A/N: I haven't written in a while and I'm pretty rusty. Also, this was part of a writing exercise I wanted to try. It didn't turn out too bad actually. Could have been worse. This is my first real attempt at Angst. Please, review and tell me how I did. Oh! By the way, this is obviously Katniss. She's in the woods back home. I always imagined her up in a tree, arms curled around her knees, just thinking.

The sun is shining

Life goes on

All around

Moves without me

But I feel so cold

Numb

Deadened to feeling

Is it better this way?

The silence of the woods

Is deafening

A slap in the face

I can hear long silent screams

I see

In my mind's eye

A different forest

One filled with unknown tall trees

Hidden traps

And death

Part of me will forever stay there

Then the film starts

A horror movie caught in replay

Playing only for me

I can't look away

Finding Peeta half drowned in his own blood

Feverish, clammy

Inches from making the final jump into the void

Do I love him?

Clove coming after me

Pleasure at the thought of carving my face

Thresh pounding her head in

The knife comes lower Lower

The boy I killed

For killing rue

Arrow through his neck

Horror shoots through my heart

Cato

Lying there, mauled

Was it really mercy?

Or did I enjoy his end?

Rue

Oh God Rue

Spear through her chest

Gasping for air

Sing to her

The last song

Death bears her away

Oh God

It's all my fault

I'm so sorry

They haunt me

Reach for me in dreams

Shadows in the day

Waiting to surface again

Always

Forever

There

No rest for the victorious

Here in the silence

They all come flooding forward

Clamoring for attention in my mind

Making sure I never forget

A single detail

Never letting me rest

My anguished scream rends the air

Make it go away

I sob

In the silence

Pleading for some relief

It's warm outside

The sun shines

Life goes on

Such a shallow world we live in

I'm so cold

Numb

Trapped in my memories

There is no escape