Better to have it and not need it than...Summary : Loki's thoughts at the end of Thor: Ragnarok
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Even though they lost their home tonight, Loki still feels content and happy; it's a feeling that he hasn't been able to experience in a long long time. He's standing besides his brother, for once feeling equal. They've managed to fight besides each other for once, instead of being on the opposite sides of the battle field. His whole life he'd felt different, like he didn't belong but today he felt like he'd belonged, standing besides his brother, the only person who he's ever looked up to, the only person whose opinion that ever mattered to him.
When Thor had said that "he could be more" and that "there's still good in him", those words did something to him; it ignited a spark back into him that was close to extinguishing. It made him reflect back to the good ol' days when they were young and carefree with no weight of the world, when fighting together for Asgard was done more for fun than out of any real responsibility. Those were the days that he remembers fondly in his darkest of hours, those are the most cherished memories that he keeps closest to his heart.
He doesn't remember the last time he'd hugged his brother but today, in his brother's arms he'd felt... Loved and when his brother had trusted him with the important task of resurrecting Surtar using he eternal flames, he'd felt ...Trustworthy. He hadn't let his brother down this time and he accomplished the task.
He knew that it was hard for his brother to trust him again but he had, and together they had managed to save Asgard. Asgard may have fallen today but it's people still remain and they are the ones who make Asgard. The place may be gone but it's people remain and they shall forever remember and keep Asgard in their hearts.
He however has another thing to remember Asgard by.
The Tesseract.
He plans to tell Thor that he managed to save it before Asgard fell but not today. Today, he just wants to feel alive and loved and trusted.
Thor might doubt his intentions in savings the Tesseract but he will convince him that he for once has no evil intentions or mischiefs planned. He will convince his brother that he could not let an artefact of its calibre burn away and be lost forever when he had a chance to save it.
He will convince Thor that its always better to have something and not need it than to need it and not have it.
He was the one with the long term vision and plans after all.
He'll do all of that... but not today. Today, he just wants to revel in this feeling of contentment and belonging and loved.
The End.
