Don't choke on the bone fragments.

Epilogue

-What do you get when you fall in love?

You only get lies, pain and sorrow.

It makes you feel like you are capable of everything.

Whether you like it or not: love makes you vulnerable, because the one you fall in love with has all the power over you.

You do things your mother told you never to do.

You feel things that are so strong that they'll force you in directions you should never be.

And when this overwhelming feeling ends…

Then you fall, you fall out of love, you fall apart.

But still you need it, love is all we need, other people are what matters.

Without love we would be nothing but silhouettes.

Life is like walking a tight rope, its all about balance.

Balance is what keeps us alive, either physically as Mentally.

As her tears mixed up with rain, Addison walked true the streets of Seattle.

There was nothing more she could do.

They were done, they weren't Addison and Derek anymore.

Raindrops kept falling from the overcastted sky, thunder and lightning succeeded each other.

The only light that shines up on the streets is coming from a few windows of people's houses.

But nothing frightened her, she kept walking, she had nothing to be afraid of.

After all, it couldn't get any worse.

She needed to feel something, her whole body felt numb.

She needed alcohol, A lot of alcohol.

But it was late, all the bars where closed and she didn't have anywhere to go.

Derek was in his freaking trailer, screwing the dark and twisty, twelve year old intern.

She could go to a hotel…with a mini-bar!

She grabbed the ends of her dress, pulled them together and started walking towards a big street with many lights.

Walking became running as she saw a cab coming her way.

"The archfield please"

Five glasses of martini and seven shots of straight tequila later she decided that it was time to call Mark.

She needed him here.

He could ease the pain of her failed marriage, and her ass of a husband.

Mark was what she needed now, apart from alcohol, she needed the sex and the compliments that made her feel special.

Mark always made her feel special and she needed to be special, everybody needs to feel special from time to time…

Strong yellow light, strange shadows and weird noises woke Addison from her drunkdreaming."

Her eyes open, slowly reaching out, something to get her up.

Moaning she pushed herself up to sitting position, with help from the nightstand she was able to get on her feet.

She rushed to the bathroom as the world around her started spinning.

Heaving, the strong taste and finally the clattering sound of vomit.

There was one plus point to this situation, she finally felt something, she was able to feel again!

the feeling that she felt was a nightmare, but still, she had feeling!

She started crawling back to bed, as soon as her head hit the pillow she was off to a place far, far away…