Rose was snooping through the Doctor's writing desk - she supposed she got it from her mother - when she noticed a book that looked like a diary. She read it, her eyes going wide. Oh, bless him! Was he ever going to show her or Jack?
It was a poem (one that had been re-written a hundred times):
I love you And I will be alone
I can show you the universe But I can't share my hearts I can't say the words But I can mend a wound When the blood starts
How can I violate your trust?
I love you both
Is this why I have two hearts?
I love you
This is my oath
Never will I hurt you Not even for my own happiness
Rose hurried out of the room, heading for Jack...wherever he was. She found him curled up in the library, tongue sticking out the corner of his mouth, scribbling down notes from some book. She bounded up to him.
"Jack!" She hissed. He looked up, eyes bright and tongue replaced by a charming smile...with a bit of saliva he didn't realize was out.
"Yes, doll?" He grinned. She whiped off the spit ( he jerked alittle) then held the diary in full view. "Hey! That's the Doc's!"
"Really? Didn't notice that." Rose rolled her eyes. "Read the poem, stupid."
Jack placed his own book down and took the diary. It took him longer then Rose to read it, but that was because he re-read it a few times. He whistled.
"Who knew he did poetry?"
"Jack!" Rose slid into the seat beside her friend. "Don't you know what that means?"
"He actually does want to shag me?" He replied cheerfully. Rose smacked him. "Sorry! I was kiddin'...sort of..."
"He loves us!"
"Could be two other companions."
Rose stared at him.
"What?" Jack blinked at her. "We arn't the first, you know."
"I know! But...its the latest entry..." Rose trailed off.
Jack went back a few days. "Okay, it is us. You were right. Hey, why is he letting you read this?"
"He's not." Rose shook her head. "He's tinkering with the Tardis. I was just...looking.."
Jack grinned. Rose raised an eyebrow then shouted, "No Jack!"
Jack wasn't listening. He was too busy writing in the Doctor's diary. He showed Rose what he had wrote, pleased as anything. Rose read the poem hesitantly.
We love you doctor too, so stop being a dick And come love us too
"I can't beleive you wrote that." Rose moaned.
"What's wrong with it?" Jack wondered.
"Is it suppose to be a haiku?"
"Yeah."
"You are a moron!" Rose sat down. "And there is no mention of a seasonal word!"
"Can't change it. Its already wrote. Now its your turn. Write something."
Rose glared at him. She wasn't good with poetry, and this was a private book! She snatched Jack's pen anyway. She'd out-do him, she would.
Our hearts and minds belong to you Both of us will be infinity true Don't push us away We will forever stay Three is in this love match brew
Well, it wasn't the best. But it was from her heart...and hopefully Jacks, too. But the ending could of been better.
"Good. Now I can say I wasn't alone." Jack joked. Rose frowned.
"Should I leave this on his desk?"
"Is that where you found it?"
"Yep."
"Then yeah, it would be wise."
"Going, then."
Rose leaped up and disappeared.
Rose had left the diary right where she had found it. Now she was nervously waiting for the Doctor to blow up about her snooping through his things. She had checked on numerous occasions to see if the diary was where she had left it and it wasn't; but the Doctor didn't say or do anything.
Though the day after they had wrote in the Doctor's personal book the Doctor 'accidently' cooked supper with just too much edible sneezing powder in it. He said he mistook it for chilli powder. Uh-huh. That's why he didn't eat any of it.
And then Jack, a few days later, came up to her.
"Look what I found in my room!" He seemed smug.
He handed the diary over to Rose, who read it then frowned.
Blame the Tardis
NO ONE should be able to read the diary
But she left it out in the open and she translated
So I guess she wanted to point out what you have said
But I still can't hurt you -
You don't know, you can't see
I can't explain for your understanding
"Oh that man!" Rose huffed. "Where's a pen!"
"Er...Rose, arn't you going to talk to him?" Jack wondered.
"Give me a bloody pen!" Rose shouted. Jack forked one over, squashing his need to run like a scared rabbit. Rose can look pretty scarry when she wants to.
Rose claimed a seat the Tardis had materialized for her. She bit the end of the pen (only realising that it had come from Jack and she probably shouldn't be putting it in her mouth) and thought. (Not bothering to take the pen out of her mouth - it was there, no use getting worried.)
She wrote the following poem:
Tell me
How do you plan on keeping us safe?
If you
Don't tell us what you feel and damage yourself?
Can we
Trust you if you hide everything you are?
If you
Show us you love and care
Tell me
Why you think it would hurt us
Rose nodded, satisfied. Jack peered over her shoulder.
"Nice. Your inviting an angry Time Lord, you know that."
"Really? If he loves us he shouldn't -"
"But Rose!" Jack sighed. "You don't understand...what he's been through..."
"I thought you'd wanted this." Rose looked at him. "You do LOVE him, right?"
"Yeah, but I'm also aware of his-"
"Exactly!" Rose looked triamphed. "If we love each other-"
"We arn't in a fairy tale."
"Jack, I know that." Rose sighed. "But...we need some happiness, yeah? Besides...after losing his homeworld...everything that was in the universe he held dear gone...he needs us Jack. I'm not giving up on him just because he's a stubborn old Time Lord. He might want to be alone and torturing himself but-"
"Rose, he'll do anything to save the universe!"
"THEN I'LL LET HIM!" Rose bellowed. She clamped a hand over her mouth.
"Now why didn't you put that in the poem?" Jack asked, surprised. He took the diary. "My turn."
When he was done, Rose read it, and she was happy to see he didn't use it as a plaything - this one was serious. But it also counteracted her poem a tad bit.
We know you have a duty We know you need to do things We know it might not be easy nor simple nor fun
We won't hold you responsible We won't say it was your fault We won't hate you for doing what needs to be done
We know the universe needs help We know your the only one that can We know you might need to sacrifice us somewhere along the way
We won't blame you for the hardships We won't let you be the only one to sacrifice We won't let you fall into darkness when we can maybe pull you out of harms way
"That is so much better then that haiku." Rose sniffed.
"Hey! I liked my haiku!" Jack protested. "It was mine and it was direct!"
"And it sucked."
"That too."
