The Cycle That Never Ends
Why are you here?
She's lost track of how many times she's said it. It's always in the same despairing tone, and there's always a sense of disbelief there, because he always had the effect of off-balancing her. When she looks at him she's never sure if she wants to curse him, or throw herself into his arms.
"Why, Jess?" Her voice breaks, and all the frailties kept so carefully hidden away are exposed in the tremble of her lips. "Why are you doing this again?"
He was the still the beautiful wreck he was before, and despite the absence, and her resolutions, she was still drawn to him. In spite of Logan. In spite of everything.
"I want a second chance, Rory." he said, imploringly.
"How many second chances do you need? Haven't you hurt me enough?" Her voice was full of self-loathing. "I should have listened to what everyone was telling me, that you would hurt me. What an idiot I was. But I won't make the same mistake again."
"I've changed, Ror. Things will be different now." His eyes were beseeching. "I need you. I don't know what to do with myself without you."
"Please, just go away. Everything is perfect now, and I don't want you to ruin it again! I'm really happy with Logan and-"
In one desperate move, he closed the gap between them, and kissed her.
He knew it was his last chance to hold her, knew that she loved someone else, but he kissed her like he was drowning and she was the only one who could save him.
"We can't...I shouldn't..." But her words were lost, and she kissed him back.
His hands fumbled at her cardigan, unbuttoning clothing and kissing her urgently. He couldn't believe it- she was here with him.
"I missed you." she whispered. "Oh Jess, I missed you so much."
Then, suddenly, her face drained of colour.
Logan stood at the doorway, a bouquet of roses in hand, looking at the scene before him unfold like a deer caught in the headlights.
TBC
