Hidden girl:
I've been staring at the girl in the mirror which feels like enternity, but it has only been 5 minutes. I close my eyes again and all the memories of everyone around me that come into my life ever since I had come to Tokyo 3, keep playing like a broken record.
There were places we would go at midnight
Everything that I have kept inside me bottled up is tearing my soul and my pride won't let me give away my secrets.
There were secrets that no body else would know
I was cruel, rude and brash to keep everyone away from my heart. Ever since I was betrayed by my parents, I never wanted to get hurt again so I kept pushing everyone away. But in the end, they saw something. And it wasn't me.
There's a reason why but I don't know why
I don't know why
I don't know why
I thought they all belonged to me
I have changed for the worst. I was once a sweet & good girl, but now I'm a harsh & cruel eva pilot. Everyone know thinks I am truly her but I'm not. They can't see that this girl that they see, that I see, is scared little girl but she's kind & loving and wants to be saved from this mask.
Who's that girl?
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one
That you want
That has stolen my world
It's not real
It's not right
It's my day
It's my night
By the way, who's that girl?
Living my life
Oh no
Living my life
Everyday I go through the same routine of being the "Great Asuka Langley Sorhyu" and people just go with it. Can't they see that I want to be saved? Why won't they help me? Why can't they get rid of this barrier surrounding me that is blocking out all life? It feels like a never ending nightmare that'll go on for enternity.
Seems like everything's the same around me
Then I look again and everything has changed
I'm not dreaming so I don't know why
I don't know why
I don't know why
She's everywhere I wanna be
Even my best friend can't see that this is all an act. But even if I changed, everyone would probably hurt me again and they think that I'm pathetic & weak like Shinji.
Who's that girl?
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one
That you want
That has stolen my world
It's not real
It's not right
It's my day
It's my night
By the way, who's that girl?
Living my life
I think of all the good times I had with Hikari, Kaji, Misato, Pen Pen, Maya, Hyuga, Maya, Aoba, Commander Fuyutski, even Wondergirl and those 3 stooges because of my actions.
I'm the one that made you laugh
Made you feel
Made you sad
I'm not sorry
But when you really think about it, that was never me doing it. It was her.
For what we did
For who we were
I'm not sorry
I'm not her
So I'm trapped and I will never be free unless I've been blessed with death. But that isn't going to happen by accident, I'd have to do it myself. But I won't because I don't want to turn out like my mother. Or maybe I'll be free until someone sees my suffering. I don't know but for now, I have to go to school and then to NERV. Playing a fake role.
Who's that girl?
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one
That you want
That has stolen my world
It's not real
It's not right
It's my day
It's my night
By the way, who's that girl?
Living my life
Oh no
Living my life
End.
AN: Sorry to anyone that thought that Asuka was too OOC and a bit too depressing for my comfort but it was the only way to get it right. What do you guys think about the choice of song? I'm sorry if you hate it but I like it and to me that was the perfect choice for Asuka. Please R&R if you guys liked and yes I know this is another Hilary Duff sing but I don't care.
