A/N: This is slash pairing Angel/Xander. I own nothing! This chapter has been edited. For the rest of the chapters that I plan to edit I am only going to type (Edited) at the end of whatever A/N the chapter already had.
I still remember the words he said to me over half a year ago. "I am sorry Xander, I can't do this anymore. I still love Buffy with all my heart and soul". I never should have trusted a vampire. I was just an object used to scratch an itch.
None of the others are speaking to me. None of us are even friends anymore. They officially kicked me out of the Scooby gang eight months ago when Deadboy let it slip that we were together after his last breakup with Buffy. Even after that they still accepted him.
I was so pissed off at first, but now I just consider it a necessary sacrifice. I know that I never should have trusted him, however I will never regret being with him. I learned some very important lessons from that experience. Plus he left me with a very precious gift. My daughter, my first born, and my only child. She is my life.
It was quite a shock when I found out that I was pregnant. I mean males are not supposed to get knocked up! I thought it might have been because of the hyena possession. The hyena that possessed my body was an alpha female. We had been merging for months before I even got with Deadboy. That just wasn't the case. It turns out that my mother is not quite human. She is a Dark Elf. It doesn't matter if you are male or female, they both can bare young. Well…that's all well and good, but it didn't explain the fact that a vampire knocked me up! My mother explained that Elves no matter what kind are extremely fertile and it didn't matter if the partner was a vampire.
I found out that the hyena eliminated the human genes in my body. I am no longer human. I am half Hyena Primal and half Dark Elf. Being part Dark Elf also explained why I was such a demon magnet. It's the blood. No matter how tainted or diluted the blood is it calls to other demons. How's that for being a hopeless zeppo.
They made a mistake pushing me away and then turning their backs on me. You should never turn your back on someone who might end up shoving a knife through it. They let in Spike when Drusilla got dusted shortly after I was kicked out, and they accepted Faith back into the group even after both of them tried to kill them.
I may not speak to them anymore, but I do know what is going on. They are worried about the Mayor and his plans to eliminate them before his ascension. I know because I struck a deal with him because I know their strengths and weaknesses. I know all their secrets. I feed him information on the Scoobies and he pays me lots of money (not that I need it. Once I came into my Dark Elf blood I inherited millions from my clan). I even have the Library bugged. I am not really going to help him ascend. I just want him to kill off and piss off as many of them as possible. So I don't half to. After all I have a kid to think about and I don't want that kind of thing running lose in my town. I finally have power and I am going to use it.
The Scoobies just don't matter anymore. If they couldn't respect me as a friend; then they can fear me as an enemy.
