I'
I'LL TAKE THE TEARS
Standard Crap:
I don't own any of the characters
here,and yes that includes Aoshi (wish I could own him) . I don't
own the song either. My gawd! It's the fault of my damn muses
(aka the inner voices in my head)! They won't leave me alone
until I haul this fic out!!!!!
Okies,please read and review minna!
Take note that this is written in
Aoshi's POV.
Don't speak,seal your lips.
Please don't say a word.
Maybe I won't remember the words that I have heard.
I see that you're in love,I know it's not me.
I stood still,clutching the tea cup I
held in my hand. Had I gripped it any harder it would have broke.
But I probably won't feel the tiny shrads of pottery clinging to
my hands from the numbness that I felt from the striking blow of
the unexpected news.
Misao is getting married to someone
else.
"Aoshi-sama,daijoubou ka?"
Okon asked me,concern evident in her voice.
I couldn't answer her question,as if my
tongue had suddenly stopped functioning.
Without a word,I stalked out of the
Aoiya and went to the woods.
But I don't want the truth to harm
that memory.
It's never too late to relight the fire,it never stopped burning
for me.
The flame that never died inside of me.
It was all my fault. That was what my
mind was screaming while I walked without any direction through
the vast woods.
I was an icicle incarnate.
I was a fool to refuse a wonderful
gift.
A gift called Makimachi Misao.
It had only been a month since that
incident. Misao told me how much she loves me but all I told her
was "Misao,I refuse to acknowledge another one of your
immature acts.If you're acting so immature now,what more
if-"
I was cut off by her slap and she
walked out of the tea room then.
Come to think of it,I had never seen
her after that night.
It turns out that she stayed in the
house of another member of the Oniwabashuu until Okina found a
suitable match for her to be married off to.
How is now that I can tell you I
love you?
How is it now that it's too late?
What can I do,the love that we have is torn in two.
So you take this smile from all of our years,I'll take the tears.
It is already a year later.I'm standing
in the private ceremony of Misao and her groom.
I despised looking at them,damn Okina
for insisting that I should attend the ceremony meant for family
members of both sides only.
I noticed that Misao barely looked my
way.
I couldn't blame her.
Had I been a woman,I would have done
the same thing.
My heart swelled with more love for
her,except that I will not be recieving any in return.
And it's all my fault.
I still reminisce of times that we
once shared.
You gave me more than love,but never thought I cared.
I gave my heart to you,although it did not show.
I only told you so,the day you let me go.
While the priest was droning on and on
during the ceremony,I tuned him out.
Memories of Misao rushed through my
mind.
Come to think of it,she had always laid
her love out in the open for me to take.
But what I did was to turn her away.
Stupid,stupid Aoshi.
See what happened now?
She's getting married to another
man,when it should have been YOU there on the altar with her.
Now I realize,you're no longer
mine.
Now I'm hoping the pain will heal in time.
Though you're leaving,I won't say goodbye.
Because I know it's still you and me inside.
Misao looked very lovely in the
brillant white kimono and tortoiseshell combs holding up her
hair.
But she would have been more beautiful
if she's marrying me...........
How is now that I can tell you I
love you?
How is it now that it's too late?
What can I do,the love that we have is torn in two.
So you take this smile from all of our years,I'll take the tears.