Should've Just Left
Characters: Tenth Doctor, Donna Noble
~Pairings: Nothing specified
Word Count: 393
Note: References to The Journey's End
For Summayah who wanted an extension of Chapter 81 from my 100 Worded Stories collection
"Donna I was just going."
…
He doesn't know why he tells her he's leaving, he thinks it might be because he just wants to see her again (or rather let her see him again) one last time, but that's not it… not really.
If he is honest with himself (and he rarely is) it's because there's some (hopeful, delusional) part of him that (selfishly, foolish) thinks that she might remember him. That everything would turn out okay (it's never okay).
That as he gives her his last good-bye she would look up from her phone and smile, call him stupid and come back, but she doesn't.
Instead he gets a (half-hearted, uncaring) see ya, and that hurts more than anything has hurt in a long time (and he's been hurt a lot).
It hurts more than leaving Susan behind and more than watching Adric fall to his death.
It hurts more than twisting bright innocent Martha Jones into a soldier, more than abandoning Jack and more than leaving Rose on a beach with a copy of himself (a part of him hates that copy, for if it wasn't for him Donna would still be here).
It hurts so much more than all that, because at least all of the others (most of the others, some of the others) had memories to fall back on. At least they could remember just how brilliant and fantastic they were, Donna couldn't.
She would never remember how many times she saved the world (saved him), she'd never remember all the joys of traveling into the stars (with him), she'd never remember how important she had been (too him), and it hurt.
It hurt to know that the woman he had traveled with was gone, dead for all intentions and purposes, killed by his hand.
He almost laughs at the pun, but it dies in his throat, turning into a sob halfway up.
His best friend doesn't remember him, couldn't remember him, would never remember him.
In the back of his mind he thinks of Sylvia's (angry, threatening) words, "As I said, I think you should go," and the Doctor realizes (too late, much too late) that he should've just listened and left right then.
Then maybe, just maybe, the last little bits of his hearts (of his mind), would have remained intact.
…
"Yeah, see ya."
So this expansion is a bit shorter than the others, but I feel like it covered what I wanted to write
I also decided I wanted to try a bit of a new writing style inspired by BookkeeperThe's story Perspective, which inserts thoughts and adjectives through italics and parenthesis as seen above
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