Disclaimer: I do not own the wonderful world of Death Note. Or this song.

Warning(s): OOC, it's expected, Matt is crazy, and Mello is worried. I don't want to say this is an Au but...ehhh, not really in the Death Note world either.

Another bit of a warning, this is a songfic based off the song "Plague # 11" by the band Kiss Kiss off their new cd "The Meek Shall Inherit What's Left". It's a great song by a great band, and probably not many people have heard of them, but, yeah they're good.

Ohh and if you want to know what the song is, it's everything that is in italics, and everything Matt says.


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"Oh, I'm strong and brawn! I know I can take them as they swarm!" Matt jumped around the room fighting the air; punching imaginary enemies. Yelling again, "And Claw, and fall, I hurt myself!" He fell to the floor dramatically, flailing about, he yells again, "All these birds, and worms! Falling from the sky, they hurt! And burn! Plague eleven, you are the worst!"

And all that you can be was in your mind.

"Matt…"

Matt looked up from the ground at his blond haired partner, he quickly looked away, not being able to comprehend the hurt in his partners eyes. Instead, he decided to focus his attention on a spider, which in his mind, was glaring at the red head, and angrily spinning its web in the coroner.

"Well, did you figure out what's wrong with him?" Mello asked the psychiatrist sitting across from him.

The doctor sighed, "I don't know how to say this but…in simple terms, it seems as though he's lost in his own world…"

And all that you can be was in your mind.

Mello glanced down at Matt seeing that he was unusually quiet, fixing his gaze on the red head he asked the doctor another question, "What do you mean 'own world'?"

"Well," started the doctor, "through the weight of stress, and the added unhealthy addiction to video games he has, his mind just basically collapsed."

Matt got up from his position on the floor and walked over to the corner with the spider in it, and continued to stare intently at it. The spider mocked him in his own mind, Matt tried to glare evilly at it, but was getting no response.

Mello watched worriedly, trying to figure out what his red head was doing, and also trying to better understand his condition, "So, he thinks he's in one of his games?"

"Well, yes he does and no he doesn't. On the rare occasions that he makes sense, it seems as though he's incredibly stressed, based on the answers he has given to the questions we ask him."

Mello looked up, concern shown in his eyes, the doctor continued without any hesitation, "What I've gathered and assessed is this, Matt is worried over something he most likely shouldn't be, work possibly, I know you two were in a less then reputable business..."

Mello glared, daring the the psychiatrist to continue with his damned assumptions, but the doctor ignored him and continued anyways.

"...and when he's stressed, he plays video games, you should know that better then anyone…"

Mello nodded his head in agreement, and again fixed his gaze on Matt, who was still staring at the spider spinning its web.

And all that you can be was in your mind.

"So you see, Matt was most likely under more pressure then he was used to, so, like always, his mind automatically went to video games, but something inside him snapped, and he receded back into his own fantasy world; which presumably is a video game type place."

Mello looked at the doctor now, still with fear in his eyes but trying to hide it, "And…Is there…" he stopped not being able to finish his thought for fear of the answer, but he asked anyways, "Is there anything we can do to help him?"

As Mello waited for an answer, he watched Matt walk over to the seat next to the blond and sit down next to him, with his head lowered and his arms folded across his lap, he didn't say anything.

And all that you can be was in your…

The doctor spoke up, "…I'm sorry, but, there's nothing we can do for him, except regular sessions, possibly make him an in-patient-"

Mello glared at the doctor, cutting him off, and grabbed Matt's hand and gently stroked it. He may have wanted Matt to get better as fast as he could, but he would be damned if someone was going to take him away.

"It's just a suggestion. Besides, as I was saying, Matt is literally lost in his own world; he's lost within the wreck that is his mind. The Matt you know is in there somewhere but he doesn't…" the doctor sighed, and trailed off not sure how to end his statement.

With his free hand, Mello grabbed Matt's chin and made him look into Mello's eyes, "Matt, you've got to trust yourself, and that mind of yours...I know you always had a fucked up mind but..." Mello tried to give a weak smile and a laugh, as if to say it was a joke, but he wasn't sure if it got through.

Matt, in turn, just frowned and leaned his head against Mello's shoulder, and repeated what he said, "You've got to trust yourself…"

And all that you can be was in your mind.


A/N: Tada! I've been meaning to post this for a while, it was orginally supposed to be a part of a small series I had planned to do off of the Kiss Kiss album, but that focused more on Mello, not Matt. I'm still debating whether or not to do it but...ohh well.

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