Entry for the "Music Club" at "Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry (Challenges and Assignments)"
Muggle Music: All I Want by Kodaline
I hope you all like it – I really love that song :)
Rolanda slung her arms around her knees that she had pulled up to her chest and inhaled deeply, leaning her head against the cold stone wall behind her. She was sitting on the windowsill of the bedroom in her small flat in Dublin, her gaze wandering over the backyard and the rooftops, but she did not truly see anything. Her thoughts had carried her away and the only thing she registered was the pain she felt.
Her eyes were puffy, red and burning from crying, but the pain in her soul was far more prominent.
All she wanted was nothing more to hear him knocking at her door, because if she could see his face once more, everything would be easier.
When he had said his last goodbye, Rolanda had not foreseen what it truly had meant, that Severus would destroy all bridges between them. Only when she had seen him running away with the Death Eaters she had realised why he had been acting so differently and she had felt like she had died a little bit inside as she had watched him disappear into the dark.
After this evening, she had lay in tears in her bed all night, feeling horribly alone without him by her side.
Their love had been something that could be considered odd, but it had been there. Their friendship, which had been marked by countless banters, had slowly morphed into something more and someday, Severus had let her in. She knew that he had had a bad experience as a young man, therefore she understood when he pushed her away at first, afraid that she could break his heart once again. But after some time, he had started to trust her.
Or maybe he had just played with her?
Every time this doubt came to her mind she remembered the way he kissed her, how tenderly he had been holding her at night and how he had whispered the three words into her ear, always right before she fell asleep in his arms.
But if he loved her, why did he leave her? Why did he lie to her all these months and years? Her heart clenched painfully when she considered the fact that he could have laughed about her, for being so foolish when in love, with someone else.
But even with these dark thoughts, all she wanted and all she needed was not to find somebody like him – she needed him.
Severus Snapes face was the same mask as it always was, hiding his secrets behind them. As calm and collected as he seemed to be, inside of him raged his emotions.
Was he just not meant to have any love in his life? First, he insulted the love of his life, breaking all the bridges between them with one word, and then, after years full of loneliness, he found his soul mate, only to have to leave to fulfil the task Dumbledore had given him.
He missed her because she had brought out the best of him, a part of him he had never been able to see because he had never had the chance.
She had taken his soul to wipe it clean and when he was holding her in his arms, he could forget about all the pain he had experienced in his life.
And even though he knew that he had to ban her from his thoughts, for his own safety and for hers, all he wanted and all he needed was her.
