The bar was full that night. The worst night of my life and yet I had a concert at a bar to do. I had no need to be here and yet here I stand, in front of a crowd with all of these stupid lights in my eyes. I squinted at them then grabbed the microphone, clearing my voice.
"H-hello. My name is Tohru Honda and I will be singing a song called 'When You're Gone'. I hope that you all enjoy it." I took the mic off of the stand moving it out of the way as I heard the pianist begin.
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side
I looked into the audience. They were smiling. They were enjoying it.
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
Then he caught my eye. Front row. Third seat from the middle. What was he doing here? I closed my eyes, pretending he wasn't here, or else I was going to start to cry.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
In truth, this song was for him. Every emotion, every feeling, every thought. It was all for him. The words were truly meant for him to hear. Yet, could he handle hearing them?
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on my floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
In truth, I don't believe he can handle hearing them. If he can take knowing the pain I bear everyday of my life. If he can handle any of those feelings, he is truly my hero…
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
Maybe he can still be my hero. I opened my eyes to see him there, still. With every bit of emotion as anyone would get from a sing like this.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
That was when I let it out. Every emotion. Every thought. It all was poured into the song. The song and I are one. The music. The crowd. We all are one. One in a whole.
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe; I need to feel you here with me
Yeah
Then I felt the single tear. It fell down my cheek. The journey of it felt like forever. As if time were suspended for that single tear. It could last a lifetime. Until it fell onto my collarbone, visible due to my shirt. I closed my eyes again
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone told me you were different. Yu
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
The last piano of the son played as I softly held the last note. Once finished I opened my eyes to meet straight with his. He and I stayed there for a moment before I was interrupted by applause. A roaring applause. I bowed the exited the stage, wiping more tears from my eyes. Then, I ran into him.
"Tohru I-"
"You what Ryuu?" I met with his eyes. He cringed, as if afraid. I had been hurt from him, and hurt badly. My world had been torn apart and I got not phone call from him at a later date to make sure I was okay. Not. One. Call. And it had hurt. Everyday expecting something to happen, nothing had. And nothing will now.
"You blew it Ryuu. You lost your chance." I sighed, letting soft tears fall down my cheeks. "You. You told me you were different. You said that you weren't like other guys. You weren't like any of them. But I think I realize that you are." It hurt to say it. It truly did, and I didn't want to but it had to be done. " I am sorry that you feel we can pick up where we left off. But. But I don't think I can handle that heartbreak again Ryuu. I juts can't. You get it?" I saw the hurt in his eyes. Now he knows how I felt all those days he wasn't there for me. All those days I never had someone to hold me when I cried.
"But Tohru,"
"Do not even try that. Now just-just go. Before anything else happens." Then, as he walked away I did as I had before, I counted his footsteps. It took hi 8 steps to get to that door. He turned around and looked at me.
"I thought we were meant for each other Ryuu, but we are not. We are two completely different people. And sadly, I don't feel sorry about it." Then, ass soon as the door shut. I cried.
ELLO!! Mean-hi! n.n' lolz. So this is good, I think. I like it. It is very depressing but hey, I have been in a depressing kinda mood lately so wat is a girl to do huh? n.n LOTS OF LUB!!
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