Chapter 1

Death. Dead. Not breathing. Lifeless. Not alive. All these words flash through my head, as I think of what I could become. I hear screams, the terror clear as day. I feel the thumping in the ground from people's frantic footsteps. I can taste the dirt that's been stirred up by the large pieces of debris, in the air. I can even smell the fear around me, it's that heavy. This is all because of them. All this suffering, all this utter horror is because of them. Because of it. Finally I look up to see the massive titan that manages to be taller than the 50 meter wall. It has no skin, just muscles and a hideous face. I shiver rolls through my spine, as I then look down to the hole in the wall it has kicked out. Smaller titans are streaming in from the hole and making their way into Shiganshina. My home. The titans are going to ruin my home, and eat everyone.

''Why!?'', I cry out, ''why must we live like this!?''

I squat down and grab my auburn hair roughly and begin to chant ''why, why, why, why'' over and over again. Tears roll down my cheeks and onto the ground marking dark spots into the dirt. Suddenly, the earth quakes. I startle, and look up to see a titan. Its eyes are humongous and an excited expression is on its disgusting face. I stand motionless my eyes glued to its gaping jaw, unable to run or even scream. It reaches down with its greedy hand and….

1 day earlier

I hear a knock on the door, so I scramble onto my feet to go answer it.

''I'll get it!'' I shout out to my father.

Not that he would even get up to get it anyway. My father is not a very…. lively person. Ever since my mother died after giving birth to me, all he ever does is sleep or stare into space. He sleeps through the whole day, and then stays up all night. He never does any chores, so I have to do all the jobs like cooking, cleaning, and doing laundry. I really can't blame him though, since he lost his wife because of me. He must hate me I always told myself, but I didn't hate him. I would always leave out meals for him to eat and I would always wash his dirty clothes, even if he never really noticed. With a sigh, I opened the door.

''Dr. Yeager!'', I smiled, as I hugged the man at my doorstep.

''Yes, hello there Yuuri. How have you been lately? No more sickness?'' Dr. Yeager questioned, patting me on the back.

I pulled back and beckoned him into the house, and sat at the kitchen table. ''I've been as healthy as horse Dr. Yeager! I could be no better!''

Dr. Yeager had cured me as well as many other people, during the time when the plague had gone through the town. I was sure that I would die, but he cured me and is the reason I am here now. He is like the father figure, my father could never be to me. He checks in on me every now and then and sometimes even brings dishes that Mrs Yeager had made for me! Although today, I notice he hasn't brought any food.

Dr. Yeager follows me into the house, closing the door and then joining me at the table. ''Ah, that's very good then Yuuri'', he starts ''your father is asleep I assume?''

''Yup'', I start to swing my feet, since they don't touch the ground in this chair, ''has been for a while'' I complain.

''Good, I have something I want to speak with you about Yuuri.'', Dr. Yeager begins, while clasping his hands together on the table, ''something very important, that might shock you a lot. Are you prepared?''

I nod my head slowly, my eyes wide. For some reason, I feel a twisting in my stomach. 'No don't be stupid' I tell myself 'Dr. Yeager won't say anything really bad'.

Dr. Yeager takes a deep breath before beginning, ''I can turn into a titan'' he says. ''No don't make that face, let me finish'' he commands when I stare at him in horror. ''Tomorrow I am going on a ship, and will be meeting some people that can also turn into titans. I will kill these people, and eat one of them in my titan form. Now believe me, this is all for the greater good and will eventually help in the savior of mankind. Once he is ready I will make Eren-….''

''Eren!?'' I shout. He is dragging his son into this madness? I can not believe what he is saying, this makes no sense. People should not have the ability to turn into a titan, let alone eat other people! Especially Dr Yeager, who is a kind-hearted man! I will not believe this. I can not! I slam my hands into the table and stand up. 'What are you going on about Dr. Yeager? Have you gone crazy?''

''Yuuri, please listen, this is very important. Eren will have to eat me, just like I will eat that person, so he can gain my powers. He will not remember what happened until the time is right, just like you. You will not remember any of this once I inject you with a memory serum, until a trigger appears and you drink from this vial''. He holds up necklace with a little blue vial shaped like a crystal. It could be easily mistaken for just an ordinary crystal charm if you didn't know better, not a vial. ''When the time is right I need you to drink from this and remember, so you can do what is needed-….''

''NO!'', I scream, ''I thought you were nice! How can you even say these things? No way are you erasing my mem….mrgphhhhh!''

He has come up behind me and clamped his hand over my mouth, while restraining my body. I writhe in his arms, and scream against his hands, but with no luck.

''I am so sorry Yuuri'', he chokes with tears, ''but this needs to be done. Here is what you will need to do….''. What he tells me I am to do when my memories are regained, makes me want to scream and bawl my eyes out all at the same time. How can he expect me to do this? I am no monster like him, no way! I will never do what he says. Never!

He produces a needle filled with dark fluid, which I know he will inject me with. I sag into his arms, too tired to fight any longer. I want him to erase my memories, I don't want to remember any of this! I don't want to remember Dr. Yeager like this, a terrible lying cruel man that wishes to eat people!

I feel a light sting in my arm, where he presses the needle into my tanned skin.

''Yuuri… I'm sorry, i'm sorry'' he weeps as he lays my small body softly on the ground before fastening the necklace around my neck. All I see before my eyes droop closed is his sad tear streaked face looking down on me with sorrow.

''I'm sorry''.