Alfeegi spends most of his time at the Dragon Castle, though he does occasionally go off on a mission of some kind. For the most part, though, his life consists of watching everyone else go out and come back, often in varying states of disrepair. Alfeegi doesn't admit it, but he lives in fear of the day someone goes out and doesn't come home at all.
Alfeegi especially hates it when Lykouleon tries to sneak off alone. Lykouleon is the cornerstone of Alfeegi's world; if something should happen to him, it would be the end of life as Alfeegi knows it. So he's learned to develop something of a sixth sense for knowing when the Dragon Lord is about to pull something.
Routines are comforting to Alfeegi. With a routine or a schedule you know where you stand. Nothing sudden and awful can happen if everything goes as scheduled. Alfeegi always feels better when he knows what's supposed to be going on; it makes him happy knowing things are running as they should. It makes him feel secure and grounded and safe.
Nobody else realizes this, of course, because Alfeegi hasn't told them. So they hide form his temper and mutter things about anger management and the dangers of stress when they think he can't hear them. They don't understand that when plans are messed up, bad things happen. When Rath ran off that day in the snow without telling anyone, when Ruwalk helps Lykouleon sneak off, thereby putting him at risk for a demon ambush, when Kaistern comes and goes at random times so Alfeegi never knows when to check up on how well supplied he is, things happen to them or almost happen to them, and it terrifies Alfeegi.
Because Alfeegi really, really loves his friends. A lot. And the thought of losing one of them makes him a little panicky whenever he thinks about it. Ordinarily he's pretty free with his emotions; if he's excited or upset or mad, it all comes flying right out-"it's a tossup as to whether it'll be a coronary or an ulcer that gets you" is how Kaistern once put it. He can't tell lies either. But Alfeegi finds it very hard to tell his friends just how highly he values them. So he does his best to keep them all under his watchful eye where he can see that they're safe.
Alfeegi knows everyone thinks he's just obsessive, and to a certain extent that's true. But, for some reason Alfeegi himself doesn't quite understand, he has this subconscious conviction that as long as he manages to keep everything running smoothly along as it should, everybody will somehow end up okay and they'll always come home to him. Alfeegi knows this is absurd; nothing he does can really keep his friends safe when they're away. But it gives him something to sort of cling on to when he can't be watching over them, and that's enough.
"And just where do you think you are going, Lykouleon-sama?"
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