take you home
.
death will be knocking on your door
tonight, my dear
(and every night to come)
you are losing, don't you feel it
(did you ever have a chance?)
and you will
f
a
l
l
with your eyes wide open
and still, you're blind
.
greet him like a friend
(though you don't know what that is anymore
do you?)
i don't know about remus, he's a – you said
(didn't you promise once it doesn't matter?)
it's the perfect ruse – dog said – everyone will believe it's me
(and, oh, they did)
(but sirius was used to calling hell his home
wasn't he?)
you can trust me – rat said
(and it will always be his best prank)
.
weren't you supposed to be responsible?
(weren't you supposed to be safe?)
.
you know death well, don't you, dear?
you've gambled with him
t-e-a-s-e-d and taunted and escaped
(not anymore)
your luck is running o u t
(and you'll go out with a bang
but now you only want to stay alive,
don't you, dead man?)
.
hold your sweet little son
one last time
pathishair, squeezehishand, kisshisnose
memorize his smile
(it will be his last one for a longlong while)
because while you are u^p in
[heaven]
he'll be d˅o˅w˅n in
perfectnormalnonmagicalhell
(he's a freak like you, my dear)
.
death smiles at you
with redred eyes
( - like your blood, don't you know)
why don't you -
(why don't you smile back?)
(why don't you greet him with open arms?)
(why are you afraid?)
why can't you die with grace
when you can't defy death at all?
.
what will it be?
will you give up e-a-s-i-l-y
will you fight with everything you've got
(what little is left)
it doesn't matter, don't you know?
you are already dead
(no matter that you're still b.r.e.a.t.h.i.n.g)
.
i'll die for you – they said
every single one of them
(and you be/lie\ved them)
because what you had was {unique}
unbreakable
who was there when you broke?
when you followed death
[home]
(and left hell to everyone else)
.
who is to blame, my dear
but you?
reckless sirius
(for believing he could challenge fate)
[fading] remus
(for never standing up for himself)
~little~ peter
(for being afraid)
only f-o-o-l-i-s-h you
(for being the w/ea\k link)
for taking them down
(and falling yourself)
.
why are you so s.u.r.p.r.i.s.e.d?
haven't you known long enough
you've been an auror, dear
an order member
a target
(father of the ~prophesized~ child)
you've had it coming
(and [knocking] on your door)
you've been too bright
and now you
b
u
r
n
.
your end comes in ~vibrant~ green
engulfing you whole
(like the eyes you love so much)
and there's no [white] light
no stream of memories
and your last thoughts aren't of
lovehateregret
but of four little boys
never knowing what dying felt like
(because you were just starting to live)
.
you weren't used to losing
still thinking life's a [game]
(and you've been always on the w-i-n-n-i-n-g side)
until someone changed the rules
(and you can't cheat death, don't you know)
do you remember, my dear,
when you were the king?
(now it seems you were only a pawn, after all)
never really important for winning
never hard to sacrifice
(never worth a second thought)
.
you were never meant to be a footnote
but here you are:
forgotten
(oh, they speak of lily's [love]
sometimes
never)
they'll celebrate your death
do you hear them c-h-e-e-r-i-n-g?
do you see them living the life you'll never have?
.
don't regret a thing
don't fight it
don't –
bullshit
don't worry lils, we're invincible, you said
but you've always been good at lying to yourself
(and she believed you)
(and she was glad when you went into hiding)
(and she thought you were safe)
(and she'll die just the same)
.
death will guide you {home}
tonight, my dear
(and you can't even be glad that
it's all o-v-e-r
because it's just wrong)
because you were meant to be golden
now you're only cold ash
[forgotten]
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