Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters of Supernatural. They are all Kripke's creation.
All characters' thoughts are in italics.
Thanks Shannon for your beta work!
Hell on Earth
Tears partially fill my eyes threatening to spill over and stream down my face
No matter how many tears I shed
No matter how many drinks I down
What I did will be forever etched in my memory
Big deal I held out for thirty years
I should have held on indefinitely
People keep telling me to forgive myself
How can I do that when all I see in my dreams are all the poor souls I tortured just to relieve my own suffering
How selfish was that?
Those torture sessions will continue to haunt me until the day that I die
There is no forgiveness for me only never ending pain
