I woke in the arms of my love , sighing so he would know i was as he didnt sleep, he was just watching me all night. With another sigh i silently wished that i could tell them , Tell Edward , Alice , the rest of the Cullen had risked their lives for me and i was keeping a secret from them .I just didnt know how well they would handle knowing of my past. I always wanted to tell Edward , he had done everything for me , evan left for my own saftey . Evan now that he is back i am finding myself wanting myself to tell him more than ever before . But i know it is useless.

I cant tell them , no matter how much i really want to . My past is just to haunted and it would put them in more danger than ever before. The Volturi just loved it when i showed up in their castle again , they just loved me ( seriously ) . I was everything to them , they never knew i human could be so powerfull and deadly . I can kill a vampire in less than a second , but i could of course not tell the Cullens that . I could sense the danger about a mile away . Thats one reason it comes to me , danger wants a challenge and im the biggest one yet . But no , i still cant tell my love and his family all of this.

" Love , what are you thinking about so hard , you look upset , and Jasper says you feel upset too." Edward said , pulling me out of my thoughts .

" nothing , edward " i said , sliding out of bed and evading the hand he shot up at inhuman speed to pull me back , mabye a little to skillfully . I looked down , making myself blush , all part of the many things i have learned on keeping secrets.

I walked into the bathroom and brushed my teeth and changed into the clothes Alice put out for me . Not bothering the normal act of putting up a fit , all part of the lies i have to tell , but just to angry to act. When i was done i stormed out of Edwrds room , sensing that the rest of the Cullens were sitting in the living room .When i got down there , Edwrdd was already sitting there and waiting for me , so i went to sit next to him .

All of the Cullens had confused looks on their faces , evan Edward and Alice. Staring at me , wanting to know what was wrong. "What " i snapped a little to harshley .

"Bella , love , `what is wrong ?" Edward asked me , sounding so worried that i sighed and out my head in my hands . It was not their fault i could not tell them , it was the stupid danger of me being who , or some say what i was. I just shook my head.

"Bella , please , what is wrong ? Your emotions are just going crazy , first to anger and remorse , then to sad , then to broken . Im just so confused ." Jasper said , my emotions had to be so strong for him to know them that well , i usually block everything.

"As much as i want to tell you guys , i just cant " i said it , simple and short , not caring thaty they wanted an explanation.

"Bella please , you can tell us anything , you know that we are gonna be there for you no matter what happens" Esme said , in a loving mother voice.

I got up and walked over to stare out he big glass wall , when i sensed Edward trying to come with me i held out my hand , telling him to stay on the couch. Once i was over there i said.. " its just to dangerous for you to know" that got a laugh out of Emmet.

"Bells , how many times do we have to tell you , were vampires , were indestuctible , its impossible for anything to be bangerous twords us" He blurt out , that set me off . I turned around in a second , not caring that the old me was showing . I just couldmt hold it in anymore , it was to strong a part of me .

"That the point you idiot , your a vampire , its just to dangerous for you to know because you are vampires, its to dangerous for your lives , you would get ripped apart and burned to little peices in a single second , no probably less" i exploded , they all looked at me in shock , they had never told me how to kill a Vampire ,i just already knew.

"Be...Bella , what do you mean it will rip us to peices in a second , were not in any danger , and how in hell did you know that was how we were killed" Edward asked me .

"Stupid damn vampires , you just cant put peices together can you , im the dangerous one here , god damn in they are gonna make me kill you now , how could i be stupid enough to try and fight myself , im a killing machine."

They all looked at me shocked.