Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry

Jack swallowed as tears stung his eyes at the sight of his lover, Ianto, laying on that red sheet, not moving, ice cold and lifeless.

Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old

Jack felt anger when he heard people repeat it was going to get better, because it wasn't, Ianto Jones was dead and he was never going to hear his beautiful welsh vowels again or see his gorgeous blue eyes that put sapphires to shame.

It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend

Life kept going on for everyone except Jack, it seemed as though Ianto didn't exist with the way everyone was completely normal, and Jack wondered if he just dreamt the last three years but as he stood infront of Ianto's grave he knew it was real, because it hurt so much.

And I said,
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved

Jack loved Ianto more than he ever loved anyone and he never told him because he knew it would be like saying good-bye, but sitting infront of Ianto's grave he cried and repeated "I Love You" out of hope, he would come back.

The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you

Jack couldn't survive without Ianto it felt like he was being tortured, and having his heart torn out and stomped on with every breath he took, he ended up drinking himself to death on purpose alot just to make with pain bearable

Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Jack thought about Ianto all the time, he consumed his every thought so much, Jack actually thought he saw him at times but knew he didn't, which hurt so much, it blinded him.

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Jack stopped drinking so much, he knew it would hurt Ianto, to see Jack killing himself out of grief so when he was offered drinks of alcohol at a club he was investigating, to distract himself, he didn't give into temptation.

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

Jack stood on the roof looking at the stars, he knew most humans believed in shooting stars to guide them, so Jack reasoned Ianto must be his shooting star that won't leave his heart no matter what and will guide him through his eternal life.