a/n: I normally don't do two notes but just wanted to start with some insight. This story has been on my mind for the longest. I can't seem to shake it and it might make me a total nerd but I like to read my own stories sometimes. I am thinking of keeping it set back when they all worked for WWE

I sat on my window ledge staring out at the falling snow. Its March here in Hazen , North Dakota but that doesn't make a difference to me. Its always cold here and I absolutely hated it. Even though it was my third winter living in this dreadful state i still wasn't used to it. I miss my warm and sunny North Carolina weather.I have always been a warm sunny day kind of girl, maybe that's because it's all I have ever known. I still don't understand how people trade in the beautiful sunshine for places like these but who was I kidding? I was now one of them, not by my own choice mind you. I've traded in my shorts and tank tops for hoodies and long johns. Funny how times change but some people don't. There's no way I would ever be happy in this place. North Carolina held everything near and dear to me other than my mom and sister. My best friends were there. My daddy was there. I missed my best friends that I had left behind. I sighed as I took a long sip of my hot chocolate. I wondered if they ever missed me? I hope so, we had all been best friends our entire lives and still would be to this day if my mom hadn't made us move. mom had been writing some guy named Dennis; apparently he was a real estate broker who lived in North Dakota. I still don't see what she saw in him. He's older than she is by eight years. He had short salt and pepper hair and a handlebar moustache and he was rail thin. He was no where near as good looking as my daddy. None of us knew anything about my mom having a secret lover, least of all my dad. Hallie and I were called inside and told the horrible news. At 16, i understood that things didn't always turn out how they were supposed too. Even though our lives were far from perfect, we still had it pretty good. We always had food, we never went without. I hardly ever seen my mom and dad argue.I had the best life i could ask for: good parents, the best of friends and an amazing sister. I never could have imagined my mom and dad not being together. They were high school sweethearts been together since they were fifteen. It broke my dad's heart to not only lose my sister and me but to lose my mom as well.

I walked across the room and sat on my bed. Its bad that I was in my bedroom bundled up like I was preparing to go outside. I had a tank top on under my long sleeve shirt that was on under my hoodie. That's pretty much the closest I got to being able to wear my tank tops in the house. Even with the heat on, this house was still freezing. I had long johns on under my jeans and I was still cold. I set my hot cocoa down on my nightstand, as I reached under my bed to pull out a thick binder. I got under the covers and placed my old photo album on my lap. It didn't take long to get lost in my memories. The first picture was of my dad, my sister Hallie and myself. I traced my finger down the picture. My daddy was a handsome man, I may not have seen him in three years but I was sure that hadn't changed. He was always so tall, he seemed to tower over our much shorter frames. His blonde hair fell over his forehead. His brown eyes gleamed with happiness. He was pretty built but for as long as I could remember he's been in construction. He had the biggest smile on his face and it brought out the dimples in his cheeks and the one in his chin., he held each one of us tightly into his side, as if he were afraid we would float away.I knew he was proud of us I smiled at the picture, we were so happy then. I didn't realize the tears were rolling down my face until the bed shifted. I looked up to be met with the warm hazel eyes of my sister Hallie.

"Don't cry Faith, you're almost done with your winter courses. Maybe mom will let you go visit." She always managed to read my mind. We were two years apart but sometimes we acted like twins. I wiped my eyes and shook my head. I may be nineteen now but my mom still had an iron hold on me. She knew I had every intention in the world on going back home when I turned eighteen. I knew my dad wouldn't mind. She knew he wouldn't mind either so she made me an offer. If I stayed with her, she and Dennis would pay for my entire college education. I probably should have turned her down but school is expensive. I really didn't want to be in that kind of debt, so I agreed. Only three more years to go! I was taking classes in creative writing and trying to get my bachelor of arts in English.

"You and I both know that deal was ironclad. I don't see the harm in just visiting though. I miss them so much. I understand that she's afraid but she's our mom. I'm always going to love her. I hate it here. I want to go home. At least when I finally get to get down there I will have a job." She wrapped her arms around me causing her hair to fall around my shoulders. Hallie was two years older than me, sometimes I envied her being older-other times I knew I didn't want the responsibility. I looked up at her and managed a smile. I could honestly say that my sister was a beauty, maybe common sometimes but always herself. Her golden blonde hair came down the center of her back and her eyes always glittered. Right now she had on a snug hunter green turtle neck and some jeans. She started to rub my head and I began to relax. It was exactly what I needed to get through and I like to think she knew that.

I flipped to the next page, and a small smile came to my face. It was the last picture we had all taken together. Shannon and Shane were squatted down front, my best friend Autumn was standing in between them, Matt and Jeff stood on both of her sides and Hallie was on Matt's back and I was on Jeff's. It was taken two weeks before we moved, back when everything was perfect.

"Do you miss them Hallie?" She kissed the top of my head and flipped the page to look at the next picture..

"All the time Faith,"I just nodded as a response and continued looking through the album. I stumbled upon a picture of Matt and Hallie. She was looking off into the distance but his eyes were glued on her. It was such a precious photo.

" Look how cute you guys were!" I said with a laugh. I knew she rolled her eyes without looking at her. Everyone always thought her and Matt were a couple; it irritated the hell out of her...now Matt not so much. I think deep down he was in love with her, but if you say that to her she wrinkles her face up. 'Matt? No way, he thinks of me as a sister.'

"Yeah yeah yeah old buried news Faith, I don't want to go down that path again. Besides we were only friends." I shook my head as I flipped to the next page.

"He was crazy about you Hall, and you were crazy over him even if you won't admit it."

"Speaking of crazy..Shannon was a nut. He never sat still." I smiled at the picture.

"Yeah and a little horn dog too! He was always propositioning me."

"He was always propositioning everyone. I think it was an act. He was the sweetest kid." We both laughed. Our whole lives were down there and we shared some amazing memories together. I think it was then that I made my decision. I was going back, even if it was just for a short visit. I could take a break from school. It wouldn't kill me. She leaned back and gave me a small smile. It almost made me sad that in a way i was lying to her, maybe not directly but by omission. Tomorrow after class, I was leaving for North Carolina and no one was going to change that.

a/n: so what do we think? Not much has changed in the first chapter just more detail. Let me know