BURNT IVORY
do you have any idea how inspiring liquid is? That said... enjoy!
He wondered why Goku let him do this. He always wondered that question when he was laying beside the tiny body, snuggled up to his own like it wanted protection. He always wondered it when he recalled the faint smell of flesh and sex and burning passion.
If he kept on like this, Goku was going to get hurt. Goku already was hurt. Goku was in pain, staring up at him and begging him to take the pain away.
"How can I save you when I'm the one doing this to you?"
He wondered what Goku thought when he did this. What did Goku want out of it? Why did Goku love him?
What was there to love?
Maybe Goku wanted to save him.
He couldn't be saved anymore. No, he was too far gone, too lost. He wanted pleasure and blood and those sweet eyes, staring at him, ashamed to utter moans and squeaks of enjoyment. He wanted to kill Goku when he was done with him. He was a sick fuck. And he hated it. But he couldn't save himself. And Goku couldn't save him.
"You might as well let me fall"
Why did Goku love him?
Goku's arms always held him tight. Always begged for more. Those tears behind gold brown eyes. He was tarnished now. He knew that Goku knew it too. But he wouldn't stop holding on.
Why was he holding on?
Did Goku think that he loved him?
No. He didn't love him. This couldn't be love. Not what he did to that trembling body every night. Not the way he made Goku cry. Not the way he made the little monkey sad.
"My little monkey"
those smiles that were once reserved for him. They were still there. The way he called his name with joy and pride. It was still there. It was as if Goku was trying to act like nothing was wrong, like none of that had ever happened.
He wondered if the others could see it already. He was sure they knew. But they never said anything about it.
There was nothing left for anyone to save. And one day, Goku was going to get himself killed. There was nothing left to save. He was a sick fuck and he knew it.
"Why won't you let me fall?"
The tiny tanned body next to him stirred as warm sunlight filtered in through the forest leaves. He yawned and winced. He looked at him with a warm smile.
"Good morning Sanzo!" Goku chirped.
He nodded. "Good morning."
"My little monkey. Why won't you let me go?"
OWARI
woot! Second Saiyuki! Hee hee. Ish loves. I never worked in worked in why it was called burnt ivory...maybe I'll do a next chapter of the same title to explain... review!
