Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew
What I know today
Ooh, ooh
"Don, You did as much as you could," my younger brother, Charlie, said attempting to comfort me. The most recent case we had been working together on had gone downhill. A serial killer had claimed his twelfth victim before we could get to her. Instead of being comforted by Charlie's words, I grew angry. "Like hell I did," I yelled as I rounded on him, "another young woman is dead because I didn't do all I could fast enough."
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Charlie looked hurt by my words, and I knew instantly I shouldn't have yelled at him. He didn't say anything. He just walked away. I didn't follow him, I walked in the other direction not knowing that my actions would have a consequence greater than I could imagine.
Ohh
I'm sorry for
Blaming you
For everything
I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you
I got in my SUV and drove off, not caring where my brother went. In my mind, every negative thought that I had ever thought about Charlie came back. My old mindset came back. Everything was Charlie's fault in my mind. For the split second that that came into my head, I instantly felt guilty. It wasn't his fault a psychopath had decided to go on a killing spree.
Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh
A sudden disturbance caught my eye. It appeared that there had been some sort of accident. Judging by the crowd of people, it was bad. I sighed as my inner agent kicked in. I pulled over to try to help restore the peace, the officers on scene looked as if they already had their hands full. Flashing my badge, I made my way through the crowd of curious onlookers.
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
My heart stopped when I got in the center of the action. A bicycle was strewn in the street. It wasn't only totaled; it was covered in blood as well. I slowly approached the bike, it looked familiar. In horror, I turned to the gurney that the victim was being loaded onto. I was greeted by the sight of curly brown hair matted with blood, ashen skin, and clouded brown eyes, obviously in pain. This man was, with no doubt, the younger brother that I had left only minutes before.
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Seeing my shock, one of the medics asked if I knew who the unfortunate bicyclist was. After telling him, they let me in the back of the ambulance with my half dead brother.
Ohh
I'm sorry for
Blaming you
For everything
I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
Ohh
When we reached the hospital, it was only a rush of color and sound. They whisked Charlie away, and left me in the waiting room. Waiting for news of the brother I would never see again.
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
A doctor in blood-spattered scrubs came out of the operating room after what seemed like an eternity. I was barely comprehending what he was saying. All I understood was, "I'm sorry, we did all we could."
I'm sorry for
Blaming you
For everything
I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you
Now, I'm standing alone in front of a headstone that reads: "Charles E. Eppes, beloved brother and son, you will be forever missed." Unable to hold back any longer, I broke down. "I'm sorry, Buddy," I choked, "It's my fault."
-The End-
A/N: My first one shot/ song-fic. The song is "Hurt" by Christina Aguilera for anyone who cares.
