the pontoon and collapsed down on my knees.

Tears began their tumbling journey down my cheeks, freezing by the time the salty water reached my lips. I was breaking down. My heart had won its comfort. My body started to feel the thorns that had embedded themselves in my foot soles, the scrapes from the branches that had hit my skin, the pain in my limbs, the cold. My mind was disorientated. Memories blurred my vision.

The shimmer of water in the afternoon sun. My arm outstretched to pick the water lily. A green flicker. A splash. My body floating, giving up the fight. Silence. Another splash. Strong arms around me. Static electricity enveloping my body. Screams. Pressure on my chest. Soft lips on my own, giving me life. A bronze glow. Deep green pools. A crooked smile. A deep husky voice. Relieved, joyful laughter. A comforting presence. Edward, my love.

As I was able to focus again, I took in my surroundings.

The moon was casting its spectral light on the waters, and then I saw it again, the green flicker. I tried to reach it, outstretching one arm and using the other to hold on. My hand slipped and I fell. The water swallowed me whole, and I didn't even put up a fight.

I didn't know what I had been searching for when I went there, but I knew what I had found.

I had finally found my peace.

A/N:This is the republishing of a story I started here on FF long ago but didn't continue because of the those damn people that kept harassing authors to take their stories down as they apparently didn't respect the rating system. That led to the loss of some of the greatest fanfics I had the pleasure to read and some of them are unfortunately no longer available to readers because they were not and will not be republished on other fanfic sites. And that made me really angry with FF.

This being said I'd like to assure my readers that this time around I will continue this story to it's completion and because there will probably some scenes that will surpass the ratings allowed here I will simply edit them out and you will be able to find the full chapters on my blog ( still under construction) or on The Writers Coffee Shop Library where the story is currently a little more advanced.

http:/www . twcslibrary . com/viewstory . php?sid=1274

There might be a chance you will soon find it on Twilighted as well, just sayin'

The reason why I'm not publishing all the chapters that i have written here as well is because the Great people at TeamProjectBeta are currently beta'ing my chapters . You will see that the chapters there will be replaced with the new versions as they get beta'd.

Oh and one more thing the story on TWCSL also has banners not only for the Summary and main Characters but also for each chapter because I'm a very visual person and I thought it would be cool to show my readers some of the things that are going through my head. Other things that you can find on the TWCSL site are links to outfits that have been created by MarianneNorthmanCullen