Letters To You: Chapter 1
Shinobu's Letter: Asperations
Sempai, there's been something I've wanted to say to you for along time now. I've tried to tell you in person many times, but every time you look at me with that kind smile on your face I lose my nerve. I know now that I will never be able to speak my feelings for you aloud but I still wanted you to know how I feel about you. This letter is the only way I think I can tell you without running away or becoming so scared that I panic.
You were the light that brought me out of the darkest part of my life. I always was a spoiled child, and not used to hardships or difficulties of any kind. When my parents divorced it ripped the very fabric of my pampered life apart and left me feeling lost and soulless. After that I only went through the motions of living. I stopped caring about school, I stopped caring about my family, but most of all. I stopped caring about myself. My parents tried to help me, but ultimately they were more interested in fighting over custody of me then healing me. Everyone else just pitied me. They saw the broken, pathetic girl I thought I was and this drove me to an even higher state of self-loathing.
When I first met you I thought you were just like everyone else. I saw you calmly sitting on the wooden bench by the bridge, looking at me through the corner of your eyes while drawing in your notebook. I knew you were looking at me, the pathetic, weak girl I believed myself to be. But you weren't. You were the first person to look past my shattered exterior and see the smiling, cheerful and proud girl I was capable of becoming. When I saw your picture it was like I was getting my first breathe of air after holding it for an immeasurable time. I suddenly didn't feel so lost anymore.
At the party it was like I slowly felt myself being reborn. I saw every smile you made as you ate the dinner I had prepared for everybody, and I took them into my heart. It gave me back my confidence and my pride. When you protected me from my parents so I had more time to make my decision I realized that I never wanted to be away from you. I've heard it said that the person you love isn't so much a separate person, but rather they're an extension of you. When you're around them you feel like anything is possible. That's why I love you. When I am around you I become the person I hope to be someday. When I am with you I have confidence, hope and the knowledge that I have something to live for.
I know you love Naru and I would never hurt you and your relationship with her so I will end this letter with this. I will be there for you like you have always been there for me. When you have a fight or argument with Naru I will be the friend you turn to for comfort. I will try to become the person you see me as, and strive to become a woman you can be proud of. You've shown me what I am capable of and I will not let you down. I love you sempai. Now and forever.
Author's Notes: Phew. chapter 1 done. Hehe, actually that was a pretty fun chapter to write. Hopefully I did an okay job dwelling into our sweet Shinobu's private thoughts. My hope for this fanfic is to show how all the girls feel about Keitaro without making them too OOC. It will be hard on some of the later ones but I feel like I am up to the challenge. I have the first 5 chapters done (Shinobu, Kanako, Kaolla, Motoko and Kitsune) but I will post them out at about one per week so its paced and I have time to finish the last 2 (Mutsumi and Naru). Hope you enjoyed and I will see you in Chapter 2: Kanako!
Shinobu's Letter: Asperations
Sempai, there's been something I've wanted to say to you for along time now. I've tried to tell you in person many times, but every time you look at me with that kind smile on your face I lose my nerve. I know now that I will never be able to speak my feelings for you aloud but I still wanted you to know how I feel about you. This letter is the only way I think I can tell you without running away or becoming so scared that I panic.
You were the light that brought me out of the darkest part of my life. I always was a spoiled child, and not used to hardships or difficulties of any kind. When my parents divorced it ripped the very fabric of my pampered life apart and left me feeling lost and soulless. After that I only went through the motions of living. I stopped caring about school, I stopped caring about my family, but most of all. I stopped caring about myself. My parents tried to help me, but ultimately they were more interested in fighting over custody of me then healing me. Everyone else just pitied me. They saw the broken, pathetic girl I thought I was and this drove me to an even higher state of self-loathing.
When I first met you I thought you were just like everyone else. I saw you calmly sitting on the wooden bench by the bridge, looking at me through the corner of your eyes while drawing in your notebook. I knew you were looking at me, the pathetic, weak girl I believed myself to be. But you weren't. You were the first person to look past my shattered exterior and see the smiling, cheerful and proud girl I was capable of becoming. When I saw your picture it was like I was getting my first breathe of air after holding it for an immeasurable time. I suddenly didn't feel so lost anymore.
At the party it was like I slowly felt myself being reborn. I saw every smile you made as you ate the dinner I had prepared for everybody, and I took them into my heart. It gave me back my confidence and my pride. When you protected me from my parents so I had more time to make my decision I realized that I never wanted to be away from you. I've heard it said that the person you love isn't so much a separate person, but rather they're an extension of you. When you're around them you feel like anything is possible. That's why I love you. When I am around you I become the person I hope to be someday. When I am with you I have confidence, hope and the knowledge that I have something to live for.
I know you love Naru and I would never hurt you and your relationship with her so I will end this letter with this. I will be there for you like you have always been there for me. When you have a fight or argument with Naru I will be the friend you turn to for comfort. I will try to become the person you see me as, and strive to become a woman you can be proud of. You've shown me what I am capable of and I will not let you down. I love you sempai. Now and forever.
Author's Notes: Phew. chapter 1 done. Hehe, actually that was a pretty fun chapter to write. Hopefully I did an okay job dwelling into our sweet Shinobu's private thoughts. My hope for this fanfic is to show how all the girls feel about Keitaro without making them too OOC. It will be hard on some of the later ones but I feel like I am up to the challenge. I have the first 5 chapters done (Shinobu, Kanako, Kaolla, Motoko and Kitsune) but I will post them out at about one per week so its paced and I have time to finish the last 2 (Mutsumi and Naru). Hope you enjoyed and I will see you in Chapter 2: Kanako!
